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Shannon Rogers ([info]shannon_rogers) wrote in [info]spinningcompass,
@ 2019-03-24 02:42:00

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Entry tags:!closed, loki, shannon rogers

Who: Shannon and Loki
Where: Her bed
What: A bad dream
When: Early morning
Rating: high for mentions of things and stuff
Open: no
Status: on going


Loki had been a still sleep companion, a cool bed parner for her overheated body. She almost had the notion that he watched her sleep more than do any himself. Though these past few days he was in someone else's body.... He thrashed rather viciously and it roused her from her sleep. Pushing a hand through her mussed hair, she slowly sat up. He was still asleep. And though it would be uncomfortable, perhaps he would be comforted by her warmth.

Shannon dragged up the covers, she knew she had to be the one to shove them down, and eased herself closer to him. Sliding her arm around his waist she found him bathed with sweat. At the same time a distressed murmur reached her ears.

She didn't know what he dreamed of, but she'd never heard him speak in his sleep. Very gently she pressed her lips to his bare shoulder. Not at all distressed that he didn't look like himself. And knowing as soon as the air conditioner kicked on that it would no doubt chill him, she tucked the covers tighter around him. Whispering softly, in effort not to wake him, but to perhaps change his dream just a little... "It's alright. I am here my king. No one will harm you." A little bit of smoke escaped her nose, just enough so that he would smell it.


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[info]truly_desperate
2019-03-29 08:12 am UTC (link)
Loki would have answered and told her about how he thought a century was just as short. But Shannon had stirred the the conversation back to a previous topic. Her interest in Jack was higher than Loki enjoyed it to be.

"I care not for the differences between the universes of mortals," he waved a hand and slouched back in his seat. He already knew more about the man's life what he liked to know. It was unsettling. The life the mortal had let was one of hardship with parts that reminded him too much of his own. "He came here like most others came here." Amelia had seen to it.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-03-29 08:33 pm UTC (link)
She brought the mug over and placed it in front of him. "You don't? I thought this particular one would have some interest for you. I have the book if you'd rather read it for yourself." He had seemed to prickle. Was he jealous?

"I know that, I mean what was his life like when he did. It's clear that he lived much longer, in a mortal's frame of time." Shannon placed herself in front of him, pointing out the wrinkles he had that he wouldn't have had at 30.

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-03-29 08:45 pm UTC (link)
Now he raised an eyebrow. She really did seem obsessed with this man. "Why is it of such interest to you?" Shannon was living among the gods, why was she interested in this mere mortal? "If you want to read a good book, I recommend the Tales of Raegon's Dynasty." Now that was a good book. Intrigue, manipulation and a dark family secret.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-03-30 04:25 am UTC (link)
"Because, as much as you'd like me to stay obtuse, I am not. Being in this man's body bothers you. And I don't think it is as simple as "he's old". So I'm using reasoning. And Raegon's Dynasty will not help me with that." HE was an interest for her. Not Jack. And Loki was a puzzle wrapped up in an riddle, tied with a big enigma bow. "Are you jealous? Afraid I might run off to a mortal man that's past middle age?" She teased him lightly. Trying to lighten the mood.

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-03-30 11:10 pm UTC (link)
The god started to chuckle. Him? Jealous of a mortal? Of this mortal! He himself might be dead but even then his appeal outlasted that of this body. "Now, do I have reason to be?" he asked playfully, going along with the change of mood.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-03-31 03:43 am UTC (link)
"Of course not. Because no matter what you look like on the outside, you are still you. I can close eyes, and see you." She had been tempted to do just that, and reach out and stroke his face. But didn't feel the want for rejection, because he would no doubt pull away, and it would change the mood yet again. So instead Shannon did not hold the full effect he had on her from her face, from her eyes. "Besides I thought I proved that point rather solidly when you were Eggsy."

