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Carol Danvers (cpt_marvel) wrote in snapthread,
@ 2019-04-18 22:47:00

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america chavez (616), bucky barnes (mcu), carol danvers (mcu), clark kent (dctv), clint barton (616), evaan verlaine, gamewide plot, gwen stacy, janet van dyne (avac), kate bishop (616), klaus hargreeves (netflix), loki (616), peter b parker (sv), peter parker (mcu), remus lupin, rose tyler, sirius black, steve rogers (avac), steve rogers (mcu), tony stark (avac), tony stark (mcu), vision (mcu)

Who: Anyone who wants to come by
What: Grand-opening party!
Where: Pancho's Bar
When: Friday Night

The streamers were up (because Jan had insisted), and the bar was as ready as it ever would be. Alcohol was stored in a few make-shift shelves on the back wall and a relatively well-cobbled together bar was freshly polished and ready to go. It wasn't the most well-put-together, place, but Pancho's definitely resembled its namesake in terms of dim lighting, chipped tables and a floor that looked like it should be sticky. All in all, Carol was pretty proud of what they'd made. The minifridge was even a good choice since it allowed them to keep some drinks cold (they were going to have to find a larger one in the future, though).

She had warned Peter that the pizza oven needed to be ready by that evening, but she wasn't sure how on the ball with that he was. She'd been busy doing damage control on some electrical issues they were having with the fridge and double checking to make sure they actually had drinking cups (that took a little bit of maneuvering, but Clint came through with the coffee mugs). Yup, vodka from coffee mugs, a mini-fridge filled with a variety of stolen beers, and mismatched chairs. And, of course, the balloons. The annoying, awful squeaky balloons that had floated into a couple of corners of the room, save for the two that kept dragging on the floor and that Carol dreaded would pop at some point that evening. Definitely professional.

Karaoke was set up in one corner of the room with a make-shift stage and Christmas lights (Yes, more Christmas lights) decorating around it. Old 80s rock music blasted from the speakers for now, and Carol stood behind the bar, ready to serve as needed but more than willing to drag anyone else into the position should they so choose that evening.

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Bucky Barnes (MCU) & Tony; it's a cold and it's a broken Waluigi

sgt_barnesjb
2019-04-22 10:48 pm UTC (link)

It was going to come up eventually. No matter how successful Bucky was in being able to avoid Tony Stark at all costs, they were literally trapped in the same town. Unless Bucky stayed locked in his flat forever with a 'Keep Out Tony Stark' sign on the door -- and let's be real, that would likely only entice Stark to force his way in -- Bucky was eventually going to cross paths with him. That moment happened to be now, at the bar opening. Probably the worst timing ever. Definitely.

Apparently neither of them wanted to talk about it but it was going to happen anyway. Bucky's heightened senses had him very aware of the alcohol on Stark's breath and that wasn't exactly helpful either. A flash of jealousy sparked through him; damn, he wished he was drunk too. A drunken skirmish could be broken up and rationalized pretty simply. But Bucky wasn't going to come out of this as the non-aggressor unless he just took whatever it was Stark threw at him at this point. Granted, his words didn't sound all that accusatory at the moment. It was almost like he was trying to brush it under the rug.

And honestly? He wished he'd thrown a punch instead.

Dismissive behavior wasn't uncommon. It was way easier to brush things off like they weren't important than to address them head on. Bucky was kind of a master at that. But not about that. The culmination of events was horrific. It put people in prison who didn't deserve to be there. It forced Steve to drop his shield and the three of them had beat the hell out of each other. Steve and Tony's connection broken for a long time after. The only thing Bucky had to thank Stark for out of it was that he got rid of that awful bionic arm the he held so much resentment toward. His shiny new Wakandan made fingers clenched around his beer.

"Mistakes," he repeated the word. "Is that what you're going to call all of that? Really? Mistakes? Mistakes are when you marked a wrong answer on a test in school, or you wash a red sock with your white sheets because you don't know how to do laundry in the 21st century. Not the same as Siberia. You know that."

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Bucky Barnes (MCU) & Tony; WHAAAH.

allaboutego
2019-04-23 10:29 pm UTC (link)

The thing was, Tony didn't have any intention of throwing a punch. He didn't want to. Hell, he regretted having done it the first time around, given all the fallout that'd happened afterward.

