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River Song. Melody Pond. Our Lady of Spoilers (hidethedamage) wrote in portland_net,
@ 2014-06-03 21:46:00

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Could we, perhaps, one of these days, sit down and talk? I know it's exceptionally awkward having me around, but I would like to actually converse with you at some point. If you're willing.

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hidethedamage
2014-06-05 01:21 am UTC (link)

Would you rather I were alone, Sweetie? I could try, but I tend to be quite a lot less fun to be around when I'm lonely. And since I highly doubt you're ever going to be up to the task of keeping me entertained...

I'm glad he did too. It makes life easier for everyone, I think, that I knew about her. It wasn't a surprise, at least. And yes, dear, I know she's young. I'm not going to lead her astray, but I'm also not going to lie to her.

Well, I'm glad you're not wishing me away, at least. It does feel quite a lot better than being completely rejected. Living I can do.

Sanity is such a strange thing. It means different things to each person you ask. I'll pull out the biscuits, then. You can eat as many as you want, since I don't need to be eating all of them myself. I'll weigh as much as... well, you've not met him yet, nevermind. Thank you, darling. I look forward to seeing you face-to-face.

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doctorjohnsmith
2014-06-05 02:00 am UTC (link)

You know the answer to that, River. I can't see me ever wanting you to be lonely; I'm not that cruel. ~~And I know loneliness far better than most beings ever could.~~

I wouldn't ask that you be anything other than yourself, though she's already asked if it makes you her step-mother. She needs a mother more than a friend, right now, anyway, though that is something only the two of you can decide between yourselves.

You haven't been rejected. Nor do I think you will be, when I become him. In my timeline... well, a lot has happened and people who get too close to me get hurt. Badly. That has an effect on ones psyche, as I'm sure one of your many doctorates will tell you.

I'm on my way. It'll be good to see you again ~~alive~~. Never could turn down a good biscuit!

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hidethedamage
2014-06-05 02:23 am UTC (link)

I don't know. You're different this young. You could have felt differently, thus the offer. I do prefer NOT to be alone, considering, but I'd do so if you really wished it. Even though I'm not your wife yet, I am eventually.

I think the two of us will come to an odd sort of agreement, Jenny and I, one way or another. I'm not really the motherly type, but I can see myself being something nearer that than her friend, if the world turns on it's axis the way it should.

Oh? It feels like it sometimes. And it will in your future as well. He crushed me sometimes, but that's not the point. And yes, I know, people get hurt around both of us, get lost because of us, and it hurts so desperately. I often feel like I'm failing everyone. That I've failed so many people. But we keep going on, don't we? Somehow, we keep moving forward, or back, as the case may be.

Good. I'll be here, with bells on, as they say.

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