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Shannon Rogers ([info]shannon_rogers) wrote in [info]spinningcompass,
@ 2019-03-24 02:42:00

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Entry tags:!closed, loki, shannon rogers

Who: Shannon and Loki
Where: Her bed
What: A bad dream
When: Early morning
Rating: high for mentions of things and stuff
Open: no
Status: on going


Loki had been a still sleep companion, a cool bed parner for her overheated body. She almost had the notion that he watched her sleep more than do any himself. Though these past few days he was in someone else's body.... He thrashed rather viciously and it roused her from her sleep. Pushing a hand through her mussed hair, she slowly sat up. He was still asleep. And though it would be uncomfortable, perhaps he would be comforted by her warmth.

Shannon dragged up the covers, she knew she had to be the one to shove them down, and eased herself closer to him. Sliding her arm around his waist she found him bathed with sweat. At the same time a distressed murmur reached her ears.

She didn't know what he dreamed of, but she'd never heard him speak in his sleep. Very gently she pressed her lips to his bare shoulder. Not at all distressed that he didn't look like himself. And knowing as soon as the air conditioner kicked on that it would no doubt chill him, she tucked the covers tighter around him. Whispering softly, in effort not to wake him, but to perhaps change his dream just a little... "It's alright. I am here my king. No one will harm you." A little bit of smoke escaped her nose, just enough so that he would smell it.


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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-03-31 09:44 pm UTC (link)
"Perhaps, if I expected poetry in return, or if I even expected the sentiment to be returned. But I don't. It is enough for me that you simply want me around, whatever your reasons are. I know you guard that part of you, and me being mortal ..." Shannon sighed softly. "I know I'm not likely to ever hear those words or anything like it. But," She let her hand drop as she turned around, picking the kettle back up she returned it to its base. "I am old enough to know just because my heart wants what it wants does not mean yours does."

She turned to face him again, leaning against the bench in front of the kettle rather than return to stand in front of him. "That doesn't mean I pine like a love sick teenager. I just know to be content with what I have, rather than resentful of what I don't."

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-01 07:11 am UTC (link)
So he was a disappointment to her. The god could hear it in every word she uttered. He was not what she wanted him to be. It hurt. It stung. The physical distance was a relief. He felt weak and vulnerable in this body. He did not feel at all like the god and prince he was.

"And what is it that you have?" he asked quietly while his own thoughts cut into himself even stronger. As much as he wanted to deny it, he knew it was him who had caused the chaos. He was not even able to remedy his own mistake.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-01 08:26 am UTC (link)
"Someone who seems to care whether I live or die, and has made sure that I have a fighting chance to live, someone who listens to me, sometimes, even when I'm spouting silly mortal sentiment. The father to our daughter." There was no way he could miss the pride in those last four words. A smile even turned up her lips. "There is no label for what we are. And I'm happy that there isn't."

Shannon looked down at her slippered feet. "That's more than I had before, more than I expected to have. You've made me a better person. Because I would have whiled away my hours alone in that apartment, like I did my little house. You make me feel worthy of you. The people in my own time didn't even... " She shook her head.

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-01 09:02 am UTC (link)
Loki tried to take in her words. But he did not know how. She used words like 'happy' and 'content' when she clearly wanted more but would not let herself reach for it. He was the one holding her back. His own daughter was always pushing him, always nudging him towards the person she wanted him to be. While Katherine did not have a choice in her relationship to him, Shannon had.

When he had died, this world here had been forgotten to him. He had died alone with a guilt-coated heart. It had torn at him ever since. His mother had returned to their lives. He wanted her to look at his life and be proud of what he had done with it. He wanted his brother to accept him as an equal and for his child to look up at him and carry her name a legacy with pride. But sometimes it seemed unreachable.

"And yet you ache for more, do you not?" he asked quietly.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-01 11:04 am UTC (link)
"No." She answered without hesitation. Her face rose when she did, her eyes meeting his, if he searched. There was no doubt on her face. No room for questioning whether she meant it or not. "That doesn't mean I don't have ambition, or hope. But I like to be surprised."

Shannon caught her lower lip between her teeth and sucked on it a little. "I realize this is a lot. Caring for someone that has an expiration date. You could get hurt if you do more. And I don't want that. I want you to remember me with fondness. Not with pain or resentment."

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-01 11:17 am UTC (link)
He had considered this point. Even before he had met Shannon he had scolded his future self for the foolishness of siring a child with a mortal. What had he been thinking?

"To deny that concern would be a lie," he said with carefully chosen words. He was wading into a sea filled with fearsome creatures. It was a dangerous business. "But time need not have the same effect on you as it had on your forefathers." He had toyed with the idea, had tried them out on the two dying mortals. Still, he had never shared it with anyone.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-02 04:45 am UTC (link)
"I can't say I really know how it affected my forefathers. It could be altered already with everything we've done. Are you considering using the stones again? On me?" Well, didn't that speak volumes? A slight smile tugged at her lips, again, he surprised her. "Would you want to be stuck with a silly, sentimental mortal for an undetermined amount of time?" Sure she was making assumptions, on the little that he said. Assuming that it would be the stone's power he tapped into.

But then she checked herself. Sure that it was vain. She had almost gone to him again. Closed the gap. But instead Shannon pushed herself up onto the counter behind her. So that he kept his space.

