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Elena Gilbert (bewitcheries) wrote in the_triangle_rp,
@ 2012-04-03 23:10:00

remember that time that i didn't have a million threads going at once? ME EITHER. I love it.
Characters: Elena Gilbert and Caroline Forbes
Rating: PG-13, adjusted as needed
Cautions/Warnings: Language, brooding, the usual to be expected of TVD characters
Location: Arrival huts
Approximate Date: After this.
Status: Open (subject to discussion)

Gone were the days that Elena thought she could cope with everything on her own. Doubtless, it wouldn't stop her perpetually stubborn self from trying it all over again sooner rather than later, but on that day in particular, things had reached breaking point. She couldn't go to Damon, nor Stefan. Being part of the problem meant that they couldn't be part of the solution, and with the massive sledgehammer to the chest that was the appearance of Jenna, Elena needed her best friend then more than she ever possibly had before. It was with this thought in mind that Elena went hunting through the makeshift homes in search of Caroline.

She pushed her head into several of the huts and made a lot of half-hearted apologies as she searched for the blonde girl, growing more frustrated, more impatient and, most importantly, coming closer to the verge of tears with every failure to find her friend. It wasn't often that Elena actively went out to seek help, and she could almost feel the time before her headstrong, overly pride side came out in full force and ruined any progress that she was trying to make in the mess of problems that their lives had become. Letting out a small noise of pent up frustration, Elena scraped her fingers through her hair and looked around as she moved in a slow circle. All she wanted in that moment was a stupid cell phone, and some damn signal. She hadn't realised how much she took for granted until she had arrived on this island, but now wasn't the time for existential awareness of her privileged life. Now, all she wanted was to pour her heart out to her friend, maybe cry a bit and, hopefully, figure out how to fix the mess that she had made.

Finally Elena tried another hut, looked around to find it empty and that was it, she snapped at last. Everything that had been building up since she had first arrived on the island suddenly unleashed itself, unable to be contained and quashed any longer. She hit the outside wall hard, a loud sob escaping that she didn't care about enough to try and keep quiet as she rest her head against the wall. Everything was happening so soon, so fast, and she honestly didn't know how to cope with it all. She turned so her back was against the wall, and slid down slowly until she was sitting on the ground with her knees against her chest. Elena looked a complete state, with tear stains all over her face, blood stains still on her shirt and her hair a mess from all the time she had been spending with her hands in it - twisting, pushing, pulling and tugging constantly through the day as she had tried to process the events of the last few weeks. Elena's head dropped to her knees and she gasped softly before mumbling, "Caroline, where the hell are you?"

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vampycaroline
2012-04-03 06:54 pm UTC (link)

Caroline definitely needed to spend some time with her best friend, too. Aside from all of the crap with her father, being on this island had really messed with her head, and Elena was the one constant, the one person that she knew she could count on no matter what happened. She just wanted to have some girl time with her, forget her troubles and her conflicted thoughts and concentrate on other things, namely what was going on with her best friend.

After talking to Damon the other day, Caroline had finally figured out what the deal was between he and Elena. Evidently her friend had told Damon that she had feelings for him, and then kissed Stefan and told him that she loved him, too. Elena hadn't known that Damon had been right there to hear it, of course, but unfortunately he'd seen everything and was as confused as ever about their relationship, as was Caroline. She knew that her best friend tended to be indecisive in matters of the heart, but this was getting ridiculous. She couldn't lead the Salvatore brothers on anymore. She needed to figure out what she wanted, and fast.

Caroline wanted to help her figure it all out, so she set out to search for her and get her to open up. It was kind of funny how life worked sometimes, though, because while she was tearing up the woods and the rest of the village looking for Elena, her friend was doing the exact same thing, the end result being that neither one of them could find the other until it was too late.

When Caroline finally did find Elena, her heart broke for her. She'd heard sobbing from outside one of the huts and she'd immediately run for it, then let out a cry of her friend's name when she saw that she was the one crumpled and broken against the wall. Her first thought was that she was hurt physically, so she knelt beside her and grasped her shoulders gently, asking urgently, "Elena, Elena are you okay? Are you hurt? What's wrong, hun? Talk to me."