But he'd just -- he'd been so surprised and hurt over realizing that twenty some years of his life had been built on a lie, and that he'd been forced to watch the reality of it without any warning whatsoever. It'd been a slap to the face - a complete and absolute betrayal that it was something Steve of all people had been keeping from him, that he'd been in motion before his brain had even really caught up with him. And that wasn't normal, not for someone like Tony Stark who was usually so many steps ahead of everyone.

"I never got answers wrong on tests," Tony said, even though obviously that wasn't the point at all. "And I don't do laundry." Hell, even here he didn't. Again, it wasn't the point. Tony took another drink from his mug and was a little devastated to find the bottom of it, but there was no turning back now.

"But it was a mistake. I shouldn't have lashed out. It wasn't your fault, okay? I was --" He paused, unsure of what to say. "It wasn't even you I was mad at." It had been Steve more than anything, because Steve had been his friend and he'd lied and hidden important truths. And sometimes that anger was still real. It was just this thing that they didn't talk about, a silence that they both pushed away. And it was -

It was unfair. Tony knew that, objectively. If he could come somewhere close to forgiving Steve his trespasses, there was no reason that Bucky should be hanging around on the outskirts of town like some kind of shunned outsider.

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Re: Bucky Barnes (MCU) & Tony; sorry Tony your Steve is in another castle

sgt_barnesjb
2019-04-24 11:07 am UTC (link)

Neither man wanted to actually fight, it seemed. Bucky would, however, if it came down to it. His heart just wasn't in it. Steve was dealing with it in his own way and it was the one thing they just didn't talk about and really Bucky didn't know why. Well, he did. They were just both really good at avoiding the complicated shit they didn't want to talk about when they could be having lighter discussions. Wasn't that better these days? Talk about the light things, not the dark? Not to mention, neither of them were that great at opening up emotionally about anything at all so that didn't make it any easier. And maybe, they didn't talk about it because there was just no clear resolution. So much had happened and all of it could've been prevented. Everyone was at fault in some way and Bucky didn't know how to make it right except to just... stay out of it.

But Stark just couldn't help himself. Especially when he was plastered.

The more Stark talked, the less Bucky wanted to hear it. He didn't want to go there, not with him, not before he went there with Steve. It was just painful. And it wasn't that he didn't feel sympathy for Stark. Hell, he'd teared up watching that horrific video because he knew what was coming and all the guilt, the shame slammed into him harder than Howard Stark's car wrecked into that pole. He felt horrible, and if he believed the reason Stark lashed out at him in a violent rage had anything to do with him blaming him for the death of his parents, he would've understood.

It wasn't like all the deaths the Winter Soldier had caused all ran together. He'd told Stark -- he remembered all of them and every single one still haunted him now, even if he was coping with it, that pain was never going to go away. Even if it wasn't really his fault, just as Steve constantly tried to drill into his head, Bucky would always blame himself for all of it. That weight would never be lifted, even if the Winter Soldier himself was permanently gone.

But he knew that wasn't why Stark attacked him, just as he was admitting it now too. And that's why it was so much worse. That was why Bucky resented him. It was so much deeper than that.

"I know," he said. "You were punishing Steve. Going after me was gonna hurt him more. I'm aloof but I'm not stupid."

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Bucky Barnes (MCU) & Tony; Bowser will do.

allaboutego
2019-04-25 06:14 pm UTC (link)

Stark was usually good at big picture stuff. Really, he was. He was a futurist and he planned for things in advance, sometimes by years if he could. But he'd never been good at people, not really. Particularly not relationship kind of stuff. Not romantic. Just... personal.

He hadn't planned for this, obviously. Because if he had, he probably wouldn't be drunk. And he hadn't really... well. He didn't look at it the same way Bucky did, obviously. "I wasn't trying to punish him," Tony said with a sigh that was practically theatric. Because he was three sheets to the wind and that was the best time possible for drama, apparently. "I was just... I don't know what I was, okay? I just know it was shitty of me. And that I acted without thinking and that we all lost something that day. Before that day, too, obviously. Just. Again. Mistakes."