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-02 08:10 am UTC (link)
He waved off her question, not wanting to answer it. He had shown enough sentiment. Besides, he feared that it would not be him who would be stuck. "It is not just I who will get to enjoy your company for longer. My own mother died only recently and it was still too early." There - an explanation that did not require the mention of his own feelings and fear of loneliness. It was an explanation mostly spoken to his hands while he picked at his middle finger.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-02 09:43 am UTC (link)
Because he was looking down, he missed the smile that lit her face. This was another reason she didn't have expectations. He didn't mention his own feelings so much, but he did at the same time. "Well, I am a willing participant whenever you would like to try." Shannon did hop down from the counter and cross the divide. She placed a light kiss on the top of his head. "And I will stay one until you grow tired of me." And leaned back. "Drink your tea."

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-02 10:06 am UTC (link)
His eyebrows rose at the display of affection. It broke through his facade for a moment, revealing the pensiveness behind the wall. Meanwhile, his fingers curled around the hot mug. This body was far more sensitive to the heat, his own draining it out so quickly. The sensations he felt now were so different from the ones he was accustomed to. He remembered how he had braved the cold waters in the winter when no one else had dared. He had thought everyone else a wimp. But it had not been in error. It was not a matter of the mind but the body.

"Are you sure it is not you who will tire of this first?" he asked quietly, his mind still wrapped around his past and former mistakes.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-02 10:51 am UTC (link)
"I can give you my word, I will never grow tired of you. I might occasionally get exasperated, but never to the point that I will leave more than the room." How could she? Nearly every day he surprised her. Today was big. Big enough that she felt warm inside, and it stretched from her middle to her finger tips. And those simple words were all that it took. That tiny crack in the door. To let her see just a little bit. That little bit was enough to sate her.

"Is it still warm?" Shannon raised a brow and nodded toward his drink.

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-02 10:58 am UTC (link)
Loki chuckled softly. Maybe it was his child's influence or maybe his own experience but he thought Shannon's remark foolish. His life had surprised him with so many turns and twists that any promise of such nature would have been broken. But she was young - he had to remind himself of that regularly - and folly was youth's companion.

"It is perfectly fine," he answered her question. "I never knew that tea could have such heat."

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-03 05:37 am UTC (link)
"So there is something good to come out of being in Jack's body after all." He needn't bee in misery for the whole time. She didn't want him to be. Sure being in an older human wasn't fun, but there were good things. "Wait until you drink it, as long as it's not too hot, it will feel nice going down too." It was a mundane pleasure, but a pleasure all the same.

Shannon didn't pause to think why he chuckled. She didn't want to dissect it. Not after something so pleasant as the peek he had given her. And of course she didn't know the future, if she could keep her word, or if he would do something so horrible that it would make her break it. But she couldn't fathom him doing something bad enough to push her away. He wasn't the villain the people who would murder her made him out to be.

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-05 09:43 am UTC (link)
He raised his eyebrow at the comment. It was not the first hot drink he had had since his physical change. He knew well what lay ahead. Yet, he played along and feigned the ignorant. He took a sip. "Ah, now, I have been missing out all my life it seems."

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-05 11:56 am UTC (link)
"Well, I wouldn't go that far. At least not with tea. Coffee? Hot Cocoa? Yes. that is an experience." She didn't know if he was simply placating her or if it was truth. Often It was hard to tell with him. "But if you drink it it will help your hurts. And if you come back to bed with me I will massage them if you like."

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-07 09:10 pm UTC (link)
The good chucked softly. "You have always known how to tempt me to bed," he said. His muscles were certainly sore. And with this body, a lot less pressure was needed to soften it.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-08 06:33 am UTC (link)
Shannon chuckled with him. "It's not always easy. You're very stubborn. Sometimes I have to pull out the 'big guns'." She also knew he would regret it later on in the morning when his energy was waning and he wasn't ready to give in to it. "But I have some mint liniment oil that I can use on your borrowed body, that wouldn't affect your true one." And it smelled nice.

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-11 08:47 am UTC (link)
"I do my very best," he said in response as he sipped once more on the tea. It was starting to grow a little colder. "As I doubt you would find appeal in easy. Or am I wrong?" A smile curled up his lips.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-11 10:32 am UTC (link)
"You are not wrong." Thought she did like the occasional easy battles. Like this one. "If I wanted easy I would still be in my apartment being a recluse." Thought she did sometimes miss closing herself away with a book, and not coming out until she was done.

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[info]truly_desperate
2019-04-12 09:05 am UTC (link)
Loki chuckled. He found the thought of her being any more of a recluse hard. Neither of them strove for friendships but Shannon looked like a turtle trying to crawl back into her shell whenever she was faced with human contact.

"Ah, but you would miss out on all the shouting and screeching over there..." he commented. People in this house tended to be loud. Another reason why he begrudged sleeping through the beautiful early morning hours when everyone was still asleep.

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[info]shannon_rogers
2019-04-13 05:55 am UTC (link)
"Ah, very true. And I do adore the children." Even if she didn't spend every moment with them she did enjoy the time she spent with Lucy, Bill, and Suzume. And she was glad to be so close with Katherine.

Her thought process was clear on her face. The little smile that played over her lips. "I'm okay with you and Katherine exposing me to the finer reasons of being social. I can understand the importance of it." To them, at least.

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