InsaneJournal

abbie keener -- 003
[Filter to Peter Parker]
Hey Peter. Do you know everyone here? Or, like, most people here?
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[Filter to Tony Stark]
I owe you an apology. I'm having contrary and conflicting emotional reactions to being here and to certain conversations. I'm sorry for how I have been "speaking" to you. It's more a me thing than a you thing, but it's not fair.

I don't need a father figure the way Harley does. I mean, obviously he's my brother, but Mom checked out, and he raised me, and no one can ever replace that, or come close to matching it, even. I'm not unaware of the sacrifices he made for me. I know all about MIT, and I'm glad he has you and all of the others who know him and seem to love him. And I'm glad he gets to be 19 here and not have to worry about me as much.

But it's hard, too, because I don't have that bond with everyone. I know of them, but I never met them. And, like, on the one hand, I'm really glad he has that circle. But on the other hand, it makes me super jealous because he was my Harley first. Before you, before anybody, he was my brother.

And I hate that I feel this way, because he deserves a dad and people who will look after him as much as he looked after me.

So my reactions to you stem from that, and me hiding in my room or not being in the apartment is just because I'm trying to find a way to deal. I have trust issues and a fear of abandonment and a fear of being left behind and forgotten. I have ridiculous anxiety that makes me lash out and shut down.

I don't need you to fix this. I don't need you to pity me or try to buy my affection.I just need you to know.
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This is probably something I could look up, but I'd rather ask the hive mind: Is the Museum of Natural History still here, and do I have to pay to go in?