He didn't know what he was trying to say, and Bucky was looking more and more agitated which made Tony feel like he should either stop (which, he couldn't now. There was no going back, there just wasn't) or plow through even faster. "Look, I just wanted to say it's not on you. And you shouldn't feel like you have to avoid me, because I'm not going to go all--" he made a face and put his bare palm out in his signature repulsor move. "And we practically got along for one second before that so--you know."

F u c k this was not working the way he'd planned. Not planned. Wanted to plan?

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Bucky Barnes (MCU) & Tony; that probably exists on fanfic.net

sgt_barnesjb
2019-04-25 07:23 pm UTC (link)

There was no turning back from this conversation and what pissed Bucky off was that he never wanted to have it. It shouldn't be them having this talk right now. Stark needed to have this talk with Steve. Then maybe they could talk about it. This was happening in the wrong order. As it was, from Bucky's point of view, Stark and Steve were playing nice -- playing house it seemed -- and Bucky just didn't really understand it. That was fine, it wasn't his business he guessed, but it made it incredibly difficult for him to really know where he stood in everything. No, he didn't feel like he could just walk up to the two of them if they together in the square or outside doing whatever. There was to much damage that hadn't been controlled and Bucky didn't think he was the one who needed to do the controlling.

Maybe that was what Stark was trying to do now, but god, it sucked. And for all Bucky knew, he'd just forget it tomorrow amidst the hangover. But they were all in now, and Bucky felt extremely tense and uncomfortable. "Right," he said. "Somewhere between you wanting me put in prison and blowing my arm off, we got along." Granted, Bucky had been trying to rip the arc reactor out of him so it wasn't like it wasn't warranted. Stark had just watched a video showing his own parents being murdered. No one could be in their right mind after that. But Bucky was making a point.

"I wouldn't have blamed you if your actions had been about me," he said. "You could've killed me and honestly it would've been justified. But what you did was about Steve. I'm not even saying what he did was right, but neither was what you did. So I don't know what the hell you want from me. Do you want me to say 'okay, great, thanks for letting me know' or what?" He shook his head. "Where were you afterward? While Steve's been on the run? Why didn't you try to make it right before everything went to shit with Thanos, if this is so important? You're only saying this to me because I'm here, because Steve's here and you have to deal with it because you're uncomfortable."

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Re: Bucky Barnes (MCU) & Tony; JARVIS find me the slash

allaboutego
2019-04-26 10:11 pm UTC (link)

"I came to help you both as soon as I got my head out of my ass, don't act like you've forgotten." There'd been a space there, just a few minutes really, where they were all on the same side. It probably would have been glorious, had it stayed that way. Tony would have had proper back up against Ross with Steve on his side and Bucky proven innocent. A proper united front.

But that hadn't been the case. "So yeah. Somewhere between that."

He stood, and it was dumb, because really all it made him do was wobble a little. He should have taken it easy on the scotch, he was still a few pounds shy of normal Tony Stark size.

"Don't -- no. It wouldn't have been justified to kill you." Tony said, raising his hands, a dramatic, useless gesture offered up there. "Where was I? You knew where I was -- I." He paused, like Bucky'd practically slapped him in the face. Because the guy was right. He just was. Not his questions, but his -- well. Accusations. This wasn't about Bucky. It was about Steve. It was always about Steve, and their inability to figure their shit out.

It wasn't all on Tony, though, not really. It'd never been, and it wasn't fair for anyone to think it was.

"Fuck," he said, more to himself than Bucky, because Tony's attention was on the ceiling and then on Bucky again, unfocused but not completely gone. "We don't always have to exist in a place where Steve is always in the middle, y'know. We're not dependent on him."

Or maybe they were, in a way. But they didn't always have to be, not for everything.

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Bucky Barnes (MCU) & Tony; careful of the dark web JARVIS

sgt_barnesjb
2019-04-27 12:43 am UTC (link)

Had things not gone to hell with Zemo showing Stark that footage, then yes, they probably would've done well as a trio in stopping him, foiling his plan. But they'd gotten it all wrong. They'd assumed Zemo was going to unleash the other Winter Soldiers, but that wasn't the plan at all. They'd played right into it and even though Zemo was in a prison cell, all of them were still reeling in the aftermath to this very moment. And the real kicker was, they couldn't even blame Zemo. It wasn't like he did anything. He just showed them what was there. If it hadn't been Siberia, it would've been something else at some point. It was going to come out eventually. Zemo just sped it up.