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-03-31 08:54 am UTC (link)
"Ah, now, you might have had some strange fetishes," he held up his hands in an 'I do not even want to know'-gesture and smirked. "Maybe you are indeed into hanging skin and broken joints." His tone was still light as he continued, even though the words that followed held a little too much truth to them. "For there must be a reason why you share a bed with a dead man." Jack had let him know all too well how disgusting his usual self was.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-03-31 11:46 am UTC (link)
"Some would say I do have some very strange fetishes, considering I don't balk at any of the transformations you make." She didn't find them strange at all. One of her favorites being the snake. It was another brilliant point to draw out. And she was about to add that she didn't have any 'daddy' fetishes, but was stopped by the dead man comment. Then she couldn't resist touching his face. "Because your soul, your mind, and your heart remain yours. The body is just a vessel." She slid her the backs of her fingers along his jaw. "I have only told you this once, but I will repeat it because it needs to be said: I love you Loki, not because you are a god, or because you are Asgardian royalty. It doesn't matter the body you're in, or the shape of it."

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-03-31 09:10 pm UTC (link)
He grew tense under her touch and her words. Those words were often the climax of romantic tales or heroic eposes. Yet, here he sat wishing that they had not been uttered. His soul... he did not even know what it stood for.

"Now you have chosen the wrong man to have talks like this. My family is not known for exchanges of the heart."

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-03-31 09:44 pm UTC (link)
"Perhaps, if I expected poetry in return, or if I even expected the sentiment to be returned. But I don't. It is enough for me that you simply want me around, whatever your reasons are. I know you guard that part of you, and me being mortal ..." Shannon sighed softly. "I know I'm not likely to ever hear those words or anything like it. But," She let her hand drop as she turned around, picking the kettle back up she returned it to its base. "I am old enough to know just because my heart wants what it wants does not mean yours does."

She turned to face him again, leaning against the bench in front of the kettle rather than return to stand in front of him. "That doesn't mean I pine like a love sick teenager. I just know to be content with what I have, rather than resentful of what I don't."

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-01 07:11 am UTC (link)
So he was a disappointment to her. The god could hear it in every word she uttered. He was not what she wanted him to be. It hurt. It stung. The physical distance was a relief. He felt weak and vulnerable in this body. He did not feel at all like the god and prince he was.

"And what is it that you have?" he asked quietly while his own thoughts cut into himself even stronger. As much as he wanted to deny it, he knew it was him who had caused the chaos. He was not even able to remedy his own mistake.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-01 08:26 am UTC (link)
"Someone who seems to care whether I live or die, and has made sure that I have a fighting chance to live, someone who listens to me, sometimes, even when I'm spouting silly mortal sentiment. The father to our daughter." There was no way he could miss the pride in those last four words. A smile even turned up her lips. "There is no label for what we are. And I'm happy that there isn't."

Shannon looked down at her slippered feet. "That's more than I had before, more than I expected to have. You've made me a better person. Because I would have whiled away my hours alone in that apartment, like I did my little house. You make me feel worthy of you. The people in my own time didn't even... " She shook her head.

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-01 09:02 am UTC (link)
Loki tried to take in her words. But he did not know how. She used words like 'happy' and 'content' when she clearly wanted more but would not let herself reach for it. He was the one holding her back. His own daughter was always pushing him, always nudging him towards the person she wanted him to be. While Katherine did not have a choice in her relationship to him, Shannon had.

When he had died, this world here had been forgotten to him. He had died alone with a guilt-coated heart. It had torn at him ever since. His mother had returned to their lives. He wanted her to look at his life and be proud of what he had done with it. He wanted his brother to accept him as an equal and for his child to look up at him and carry her name a legacy with pride. But sometimes it seemed unreachable.

"And yet you ache for more, do you not?" he asked quietly.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-01 11:04 am UTC (link)
"No." She answered without hesitation. Her face rose when she did, her eyes meeting his, if he searched. There was no doubt on her face. No room for questioning whether she meant it or not. "That doesn't mean I don't have ambition, or hope. But I like to be surprised."

Shannon caught her lower lip between her teeth and sucked on it a little. "I realize this is a lot. Caring for someone that has an expiration date. You could get hurt if you do more. And I don't want that. I want you to remember me with fondness. Not with pain or resentment."

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-01 11:17 am UTC (link)
He had considered this point. Even before he had met Shannon he had scolded his future self for the foolishness of siring a child with a mortal. What had he been thinking?