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bewitcheries
2012-04-03 07:30 pm UTC (link)

Elena's head jerked up as she heard Caroline's voice, and she made a rather useless attempt to wipe the tears off her face as the girl took hold of her shoulders. Elena just tipped her head slightly to rest against Caroline's hand, gave her friend a watery smile and closed her eyes again as she shook her head. Hurt was relative, though she supposed she had no real reason to feel hurt as such in this situation. Elena could not deny that everything that was going wrong at the moment had been her doing. It had been her who had followed Stefan and gotten on the boat, leading both her and Damon here. It had been her blood that Klaus had killed Jenna for. It was her feelings that was causing the new rift between her, Damon and Stefan. That didn't make her chest ache any less though, and she reached up after a moment and leaned in to give Caroline a hug, chest heaving as she tried hard to prevent tears from bursting out again. Once you started crying, it was very hard to stop again, it seemed.

"I'm fine, Car. I'm not hurt, I'm fine," she said as insistently as she could manage, shaking her arms a little bit as if to demonstrate 'see? in full working order', but she didn't loosen her grip on Caroline any. If anything, she just hugged her a little closer and squeezed her eyes shut as for one fleeting moment she wished that she shared the ability to just shut it off. It was the first time in her life that she had wished for any kind of likeness to a vampire, and that thought alone hit her harder than anything had in a long time. "Car, things are so screwed up right now."

She had no idea how to tell her, honestly. How was she supposed to tell her best friend that she had managed to go and develop feelings for Damon of all people, the one person that so-called "Saint Elena" (a very unfitting title as of late, it seemed) had swore until she was blue that she would never have feelings for. Hadn't she been insisting to him only months ago that it would "always be Stefan"? That seemed so long ago now, and she wished that she was just as certain about things now as she had been back then. Damon had stuck by her through so much, but that didn't change the fact that she was still truly in love with Stefan. Even trying to think it out too much started giving her another pounding headache, and rather than deal with all of that just yet, Elena instead opted for the more recent news that had sent her head reeling. "Caroline, I don't know how it happened but Jenna's here, and it's really her."

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vampycaroline
2012-04-03 08:07 pm UTC (link)

Caroline sympathized with Elena, even if it was true that at least with Damon and Stefan, a lot of the conflict was due to her actions. After all, what was a girl to do, when two hot guys were totally nuts about her? They both had good elements and bad ones, and it didn't surprise Caroline one bit that Elena was feeling confused about which guy she felt more for. She didn't blame her for it, and she just wanted to help her figure out what she wanted so that she could set the situation right for good.

As for the other stuff, Caroline would not allow Elena to blame herself. She was not in control of other people's feelings or actions, only her own. Klaus had been the one to kill Jenna, not her. Stefan had been the one to leave; Elena hadn't asked him to. Elena just had the tendency to take on too much responsibility for others, mostly because she was a control freak and would rather blame herself for everything than possibly think that such evil could exist outside her own mind. Caroline understood it, but she still wouldn't allow it. No way in hell.

"Okay, it's okay," Caroline said soothingly when Elena hugged her, letting out a breath of relief when she said she wasn't hurt, at least not physically. Obviously Caroline knew that the whole 'I'm fine' thing was less than true for the mental stuff, but at least she wasn't seriously injured on top of that. Stroking her hair and rocking her back and forth, she murmured, "I know, sweetie. I know things are rough. It's gonna be okay, though. Let's just talk it out."

Caroline understood Elena's problem with Damon more than she could even express at the moment. After all, she'd been the one to date him and those feelings had never quite disappeared, so being trapped on an island with him was definitely stirring up a lot of things that she didn't want to confront. Damon was just... he was a sneaky guy, and somehow he managed to creep up on people's hearts without them even realizing it. She got it, that was for sure.

"What?" Caroline blurted when Elena said that Jenna was on the island. She'd been expecting a subject change-- this was Elena, after all-- but she hadn't expected that. She was so shocked for a moment that she allowed the distraction, smiling widely as she clarified, "She's really here? She's alive? Oh my God, Elena, that's great! I mean, obviously not great that she's stuck here too, but it's better than the alternative, right?"

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bewitcheries
2012-04-06 05:40 am UTC (link)

Elena had never been good at accepting things that were out of her control. Until the day, years ago, back on Wickery Bridge, she never really had to. Her whole life, before her parents, had been perfect. She was a cheerleader, she had two of the most amazing friends, a fantastic boyfriend. There had been no need for holding onto control when things had been that way. Then everything changed when her parents died, and suddenly Elena had been left scrabbling for anything that she could hold onto to regulate things again. Now things were crazier than ever, and so naturally Elena's natural instincts were to micro-manage everything, to take the weight of the world on her shoulders and try to fix every problem herself. Unfortunately, and the current display of emotions was a testament to that, she couldn't handle that weight.

