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Tweak says, "i can't help it!!"

the lady door (door) wrote in thedoorway,
@ 2013-08-14 18:31:00

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Sometimes I forget my father's dead. It's easy to do here. Just visiting, home still a snapshot from the last time we were all there at once. His smile and my mother's laugh, wet with wine and glowing in warm orange candlelight. And a wicked glint in my brother's eye and my sister's baby blonde curls just peeking over the table as he chased her.

And then I remember that no matter how much I practise, I will never open a door to them.

But I have learned to open doors to friends, so that's a small victory to be proud of. And it's all right to grieve and be happy at the same time.

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	eyeinthesky 2013-08-14 10:24 pm UTC (link)
	That makes more sense. That's what happens to me, momentarily forgetting that he's gone, I mean. I thought maybe you had some kind of secret method to really forget. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	door 2013-08-14 10:27 pm UTC (link)
	I think here it becomes easier to forget so many things. It's all so sterile and clean and removed here, so distant from everything I've ever known. But I wouldn't wish forgetting on anyone, not real forgetting. I just want to remember as best as I'm able. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	eyeinthesky 2013-08-14 10:32 pm UTC (link)
	No, they deserve more than to be forgotten. Have you been here long? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	door 2013-08-14 10:37 pm UTC (link)
	We all do, I think. And I think there is always someone who remembers each of us. I'm not very good with time but a month or two? Three? I think. At least two. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	eyeinthesky 2013-08-14 10:51 pm UTC (link)
	I suppose ~~unless everyone you know is gone~~. I guess if I'm still here in two months, I'll see if things seem more distant. It's a nice thought, though. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	door 2013-08-14 11:04 pm UTC (link)
	Have you just arrived? I'm sorry, this is a very melancholy greeting, isn't it? I hope you don't feel too distant... unless. Well, unless you didn't like where you came from. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	eyeinthesky 2013-08-14 11:10 pm UTC (link)
	No need to apologize. I'm glad to be out of that ~~hell~~ place, just wish I had time to finish what I had to do. It seems a lot of people come and go from here often though, so who knows how long this will last. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	door 2013-08-14 11:17 pm UTC (link)
	Some people have been here a very long time, and some people come and go over and over. It's very confusing. But I understand about unfinished business. I have something very unfinished that I wish I could attend to. I try not to think about that either. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	eyeinthesky 2013-08-14 11:47 pm UTC (link)
	Wait, are you saying it's possible to leave and come back? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	door 2013-08-14 11:55 pm UTC (link)
	I am, though not voluntarily, as far as I can recall. I think those who leave forget their time here when they return, so I don't know if that happens always or only sometimes or if it means something deeper that I haven't thought of yet. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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