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Tweak says, "*Let's hear it for the Boy*"

Saint Reilly (shutterbugged) wrote in rooms,
@ 2014-11-08 11:59:00

Entry tags:

*journal, evangeline sablier, lin alesi, louis donovan, preston rawlings, saint reilly, wren henry

Public, Wren H, Evie S, Preston R, Louis D, Lin A
[Public]

No one died this time. Did they?

[Wren H]

You came through okay. Right?

[Evie S]

No crying this time. But no tea. Was yours better this time around?

[Preston R]

All right?

[Louis D]

I'm running out of ways to ask people if they're okay. Are you?

[Lin A]

Survived it? Skipped it?

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	Re: Preston R./Saint R. shutterbugged 2014-11-13 07:22 am UTC (link)
	[Something flickers, like a wave breaking on the surface but it's dampened down too quickly to be noted for what precisely it is.] The other way says more. About what you're thinking. That's why? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. ex_clerk820 2014-11-13 07:25 am UTC (link)
	That's why. [Full agreement. Gratitude for understanding. Saint is quick. Silent (bright), but quick.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. shutterbugged 2014-11-13 07:27 am UTC (link)
	It's clever. Gives you something else to think that isn't that. [A brief series of pictures, street magicians and substitutions, a shell-game played on the side of the street in Vegas.] You're learning control. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. ex_clerk820 2014-11-13 07:30 am UTC (link)
	[Some regret, though he appreciates the distraction offered by Saint's colorful (bright) images.] Not very much. I am trying things. I want to [...murmur of voices, a whirring fan.] talk to [...contact, skin on skin, nothing but that.] people again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. shutterbugged 2014-11-13 07:33 am UTC (link)
	[Quiet acknowledgment. The images cease, there's an absence of color, of movement as Saint thinks.] You don't want to get lost again. [Slight correction.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. ex_clerk820 2014-11-13 07:35 am UTC (link)
	No. I want to [...murmur of voices, a whirring fan.] talk to [...contact, skin on skin, nothing but that.] people without me in it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. shutterbugged 2014-11-13 07:38 am UTC (link)
	Ah. So that you're talking to them. No possible influence. [Absence of influence is a stretch of empty sand to Saint: walking on a beach, footprints disappearing from a track ahead.] So it's real. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. ex_clerk820 2014-11-13 07:41 am UTC (link)
	It hurts people. [Depressed.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. shutterbugged 2014-11-13 07:44 am UTC (link)
	People in particular? [Contemplative. A movement down the connection: he's given in to the cigarettes. Smoke curls, relief: a faint internal-only small pleasure.] Or in general? Someone said something? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. ex_clerk820 2014-11-13 07:48 am UTC (link)
	In general. [But more specific. Like one face being a focus in a crowd; but it's just a feeling.] No one said anything. But I influence. You are smoking. [Rueful smile.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. shutterbugged 2014-11-13 07:52 am UTC (link)
	[Calm. Another series of pictures: crumpled bedsheets, an empty (dirty) coffee mug, the cigarette packet on the nightstand.] Because I wouldn't otherwise? It sped the decision up. It didn't change the decision or that I was going to make it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. ex_clerk820 2014-11-13 07:56 am UTC (link)
	[He disapproves the coffee mug with his usual urge to Assist.] ...A bad influence. [Dark sensations, cold flame.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. shutterbugged 2014-11-13 08:02 am UTC (link)
	[Faint amusement echoes. Saint likes coffee.] You think you're a bad influence? Or you think other people will think you a bad influence? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. ex_clerk820 2014-11-13 08:10 am UTC (link)
	[Frustration. It's not like Preston; he is usually so external in his focus. Inside, he roils like a pot just beginning to boil.] An influence. Any influence. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. shutterbugged 2014-11-13 08:17 am UTC (link)
	[The reaction is purely observation: more of the same, still calm.] But you won't be. You figured out the words. It's not instant. But it's better than it was. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. ex_clerk820 2014-11-13 09:27 pm UTC (link)
	Charles says he can turn it off for a while I think I might take him up on it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. shutterbugged 2014-11-13 09:31 pm UTC (link)
	Would that help? And you'd trust him now? [Pleased and then thoughtful. A series of images: street-side cafes heaving with people, the movie theater, a restaurant with very clean white linen.] You wouldn't need to be lonely. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. ex_clerk820 2014-11-14 05:40 am UTC (link)
	I have to. He could already, if he really wanted to. [It's hard for him to imagine that, hard for him to be under the power of another, even theoretical. He likes the ordinariness of Saint's framed imaginary images, clings to them even, though they lose their extracolored beauty once they are Preston's and not Saint's.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. shutterbugged 2014-11-14 05:42 am UTC (link)
	But he wouldn't. If you didn't want him to. Unless you were a danger. [Saint is certain: half a dozen panels of brightly-colored comic books flash to mind, but his mind is still trickling through places in the background.] What would you do? First. If you could? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. ex_clerk820 2014-11-14 05:48 am UTC (link)
	[Preston remembers Xavier's reputation too, though his memory is colored in bold lines of a vague half-remembered cartoon.] I need to go home and pick things up. I need to apologize to Steve. [He tries the text thing with Steve's name. It kind of works. There's a lot of heat there.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. shutterbugged 2014-11-14 05:51 am UTC (link)
	Do you need things now? [A memory: the walk in the heat of the day, the ceiling fans, wooden floors. It's like a series of photographs played together rather than a movie, snapshots rather than an uninterrupted stream of imagery.] Why do you need to apologize to Steve? [Any change in tempo or temperament is calmly observed and absorbed] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Preston R./Saint R.

ex_clerk820
2014-11-14 06:02 am UTC (link)

Steve picked them up for me. [Uncanny flickers of another connection; memory of experience that is not physical. Steve is pure understanding, somewhat idealized in Preston's mind, like a candle in dusk. He is welcoming, accepting, deeply human. It is not a surprise Preston thinks of him this way. He does a good job of keeping the intimacy of that connection somewhat distant, but not nearly enough. It is not like his calm, serene sensation with Saint, also good, different and good. The contrast is deep with the connection what it is.] He was being nice.

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Re: Preston R./Saint R.

shutterbugged
2014-11-14 06:06 am UTC (link)

[Understanding kindles. Saint doesn't reach down the connection to better substantiate the feeling, but there's an awareness on the other end. The cigarette is idling.] Ah. [Captain America: Saint's mind provides the imagery from Veteran's Day, the photographs of the man.] He is nice. [There's no reservation from the other side of the connection but a pause: the smell and taste of the lukewarm coffee permeates.] That's why?

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	Re: Preston R./Saint R. ex_clerk820 2014-11-14 06:09 am UTC (link)
	He's nice, and I'm sort of... selfish. [There's a lot of hellfire imagery in the latter adjective. Sometimes the negativity in Preston's mind has a tendency to express itself in disturbing religious imagery.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Preston R./Saint R. shutterbugged 2014-11-14 06:14 am UTC (link)
	[If Saint could douse the imagery he would. The calm sullies the connection, is dampening like a blanket.] Why do you think you're selfish? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)