"It's okay," Elena repeated as she held onto Caroline tightly, taking deep gasps of air to try and quell the tears that didn't seem to be letting up any time soon, "It's going to be okay. You're right."

It was terrible that Stefan and Damon were even in her mind at a time like this, but alas they were and Elena couldn't change that. She knew that she had to figure out what to do, the only problem was that she had no idea how she was supposed to get to that point. Both Salvatores were so dear to her, the thought of hurting either of them just made her feel awful all over again.

"She's not alive," Elena interrupted Caroline, and the real reason why she was so upset by Jenna appearing on this island made her cry all over again. She felt exactly as she had done that day at her aunt's funeral, totally unable to hold it together, and she looked at Caroline with tear-filled eyes before biting her lower lip to try and hold everything in, "He- Klaus. He got to her still. I thought maybe if she had survived the ritual, she might not have- But he still got her. She's a vampire. She's a vampire and she's stuck here, and it's my fault."

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vampycaroline
2012-04-06 06:19 am UTC (link)

Caroline knew that Elena had been through a lot in her teenage life, and she sympathized with her deeply, albeit she'd learned after the first few months that outright displays of her understanding weren't appreciated by her tough best friend. Elena was the type of girl who couldn't handle it when people constantly asked her how she was doing or said 'poor thing' on a regular basis, because it would put her right over the edge of a nervous breakdown. Caroline had learned her lesson on that front, and now just offered a shoulder to cry on whenever Elena needed it.

That being said, this whole thing with Damon and Stefan most definitely could not wait until Elena was ready to talk about it, because unlike her parents' death, this was something that she could control, that she could fix. It wasn't something that would fade over time; it was something that needed to be dealt with, and soon. Caroline knew this, and would push her as gently as she could to open up about it, because if she didn't make a decision, it would just fester and end up worse in the long run. She understood that she didn't want to hurt the Salvatore brothers, but sometimes the hard decisions were the ones that made things better in the end. Waiting too long would only hurt everyone more.

"Yes, I am. It's going to be fine, I promise you," Caroline kept soothing her, pressing her palm to the back of her head and hugging her tightly. She stroked her back while she cried, but her hand paused in its movement when the other girl said that Jenna wasn't, in fact, alive. She was about to ask her what the heck was going on when Elena began to explain, and Caroline's stomach sunk in realization that Jenna was actually a vampire.

"Oh, honey, I'm so sorry," she sighed, squeezing her again. She put her hands on her shoulders and waited for her to meet her gaze, a serious expression coming to her face. Her I-mean-business side was coming out, and she wanted Elena to know it. "I know it sucks, but you cannot blame yourself for this, okay? You didn't make her a vampire; Klaus did. You didn't hurt her. You love her, you'd do anything for her, and she knows that. She doesn't blame you. I don't even have to talk to her to know that she puts all the blame where it belongs: on Klaus, not on you." She pushed Elena's hair off of her wet, flushed face, heart breaking at how sad she looked. "We'll get through this. I'll talk to Jenna, get her through the rough spots. I'm sure Damon and Stefan will help, too."

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bewitcheries
2012-04-09 03:30 pm UTC (link)

Elena sighed and let Caroline hold her for a moment. Going slack and letting the tension drain from her body, she rubbed her hands over her face for a moment to try and collect herself before wrapping her arms around Caroline. She honestly felt like all the fight had left her, she didn't know how she was supposed to stay strong through all of this. She had tried so hard to do everything she was supposed to, but somehow things kept happening and people kept getting hurt. She was faced with a choice that she had never even considered having to make before - between the two brothers that both meant so much to her, and if that hadn't been enough to keep her up at night, she now had the far bigger problem of how exactly she was supposed to help Jenna.

"I don't know if it will," Elena admitted, quietly and more to herself than directed at her best friend, and for a moment she felt utterly hopeless. No matter how hard she tried, things still kept getting worse and she was less capable than ever of making it better. Her bargain with Klaus made her feel dirty and weak, even more so now that Jenna was here and a vampire at his hands. "Car, she wouldn't even let me get near her when she found out."