And now here they were, in a bar in some bizarre clash of universes having it out. Tony was drunk, Bucky was numb and all of it was just a recipe for disaster. Bucky wanted to remove himself from the conversation. It wasn't going to get better. It was just going to get worse and frankly he didn't want Steve involved with it. Not while Tony was drunk. Nothing good was going to come from this.

Although Bucky knew Steve had a stake in this too, that he was also at fault, it'd be a cold day in hell before he'd ever throw his best friend under the bus other than sort of hinting at it before. He'd call Steve out on his own bullshit to his face, but he'd never do it to anyone else, least of all to Tony Stark. He'd defend him no matter what. It was what they always did. Even when Steve thought the Winter Soldier really had set off that bomb during the Accords signing, he'd come to try to warn him and get him away from the authorities. It didn't matter what the other did; they had each other's backs and had since they were children.

"I didn't put him there," Bucky said, flatly. "I didn't draw a line. In fact, I was trying to pull myself out of the equation entirely before Zemo fucked it all up. So if Steve's in the middle, then you two can figure it out. Probably not until you've slept and drained Barton of all his coffee, if you want that conversation to go better than this one."

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Bucky Barnes (MCU) & Tony; JARVIS trolls on 4chan

allaboutego
2019-04-27 05:15 pm UTC (link)

Tony wasn't trying to throw anyone under a bus, not even a little. If anything, he wanted to pull them all out of the line of any busses coming their way. He wanted to do it in a way where they all saw what the problems were, acknowledged them, and then pushed them to the side for something new instead of really dealing though.

Or maybe he didn't want that. Maybe he wanted to argue it out, maybe he wanted to yell and shout and finally break like he'd needed to for years now.

He didn't know. Especially right now he didn't. The smart tiny little part of his brain that still had common sense left told him he'd regret so, so much tomorrow. But he was ignoring it. "That's what I'm saying," he said, desperate to be understood and failing spectacularly. "He doesn't have to be. We can -- it. It doesn't always have to be about him." Except the part where it probably did, at least a little. Because even Tony, a star that shined bright all on his own and without any help seemed to revolve at least a little bit around Steve Rogers. It was impossible not to.

Then again, maybe the vice verse could be said of Steve.

Tony wiped his hands across his face, clearly frustrated, and wobbled slightly left and then right before he righted himself again. "You're fucking stubborn," he decided, and didn't sound so much mad as surprisingly impressed.

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Bucky Barnes (MCU) & Tony; JARVIS invented nyancat

sgt_barnesjb
2019-04-27 10:25 pm UTC (link)

Being dependent on Steve Rogers was something Bucky had been accustomed to for decades. They'd developed a level of codependency when they were children and it only grew as the two of them grew older. It was why Bucky stood there in a burning building shouting he wasn't going to leave without Steve. It was why Steve dropped the shield on that helicarrier. Maybe some of it was unhealthy but it was what they knew. Shifting that into the whole situation with Stark, well, it made the codependency that much more complicated. Because whether Stark wanted to admit it or not, there was some dependency there too. This whole thing had been incredibly personal. In another setting, with better conditions and a lot less alcohol, maybe Bucky and Tony could've worked out some of their issues. But it was an extremely fragile and delicate situation and confronting it head on with a booze fueled Tony Stark trying to navigate through it with Bucky resisting about as hard as he could, well, it didn't make for a good mix. They needed Steve.

He'd meant it when he said that Tony and Steve needed to get their shit together and figure things out. It wasn't going to fix anything if they didn't have it out. He'd concede that even though his and Tony's talk was pretty awful, some things were brought up that needed to be, but not right fucking now in the middle of a bar with other people in it and way too much scotch on Tony's breath. If he was being honest with himself, Bucky knew he needed to talk all of this out with Steve too, because there was a lot of shit he didn't understand either. All three of them were just big on avoiding and not so much on confronting emotional issues in a healthy, constructive way.

"Yeah well," he finished off what was left of his beer. "I grew up with Steve Rogers. I had to be." He got up from his seat. "I shouldn't have come here. Great talk, Stark." He shook his head and walked past him, heading for the door.

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