Confessional
[Buffy Summers is already sitting on the chair, barely taking up half of it. She looks shell-shocked and uncomfortable. Her hands are folded together, and occasionally, she wrings them together or fidgets with her rings or bracelet.]
So I get here to find that not only are there vampires in the house, but a pig puppet and cartoons wandering around. And people telling me not to do the job I was chosen for. [She turns even more unhappy and slightly despondent] All I keep thinking about is that I'm going to go back and in two years, I'm going to die. Again. I'm going to take a leap off a big tower into a dimensional portal and kill myself to save a sister I don't currently have.
My ex-boyfriend is here, the one who just left me last week, and it still... [Pause. Quieter] It still hurts. I know he was right to go away. I know that in the long run, things will work out the way they're supposed to work out. But I needed time to work through this before seeing him again. Now I'm not just seeing him, I'm in the same living quarters with him. On the same team. I didn't know that when I signed up for this. If I had...
And then Spike. With his big, stupid mouth. Keeps telling me that I'll get drunk with him in the future, and we'll work side-by-side - which I don't buy for a second... God, I hate him so much. I just wanna punch his stupid face in. But I know that - I know that most of that is just...
[Looking every bit her age and not at all the person that demons fear in the least, she finally looks into the camera] I don't wanna die.
[She glanced back down at her hands, opens her mouth as though she's going to say something else, then gets up and leaves the room abruptly.]
So I get here to find that not only are there vampires in the house, but a pig puppet and cartoons wandering around. And people telling me not to do the job I was chosen for. [She turns even more unhappy and slightly despondent] All I keep thinking about is that I'm going to go back and in two years, I'm going to die. Again. I'm going to take a leap off a big tower into a dimensional portal and kill myself to save a sister I don't currently have.
My ex-boyfriend is here, the one who just left me last week, and it still... [Pause. Quieter] It still hurts. I know he was right to go away. I know that in the long run, things will work out the way they're supposed to work out. But I needed time to work through this before seeing him again. Now I'm not just seeing him, I'm in the same living quarters with him. On the same team. I didn't know that when I signed up for this. If I had...
And then Spike. With his big, stupid mouth. Keeps telling me that I'll get drunk with him in the future, and we'll work side-by-side - which I don't buy for a second... God, I hate him so much. I just wanna punch his stupid face in. But I know that - I know that most of that is just...
[Looking every bit her age and not at all the person that demons fear in the least, she finally looks into the camera] I don't wanna die.
[She glanced back down at her hands, opens her mouth as though she's going to say something else, then gets up and leaves the room abruptly.]