Elena looked down at the gash on her hand, still nowhere near to healing. In part that was due to the awkward positioning of the wound - cuts on the palm tended to reopen frequently with the constant movement - but tearing it open again with the rock certainly hadn't helped at all. She sighed slightly, flexed her hand and winced a little before pressing it against her shirt again. She'd have to wash the blood out again later. She was getting sick of doing that already. The thought of her aunt, alone in the hut and cowering from the sun, at a loss for what to do, hurt her more than ever and she bit her lower lip lightly as she looked at Caroline with pleading eyes.

"Do you think you can help her? I can't ask Damon and Stefan, not right now. Not after all that's happened lately. Car, it's Jenna. I have to help her, but she won't let me. She's so scared that she's going to hurt me and I just-" Elena had to pause, sucking in a deep breath to try and pull herself back from the brink of falling apart again. It was getting so hard to stay strong lately. "I've got to do something for her, and you've been through this. You understand, more than I'll ever be able to. She needs someone right now, and she won't let it be me. Can you help?"

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vampycaroline
2012-04-09 11:23 pm UTC (link)

In Caroline's loving opinion, Elena did too much a lot of the time. Caroline adored the girl, but she scrambled so hard to make everyone happy, she often ended up making an even bigger mess than she'd had when she started. Being too compassionate was better than not being compassionate enough, of course, but it could still cause problems and sometimes Caroline just wanted to tie Elena to a chair and let the world figure out its own issues without her. Elena couldn't fix everything on the planet all by herself, after all, and Caroline wished she could impress that on her without breaking her friend's spirit.

"Look, Elena, you have to relax," she said quietly, rubbing her back in an effort to get the girl to stop panicking about things she couldn't control. "What's that one quote? Accept the things you can't change? Have the wisdom to know the difference, something like that?" She laughed at her own inability to recite the verse correctly, but she hoped that Elena would understand what she meant regardless. "Focus on what you can change, all right? Jenna's going to be fine. I'll make sure of it."

She looked down at Elena's hand, but quickly looked back up to her eyes when she felt herself start to get hungry. She hadn't had human blood in days, and it was admittedly very difficult to resist her friend's previous offer when her blood was right there in front of her. Still, she wouldn't hurt Elena more than she already was, and forced herself to focus back on the conversation at hand. She could hunt later; this couldn't wait.

When Elena pleaded with her, she pulled her back into her arms and said, "Of course I will, silly! I was trained by the best, remember? Even if I went off the reservation a little," she chuckled. "And maybe it'll help to have someone here who's struggling with the animal thing as much as I am. We can motivate each other, watch and make sure things aren't getting out of hand. See? It's not so bad. There's hope, Elena." She pulled away from her and cupped her face, her eyes growing serious. "Now please, I know that you're worried about Jenna and you have every right to be, but can we talk about what else is bothering you? As in, two tall dark and handsome problems with the last name of Salvatore?"

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bewitcheries
2012-04-10 07:41 am UTC (link)

"Change the things you can, accept the things you cannot, and learn to tell the difference," Elena recited with a small sigh, and nodded as she closed her eyes. She felt exhausted, all of a sudden, the emotional drain of the day - week, really, if she thought about it - finally catching up with her. "I know, I know. It's just hard. I feel so...responsible. I could have done more to help her, before it all happened, and now- now I can't do anything. Jenna's the closest thing to a parent I have left, and she won't even let me get near her."

As Caroline brought up Damon and Stefan, Elena visibly tensed. It was clear that she didn't want to talk about that particular issue at all, but the serious look on Caroline's face let her know all too well that she wouldn't be allowed to just brush it off and postpone that talk for later. Elena looked at her friend for a moment in silence, then just let her gaze drop to the floor as she dragged her hands through her hair slowly.

"I don't know. I really don't know. I never meant to end up in this position, and I love Stefan so much, but Damon..." she sighed again, and gave a small shrug as she pressed her hands to her eyes, rubbing hard, "It's such a mess. He left, and Damon was there. I don't even know what my feelings for him are. I just don't know how I'm supposed to choose."

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vampycaroline
2012-04-10 04:15 pm UTC (link)

"Right. That," Caroline said with a rueful smile. Elena had always been the smart one, the one who said the right things, and at one point it had made Caroline jealous, but now she just took it in stride. She had other qualities all on her own that made her a worthwhile person; she didn't need to compete with anyone, let alone her best friend in the world who had enough problems on her plate.

