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The Judges Of Sabra La Tau (sabra_la_iudex) wrote in sabra_la_tau,
@ 2011-09-25 06:14:00

Entry tags:

!days 270-279, !games, adachi emiri, akin iyapo shing kaalnikanjlo, albert de morcerf, amami riku, aoi 'santa' kurashiki, ashikawa mitsuru, chrome dokuro, chrono, danielle 'dani' phantom, edward elric, ermillina 'snow white' curtana, excel, folken fanel, gokudera hayato, hizumi mizushiro, howard link, kanou taisuke, lelouch lamperouge, lenalee lee, lulu, masahiro namiki, maya fey, nabuca, rena ryugu, rokujou miharu, rolo lamperouge, rory pond, shinonome kon, sion astal, takizawa yuta, tazendra, temma, yoi-te, yuffie kisaragi, {d'eon/lia de beaumont}, {doumeki shizuka}, {howell jenkins}, {rapunzel}, ~{the kid}

[Game 163]
Who: Everyone
Where: Arena
When: Day 275, morning
What: A game

[The bleating of goats call you to the arena once again. The statue of a young boy sits on the throne, his chin resting on his hands. There is a simple, wooden raised platform right below the throne that serves as a stage. Decorating the ground in front of the stage are enough cushions and pillows for everyone to sit on. Circling the stage area are simple panels in team colors. On them are three buttons. The Kid sounds tired... bored...]

Let’s be honest today.

[Mingle | Game Start (team posts go here) | Stage | End Game | Memories (Hydra, Pyxis (Cygnus), Cepheus, Lacerta, Orion, Lepus, Apus, Lynx)]

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	Re: [Endgame] overclocking 2011-09-25 04:08 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. If nothing else, you can trust Edward, right? So it'll be fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] copyofaphantom 2011-09-25 04:09 am UTC (link)
	Yes. Edward is family, he wouldn't lie...I can depend on him... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] overclocking 2011-09-25 04:11 am UTC (link)
	[Hairruffles before taking his hand back.] That's right. And the rest of your team, too. You can depend on all of them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] copyofaphantom 2011-09-25 04:15 am UTC (link)
	[And reaching for his hand.] ...I...I know. I have...people here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] overclocking 2011-09-25 04:17 am UTC (link)
	[There's a long pause before letting her have it] Of course you do. Was there ever really any question about that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] copyofaphantom 2011-09-25 04:19 am UTC (link)
	Never. Never...never if they could...just me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] overclocking 2011-09-25 04:22 am UTC (link)
	Oh, Razzy... What on earth did she do to you...? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] copyofaphantom 2011-09-25 04:26 am UTC (link)
	I... Shattered it... She shattered the human part and nothing...there's no...stopping! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] overclocking 2011-09-25 04:29 am UTC (link)
	[...if she can flip crazy switches it's perfectly plausible that she actually could do something like that, too.] Shattered? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] copyofaphantom 2011-09-25 04:30 am UTC (link)
	All broken and it's like...there's no wall and everything comes and come and comes and it doesn't stop and it never SLOWED when I was ghost and it's just...I don't... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] overclocking 2011-09-25 04:37 am UTC (link)
	Why...did you come to a game in this condition? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] copyofaphantom 2011-09-25 04:39 am UTC (link)
	I have to help my family. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] overclocking 2011-09-25 04:41 am UTC (link)
	You have to help yourself, too. Didn't you promise me you would? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] copyofaphantom 2011-09-25 04:46 am UTC (link)
	I...I can't not be there. If it was a bad game...and I was the only one, someone had to play. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] overclocking 2011-09-25 04:49 am UTC (link)
	[Growing more frustrated] Yes you can. You don't have to come to ever game, if you're sick or injured... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] copyofaphantom 2011-09-25 04:52 am UTC (link)
	I have to help my family! [And there's a sort of wild desperation in her eyes.] I can't be a hero, I can barely even try to be a decent person, let alone good! I can't not help my family! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] overclocking 2011-09-25 05:08 am UTC (link)
	...hurting yourself isn't helping your family, regardless of your intentions. Because they care about you it will just trouble them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] copyofaphantom 2011-09-25 05:10 am UTC (link)
	[And the flinch is obvious and she gives him a look like he had just hit her.] ...I'm fine with that. I'm fine with being trouble if...if just once I can save them. Keep them from being hurt in a way that makes it harder for them to smile...to be happy... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] overclocking 2011-09-25 05:15 am UTC (link)
	[Yeah, I'm good at hurting people lately. He doesn't reach out this time.] Razzy, your being hurt will make it harder for them to be happy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] copyofaphantom 2011-09-25 05:17 am UTC (link)
	I...I know...I know it's harder, but... [Ngggh.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Endgame] overclocking 2011-09-25 05:22 am UTC (link)
	You know. So there shouldn't be any "but". (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: [Endgame]

copyofaphantom
2011-09-25 05:28 am UTC (link)

But...but...

[And she's shaking and then yelling.]

I'm sick of always being the one protected!

The one not hurt! The one whose fine while the people I love are suffering and being torn apart. They're good people, Tide! All of them are wonderful and loving and so amazing and they keep suffering horrible things while I'm FINE. When I'm so weak I can't help them!

When I'm the horrible person who justified seeing my BROTHER below me and betrayed someone who only wanted to help people and still almost get him killed after I realize I was a villain!

When I'm someone who couldn't even get happiness in her own home because she couldn't help someone who needed it and decided coming here was a good idea despite all that!

Why am I the only one who gets spared, why am I the only one who can't protect anyone important to me?!

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	Re: [Endgame] overclocking 2011-09-25 05:44 am UTC (link)
	[Fuck fuck fuck why are you the exact same brand of crazy as my own dumb little girl] You think you're the only one? You honestly think you're the only one? Everyone wants to protect the people important to them. Not everyone succeeds. And that's why you should take care of yourself, so they won't be where you are, wondering why they couldn't protect you! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: [Endgame]

copyofaphantom
2011-09-25 05:50 am UTC (link)

Like you can talk! You wouldn't even reach out for my hand the ONE TIME I might have been able to really help someone I care about! I wanted to protect you like you want to protect me and like they want to protect me!

AND THEY DO PROTECT ME!

They protect me from so MUCH! I have NOTHING back home, Tide! Nothing! I have a father who wants to kill me, a cousin who I can't go to, and I DON'T EXIST. I'm a CLONE. I'm a almost two year thirteen year old with the mind of fifteen year old with all the ability to understand things, but having none of the experience so I AVOID PEOPLE unless I can smile like everything is FINE and hope I can con them out of food!

I'm alone and scared and ALL I WANT is to be able to have someone tell me they love me and hold me more than once every near dozen months because I have no where to go!

They protect me by just BEING THERE because as long as they're THERE, I feel like I have the ability to at least BE ABLE TO SMILE!

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	Re: [Endgame] overclocking 2011-09-25 05:57 am UTC (link)
	[Disregarding the first part of that LIKE A BOSS] You live in constant fear that the people around you are going to disappear and you'll be alone again. Why? Didn't you come here to build a better life? When they tell you they'll be there, you should trust them. No one's telling you not to protect them- but you can do it without hurting them, too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)