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Tweak says, "You so care about me."

The Judges Of Sabra La Tau (sabra_la_iudex) wrote in sabra_la_tau,
@ 2011-02-26 08:50:00

Entry tags:

!days 210-219, !games, allen walker, aragaki shinjiro, claude c. kenni, danielle 'dani' phantom, edward elric, excel, flonne, gokudera hayato, howard link, jake berenson, johnny rayflo, kiryuu zero, kurosaki tasuku, lulu, minami ikki, nakayama yayoi, rabi, sawada tsunayoshi, shinonome hangetsu, shinonome kon, sumeragi kururu, syaoran, watanuki kimihiro, yoi-te, yuffie kisaragi, zexion, {chaz villette}, {dark schneider/lucien renlen}, {doumeki shizuka}, {gaara}, {horohoro}, {hoshimura makina}, {kohaku}, {lily}, {livio the double fang}, {lumiere}, {nicholas d. wolfwood}, {tobias}, {uchiha obito}, {uruki}, {{{leonard 'bones' mccoy}}}, {{{taiki}}}, ~{persona}

Who? You?
Where? The Arena?
When? Day 219, morning?
What: It's that time again!

[Persona on the throne, people on couches, you know the drill!]

How will things go today?

((Sign-up | Gawk at unconscious people | Mingle - Game start

RED
CHAZ
RAZZY
EMIRI
BONES
ZELGADIS
SHARKS
KOHAKU

Endgame - Memories - Vulp Pyxis Lacerta Ursa Corvus))

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	Re: [ENDGAME] copyofaphantom 2011-03-02 04:36 am UTC (link)
	[Looks up at Edward.] I... I don't want to be...like my dad... [And there are the tears again.] I don't want to be able to feel all right...after killing my family... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] clap_your_hands 2011-03-02 04:39 am UTC (link)
	hugs again You aren't like him at all. Because you love us, and that part of you did what it did because of that. That's why we can't blame you and why we still love you, too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] copyofaphantom 2011-03-02 04:41 am UTC (link)
	[C-clings.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] clap_your_hands 2011-03-02 04:43 am UTC (link)
	hugs and hairpets (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] copyofaphantom 2011-03-02 04:44 am UTC (link)
	I don't...I don't want to hurt my family...my friends again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] clap_your_hands 2011-03-02 04:46 am UTC (link)
	Mm, and that's why you won't. Because you care, and you'll learn from what happened. So you don't have to worry about it so much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] copyofaphantom 2011-03-02 04:47 am UTC (link)
	Unless people have to go into my heart again.... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] clap_your_hands 2011-03-02 04:50 am UTC (link)
	I think that, with as much as you don't want to hurt us, your heart will protect everyone the next time and keep them away from that part. Or show them a way to heal it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] copyofaphantom 2011-03-02 04:51 am UTC (link)
	...I...I don't know what my heart could do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] clap_your_hands 2011-03-02 04:55 am UTC (link)
	Your heart's part of you... I still don't know everything that was in mine, either. But there's part of you that's scared of all the bad things that can happen, and that's where we ended up. I think you'll find a way to change that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] copyofaphantom 2011-03-02 04:58 am UTC (link)
	....I... I don't think I.... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] clap_your_hands 2011-03-02 05:01 am UTC (link)
	Look inside yourself. You aren't your father, and you never will be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] copyofaphantom 2011-03-02 05:06 am UTC (link)
	I mean...I don't think...I can get over what I'm afraid of... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] clap_your_hands 2011-03-02 05:14 am UTC (link)
	You know it's okay to be scared of some things, right? Why don't you think you'll get over it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] copyofaphantom 2011-03-02 05:18 am UTC (link)
	Because.... [Trails off, mumbling quietly.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] clap_your_hands 2011-03-02 05:22 am UTC (link)
	Yeah? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] copyofaphantom 2011-03-02 05:28 am UTC (link)
	[There is a looooong silence here.] When you die...what do you remember after? Do you...remember anything after you die....but before you revive? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] clap_your_hands 2011-03-02 05:30 am UTC (link)
	thinks for a moment before shaking his head Might be different somewhere where death's more permanent, but both times I've died here, I don't remember anything. Everything just sort of stopped, and when it started again I was in the arena, reviving. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] copyofaphantom 2011-03-02 05:35 am UTC (link)
	.... [Clings tighter.] When I was revived...the one time I died in a game...I didn't scream. Not once and barely cried. Because I remembered being dead. And compared to that, the pain was such a relief... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] clap_your_hands 2011-03-02 05:37 am UTC (link)
	Yeah... it is. I don't remember anything about being dead, but being alive again is a good feeling, even when it hurts. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: [ENDGAME]

copyofaphantom
2011-03-02 05:40 am UTC (link)

Not just a good feeling. Anything...anything that wasn't that feeling. That emptiness...

[She shakes against him.] I would choose torture over that. I tried to choose torture when I died back home...every molecule of my body could feel like it was on fire...

I can't get over that fear. I can't not be terrified of going to that place again.

But hearing, confirming my dad never wanted me...it makes me almost want to choose death instead...

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	Re: [ENDGAME] clap_your_hands 2011-03-02 05:45 am UTC (link)
	hugs you tighter, poor tiny ;; Maybe he didn't... but there's so many people here who do want you. And I know it's not th'same because we aren't your real family from home, but it doesn't change the way we feel. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] copyofaphantom 2011-03-02 05:49 am UTC (link)
	I know...I can...I can see that. But I'm afraid...either everyone leaves or maybe I do something unforgivable and I can't... I can't not be afraid of that....I want to be brave, to be strong, but I can't...can't not be scared of being alone... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] clap_your_hands 2011-03-02 05:56 am UTC (link)
	Nothing you do could be unforgivable. Not to your teammates, and not to the people who care about you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [ENDGAME] copyofaphantom 2011-03-02 06:12 am UTC (link)
	...but I can't help it... I...I can find happiness if I have people...but I can't if I'm alone. I can't help...being scared of that. Even if it doesn't make sense. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)