"I know, sweetie," she said understandingly when Elena took all of the responsibility for Jenna's predicament on her shoulders. "We all feel responsible when someone we love gets hurt. But I know Jenna, and I know she wouldn't blame you. She's probably just scared to hurt you, you know? When it's new and all you can think about is blood, having your human niece right there in front of you isn't exactly the least tempting thing in the world. It's not personal, Elena. You've got to remember that."

She saw the sour look on Elena's face and knew that she wanted her to just drop it, but Caroline was like a stubborn pit-bull in situations like this and she wasn't going to let the other girl avoid this conversation. Plus, there was the small fact that she cared about the Salvatore brothers too and she wanted this all to get resolved before it drew everyone she cared about through the mud.

She listened as Elena explained what was going on, biting her lip in contemplation as she considered what to say. Should she be harsh with her friend, or answer with her heart and her sympathy? Sighing, she finally said, "Elena, if you really, honestly can't choose between them, then maybe you shouldn't be choosing either of them at all." It was maybe a little harsh, but it was the truth. If she was having this hard of a time picking, then clearly her feelings weren't strong enough one way or another to make a solid decision on the matter. "Maybe you just need a little time to figure out your feelings, but I really think that if you're this confused, any decision you make is going to end up being one that you regret."

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bewitcheries
2012-04-12 04:21 am UTC (link)

There was a part of Elena that understood that it wasn't personal, that Jenna was just struggling with the transition, but that didn't really make it any easier to know that her presence was only making things harder for her aunt. She let out a slow exhale of air, and nodded. She knew that Caroline was right about this - after all, her friend had a level of understanding about the situation that Elena could never comprehend - and after a small rub of her eyes, she looked at her with a weak smile.

"We'll help her though. I mean, look at you Car. You've been so strong through all of this, you really have. I can't think of anyone I'd want to help any more than you," Her smile grew fonder as she spoke. Despite everything that was going on, she was still endlessly appreciative to have Caroline there. Not just for the problem of helping Jenna adjust, but also because she honestly didn't know how she would cope without her best friend here. She was writing in her diary again, something that hadn't happened much since she had first gotten together with Stefan, and that was usually a fairly strong indicator that she was struggling. Having Caroline here made things just that little bit easier, and she took her friends hand to give it a small squeeze.

Still, Caroline couldn't help her when it came to her choice. Stefan, the brother that she had been in love with for so long, or Damon, the one that had been there for her when Stefan had left them. Each had their own qualities that made her fall for them in the first place, and she just let out another sigh. "I don't know if it's my decision that's the hard part, so much as the repercussions. I can't do it to them, Car. I can't hurt them. if I don't decide, then maybe they'll move on, you know? Find someone else, someone who won't make as much of a mess as I have."

In her heart of hearts, she knew who she would choose. The problem was, she also knew that it would devastate the one not chosen. She had seen the downward spiral that this had triggered before, and she didn't want to be the cause of that again. "Maybe I just need to let them both go, before I hurt everyone I love."

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vampycaroline
2012-04-12 04:48 am UTC (link)

Caroline was glad to see Elena smile a little, even if it was weak and still a bit sad. It was just nice to know that her best friend was still in there, underneath all of the conflict and grief. She really hoped that eventually, she'd be able to help her back to her vibrant, happy self, a person that she hadn't seen since... Jesus, since before Katherine had showed her snooty face. Things had been so chaotic since then, she felt like it'd been forever since they'd had a chance to just let their hair down and have a good time.

Resolving to plan some kind of hut sleepover some point soon, she focused back on Elena's voice and felt her heart warm at her kind words. "Aw, shucks. You're gonna make me cry," she told her, waving her hand in an attempt to dismiss her praise. Elena really could be so sweet, and it was nice to hear that she appreciated their friendship just as much as she did. Likewise, she'd had a rough few weeks with her father going psycho on her and being ripped away from a lot of the people she loved, and even if she hadn't discussed it with Elena, she knew that they would get to it eventually. One problem at a time.