"To deny that concern would be a lie," he said with carefully chosen words. He was wading into a sea filled with fearsome creatures. It was a dangerous business. "But time need not have the same effect on you as it had on your forefathers." He had toyed with the idea, had tried them out on the two dying mortals. Still, he had never shared it with anyone.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-02 04:45 am UTC (link)
"I can't say I really know how it affected my forefathers. It could be altered already with everything we've done. Are you considering using the stones again? On me?" Well, didn't that speak volumes? A slight smile tugged at her lips, again, he surprised her. "Would you want to be stuck with a silly, sentimental mortal for an undetermined amount of time?" Sure she was making assumptions, on the little that he said. Assuming that it would be the stone's power he tapped into.

But then she checked herself. Sure that it was vain. She had almost gone to him again. Closed the gap. But instead Shannon pushed herself up onto the counter behind her. So that he kept his space.

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-02 08:10 am UTC (link)
He waved off her question, not wanting to answer it. He had shown enough sentiment. Besides, he feared that it would not be him who would be stuck. "It is not just I who will get to enjoy your company for longer. My own mother died only recently and it was still too early." There - an explanation that did not require the mention of his own feelings and fear of loneliness. It was an explanation mostly spoken to his hands while he picked at his middle finger.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-02 09:43 am UTC (link)
Because he was looking down, he missed the smile that lit her face. This was another reason she didn't have expectations. He didn't mention his own feelings so much, but he did at the same time. "Well, I am a willing participant whenever you would like to try." Shannon did hop down from the counter and cross the divide. She placed a light kiss on the top of his head. "And I will stay one until you grow tired of me." And leaned back. "Drink your tea."

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-02 10:06 am UTC (link)
His eyebrows rose at the display of affection. It broke through his facade for a moment, revealing the pensiveness behind the wall. Meanwhile, his fingers curled around the hot mug. This body was far more sensitive to the heat, his own draining it out so quickly. The sensations he felt now were so different from the ones he was accustomed to. He remembered how he had braved the cold waters in the winter when no one else had dared. He had thought everyone else a wimp. But it had not been in error. It was not a matter of the mind but the body.

"Are you sure it is not you who will tire of this first?" he asked quietly, his mind still wrapped around his past and former mistakes.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-02 10:51 am UTC (link)
"I can give you my word, I will never grow tired of you. I might occasionally get exasperated, but never to the point that I will leave more than the room." How could she? Nearly every day he surprised her. Today was big. Big enough that she felt warm inside, and it stretched from her middle to her finger tips. And those simple words were all that it took. That tiny crack in the door. To let her see just a little bit. That little bit was enough to sate her.

"Is it still warm?" Shannon raised a brow and nodded toward his drink.

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-02 10:58 am UTC (link)
Loki chuckled softly. Maybe it was his child's influence or maybe his own experience but he thought Shannon's remark foolish. His life had surprised him with so many turns and twists that any promise of such nature would have been broken. But she was young - he had to remind himself of that regularly - and folly was youth's companion.

"It is perfectly fine," he answered her question. "I never knew that tea could have such heat."

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-03 05:37 am UTC (link)
"So there is something good to come out of being in Jack's body after all." He needn't bee in misery for the whole time. She didn't want him to be. Sure being in an older human wasn't fun, but there were good things. "Wait until you drink it, as long as it's not too hot, it will feel nice going down too." It was a mundane pleasure, but a pleasure all the same.

Shannon didn't pause to think why he chuckled. She didn't want to dissect it. Not after something so pleasant as the peek he had given her. And of course she didn't know the future, if she could keep her word, or if he would do something so horrible that it would make her break it. But she couldn't fathom him doing something bad enough to push her away. He wasn't the villain the people who would murder her made him out to be.

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-05 09:43 am UTC (link)
He raised his eyebrow at the comment. It was not the first hot drink he had had since his physical change. He knew well what lay ahead. Yet, he played along and feigned the ignorant. He took a sip. "Ah, now, I have been missing out all my life it seems."

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-05 11:56 am UTC (link)
"Well, I wouldn't go that far. At least not with tea. Coffee? Hot Cocoa? Yes. that is an experience." She didn't know if he was simply placating her or if it was truth. Often It was hard to tell with him. "But if you drink it it will help your hurts. And if you come back to bed with me I will massage them if you like."

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-07 09:10 pm UTC (link)
The good chucked softly. "You have always known how to tempt me to bed," he said. His muscles were certainly sore. And with this body, a lot less pressure was needed to soften it.

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