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Tweak says, "bwahahaha"

Lily Luna Potter (totesadorbs) wrote in somerealityweb,
@ 2019-11-26 11:44:00

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lily luna -- 001
I know I'm a little sleep deprived, and more than a little overwhelmed by ~~my we~~ things that are going on. But I'm pretty sure I would've noticed my parents putting an entire turtle pond in our sitting room.

The letter didn't tell me much, aside from the fact that I live in 6D, and I'm expected to pay rent in American money--I don't even have my ~~Galleons~~ my money with me. So help a girl out? I don't really wanna talk to a faceless "entity" that calls itself "Jublient!" Though I guess I'm talking to faceless entities here? But...

Anyway. I'm wet. I don't ~~have my wand, because who carries their wand to the loo?!~~ know exactly where I am, and I could really use some clarity, please and thanks.

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	Bill \| Lily totesadorbs 2019-11-27 04:21 am UTC (link)
	That's such an Uncle Bill thing to say. I know that's what they want, and I don't wanna disappoint them because that's not what I am. And I know they'd be more disappointed that I'm just putting myself through things because I don't want to let them down, but I feel like it's too late to go back. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bill \| Lily cool_dad 2019-11-27 04:29 am UTC (link)
	Good, because today's my first day being an uncle so I'm hoping I'm doing it right. It is never too late to change things, especially something that's making you unhappy. No matter what it is or how trapped you feel. And today is a great break in your routine to start down a path that does make you happy, don't you think? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Bill | Lily

totesadorbs
2019-11-27 04:35 am UTC (link)

You're a natural.

If we're here and there, I can do that here. But I'm supposed to get married tomorrow, and I don't want to. I'm in year four of an apprenticeship with a beauty potion maker in France, and he started when I did. He was there, and it was convenient because we never had any time off. And then he was proposing, and I wasn't saying no, and I don't even love him. He was just there. It was no work, and there's no passion, and the wedding is planned. And I'm not happy. I think Mum and Dad know, but they're waiting for me to say something, and I don't know how. I don't regret taking the apprenticeship, exactly, but I should've done what Fred and George did, and just gone out on my own. It's not what I expected or wanted it to be, and it's definitely not the outcome I was looking for.

..

and apparently I really needed to tell someone that.

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Bill | Lily

cool_dad
2019-11-27 04:43 am UTC (link)

I wish I could find a way to get this message to you there, but maybe you'll feel it somehow even from here. It is not too late. Nothing is more important than living the life you want to live. Your mum is one of the fiercest people I know and I know with certainty that she would move the earth if you needed it. Canceling a wedding would be nothing if it meant your happiness.

I'm glad you got it off your chest. I hope you trust someone enough tomorrow to share that burden with them, too. I'm sorry you've been holding on to it for so long.

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	Bill \| Lily totesadorbs 2019-11-27 08:06 pm UTC (link)
	I don't want to disappoint them, and I think I know that, but I forgot? Your first day as an uncle, and you get a crisis dumped on you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bill \| Lily cool_dad 2019-11-27 08:10 pm UTC (link)
	They won't be disappointed in you for doing what's right, even if it takes you some time. They might be disappointed in themselves for not making you feel safe enough to tell them, though. I know I would. What else are uncles good for, love. I don't mind a crisis, but I wish we could solve it here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bill \| Lily totesadorbs 2019-11-27 11:00 pm UTC (link)
	It's not that I don't feel safe. It's...I don't know what it is, but it isn't that. We'll find out if that's possible, I guess. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bill \| Lily cool_dad 2019-11-27 11:19 pm UTC (link)
	That's good. Sometimes identifying what it's not helps you to find out what it is. I'll help however you want. Whenever you want. If this bloke shows up here, you won't have to deal with him alone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bill \| Lily totesadorbs 2019-11-28 02:46 am UTC (link)
	Did you moonlight as a counselor and never tell anyone? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bill \| Lily cool_dad 2019-11-28 02:49 am UTC (link)
	If it counts despite never getting paid, I just might have. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bill \| Lily totesadorbs 2019-11-28 02:53 am UTC (link)
	It's an older brother thing, isn't it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Bill \| Lily cool_dad 2019-11-28 02:56 am UTC (link)
	Definitely an older brother thing. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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