She wished she could just make Elena's decision for her, but unfortunately the other girl was the only one who could choose which guy she wanted to try something with. Personally, Caroline had always thought that Stefan was the better choice for her, if only because she'd seen how happy they were and how single-minded they'd both been about their love for each other, but she knew that Damon could be very charming in his own right and that he'd done a lot for Elena in the past few rough months. "Sweetie, the problem doesn't go away if you ignore it," she said firmly, but not unkindly. "They're not just gonna up and forget about you, mess or no. They love you; it's not that simple. You have to figure this out, okay? I know it's hard, but it'll be for the best."

She waited for Elena to continue, but shook her head when she heard what she had to say. "Again, no one's gonna forget about this, including you. If you try and let them go, it's going to hurt. If you choose the one you know in your gut that you love, it's going to hurt. If you just ignore it and keep pingponging back and forth between them, it's going to hurt. You see where I'm going with this?" She smiled ruefully and finished, "No matter what, you're going to have to hurt someone, Elena. Sometimes that's what life-- and love, for that matter-- is about. I know it's against your nature to be selfish, but it would be far more selfish for you to put off this decision than it would be to make it. You owe them your honesty, and you deserve to be loved. Never forget that."

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bewitcheries
2012-04-12 05:51 am UTC (link)

Elena was sure that her bright and bubbly personality was still there, it had to be, it had just been buried under the layers of stress and pain of the events that had happened since those days where all she worried about was whether or not she was nailing all the moves in cheerleading practise. Those days felt so long ago lately, and it was hard to believe that things would ever be that simple again. Nothing seemed to be simple in her life any more.

"Well, damn right. Stop being so amazing and maybe I won't have to tell you all about it," She wrapped her arm around Caroline's shoulder, resting her head against the side of her friends lightly. She really was lucky to have Caroline with her, and she was going to start making up for how much the girl had done for her as soon as possible. As soon as she managed to get on top of the mess of problems surrounding her life, Caroline was going to become number one person on the island.

"I just think they should get the chance at something a little more...simple. I mean, who am I to make them wait while I figure out my feelings? If I let them go, maybe they'll find someone better..." It hurt even as Elena said it, but she wasn't sure what else she could do. She knew that when it boiled down to it, she had already chosen long ago, but that didn't change the fact that she had complicated things so much. Caroline may have believed that she deserved to be loved, but Elena wasn't so sure any more. "I love him, Car, I really do, they just....both deserve so much more."

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vampycaroline
2012-04-13 02:24 am UTC (link)

Caroline could relate. Before becoming a vampire, all she'd worried about was planning the next amazing party and which outfit she was going to wear in the morning. She'd never had to think about the sun burning her to a crisp, or needing to drink blood in order to stay alive (well, sort of.) It'd been a very scary, monumental change to her life, and although it'd led to her becoming a lot more mature, she often missed the days when she'd been more carefree. She knew that Elena felt much the same way sometimes.

"Oh, gosh," Caroline laughed, coloring and hugging Elena back. Smiling into her friend's hair, she murmured, "You're not so bad yourself, you know. I know you think you're awful right now, but you're not. You're a human being and you got a little confused. It happens." She squeezed her tightly, hoping that she got the message. She didn't want Elena to hate herself anymore; she just wanted her to be happy.

"Elena, hon, nothing about love is or ever will be simple. Trust me," Caroline said with a snort, thinking of her own complicated feelings for two men in her life right now. Sometimes it couldn't be helped, and Elena wasn't the first person to be torn between two people they cared about. That didn't make it completely okay, of course, but it wasn't like she'd committed a horrible sin. "I'm assuming you mean Stefan," Caroline guessed, tone making it clear that she would be very surprised if Elena corrected her to the other brother. "And if you do, I can tell you right now that that boy would do just about anything for you. I never bought for a second that he stopped caring about you, and I know that he'd disagree with you in a heartbeat about deserving better. You are who he wants, that's all there is to it."

She sighed and grasped Elena's shoulders, shaking them lightly. "Go with your heart, Elena. If Damon truly loves you, he'll forgive you for this, and you both will get past it. You're not going to lose him in your life forever. I'm sure of it."

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bewitcheries
2012-04-19 04:18 pm UTC (link)

"You're my best friend, Car, you know that? I don't know what I'd do without you." She let out a soft chuckle, shaking her head a little, "Probably go completely crazy, I'm guessing. I mean-" she paused - even if it was Caroline who had found her like that, she was still a little embarrassed by her teary emotional outburst, "Well, you saw me."

It was hard to remember the days when things were easy, when all that she, Caroline and Bonnie had to think about was what social event was coming up next, and whether or not they wanted to actually attend. Sure, things probably felt difficult then - what teenager doesn't think that their life is the worst, honestly - but if she had known that this was the life that they were headed for, she would have relished those days far more. That's not to say that she would change everything; she had grown closer to so many people in the events since the death of her parents, not to mention she wouldn't give up meeting Stefan for the world. It had been difficult, harder than she thought any relationship could be, but it had still been worth it.

It was that train of thought that had her let out a soft exhale of breath. That was it, the defining moment that she had been waiting for. She smiled, still sad, and placed her hands on top of Caroline's on her shoulders. Her head tipped slightly, resting on top of hers and her friends hand for a moment, and she nodded, "It's him. It really is him. I mean, I wasn't even sure, not honestly, until just now, but you're right. It's always been him."

It didn't make things any easier, of course it didn't. Elena was still facing the terrible moment where she had to confront Damon about it all, and the very thought of it twisted her stomach into knots, but she couldn't help but feel relieved. Yes, maybe she still thought that they should both be rid of her and find a non-Petrova doppelganger who wouldn't over-complicate their lives, but Caroline was right. She needed to go with her heart, and on occasion she was allowed to be a little selfish.

"God, thank you Caroline," she said softly, and as she spoke her smile gradually lost the melancholy hints. It wasn't over yet, by a long shot, but she had at least made the first important step in getting there. She finally knew what she truly felt. With one problem on it's way to being solved, however, that just brought Jenna straight back into her mind again, and she squeezed the blonde girl's hands lightly. "Will you come with me, to see Jenna? There's...a complication, you see. She can't remember if she drank human blood or not, and I can't-"

Her breath hitched and she exhaled slowly, looking at Caroline with the kind of expression that made it clear that she knew her friend wouldn't like what she was about to say. Still, she couldn't think of any other option, and the alternative wasn't even an option. "I can't let her die, Car. Not again. I can't lose her again. But she won't do it unless you're there, she's scared she's going to lose control."

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It's okay hun!

vampycaroline
2012-04-20 08:52 pm UTC (link)

"Hey, you're my best friend too, silly goose," Caroline replied, smiling fondly when Elena continued to thank her for helping with this situation. "We all go a little crazy sometimes, Elena. You've got a lot on your plate right now. It's okay."

Things were so complicated at the moment, Caroline felt like her head was going to explode. She may or may not have a clone back at Mystic Falls, Jenna was a vampire, her dad was a psychopath, Elena was still torn between the Salvatore brothers and to top it all off, she was going to have to eat furry little animals until they found some other way to get around the whole blood issue. In short, she definitely wished she could just hit the rewind button and go back to a time before vampires had ever been a word used in her vocabulary beyond making fun of Twilight. It was an irrational and childish wish, and one that she didn't really mean-- after all, she'd met some great people and had grown up so much since Damon and Stefan had come into their town-- but it was there nonetheless, especially watching Elena break down in front of her like she was. They both could use a serious break.

Caroline had expected Elena's epiphany to come at some point, and she was relieved that she seemed so certain about her feelings, at least for the moment. She knew her friend, and she figured she'd probably be back to waffling once this conversation was over-- how to not hurt this person, is this really what I want, all that-- but she was hoping that perhaps it would actually stick this time. She knew that Stefan loved Elena more than anything in the world, and it just made sense for them to get back together, in Caroline's opinion anyway. Perhaps she was biased because she hadn't really seen much of the chemistry between Damon and Elena, but in her gut she still felt like Stefan was the right one regardless.

"You're welcome, sweetie," Caroline said, hugging her close when she finally saw a glimpse of a smile. "I think you're making the right decision. Just be sure of it before you do anything rash, okay?" With that said, she let the conversation go and allowed Elena to change the subject. She nodded immediately when she asked if she could help Jenna, but then got a little hesitant at the idea of Elena being the human blood she drank. "Wait, wait... I don't like the sound of that. Isn't there some villager we can dupe into being her first victim?" Her eyes flashed with guilt as she remembered killing a stranger without any thought or hesitation, and she urged gently, "Elena, I really don't think you understand just how hard it is to keep control when you're starting out. I don't want to risk it, even with me there. I know you don't like it, but I think we should either find another option, or ask Stefan for help."

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