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Tweak says, ""Carry on my wayward son""

Miss Lois Lane (mslane) wrote in paragraffiti,
@ 2009-02-09 00:16:00

Current mood:	blank
Entry tags:	azula, clark kent (comic), father vincent, lana lang (lexmas), lois lane (comic)

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I've fallen so far, and strayed so much. Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever find myself again. I wonder if I'll ever find my way back to ~~him~~ who I used to be.

[ooc: emo!Lois has been thinking too much. Hack the strike at will.]

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Lois

dark_butterfly
2009-02-09 09:21 am UTC (link)

Well, things have changed. Don't ask me why. I guess it's because of that Demon who's going around torturing people, or the vampire army getting ready to destroy things. People are tense. But that's no excuse for acting as rudely as they have been.

I think this insanity is catching too. Now that blonde girl who's his cousin is acting weird too.

Don't worry, I'm used to strange situations. It sounds like you were trying to recapture the memory of him, even though you knew it wasn't Clark. But if you were forced into it, then it's not really your fault either. People do strange things when they're in pain, and it sounds like this guy was nothing like how Clark was. But it didn't turn out the way you expected, so he's more at blame for this than you are. Had you been in a normal situation, you might have reconsidered midway. You never know until you're actually doing it. But you never got the chance, because of how he turned the situation against you.

It sounds like you're in need of serious reevaluating of your life. But I think the first step is stop listening to what other people say. These people are assholes, the ones who responded badly to you at least. That girl who insists on being called princess is insane, and the others aren't being themselves either. Only Alessa really spoke the truth, and that's because I know her a bit. I could tell if she was being influenced by this.

~~Wow, THE Lois Lane. And I gave advice to her. I'm rocking right now! Although it's strange talking about Superman as Clark, in this way...~~

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mslane
2009-02-09 12:09 pm UTC (link)

Wow. Didn't know about the demon or the vampire army, so you know a lot more than I do right now. I just knew a little bit about the magical pit thing.

Yeah, I noticed. She's treating me almost as badly as he is. And to think... when she first came here, I didn't even know her. Or at least, I didn't know her yet. And I still invited her with open arms. This is the thanks I get for that, I guess.

He wasn't. He tempted me, he taunted me, and you know, a woman has needs. He told me I could always pretend. He was like Clark in so many ways... the sound of his voice, his looks... if he was trying really hard, I think he could fake his personality. He drove me crazy, making me want him that way, and then he basically cornered me in an alley and told me what he wanted. He wanted information, and to use me as a sex toy. And he told me he might let me live if I did what he wanted. And I knew I couldn't fight him, because he's just as strong as Clark is. So I gave in. And since the moment he laid a hand on me, I think I've hated myself. He used my weakness and my pain against me. And now I'm paying for it. No one seems to understand. I thought Clark had begun to, but he hasn't, apparently.

I used to never show my emotions. I used to be like a hard-boiled egg... I kept all the softness, and gentleness, inside. I was a tough cookie. I poured all my passions into my work. And then Clark happened. And for so long, he was the only one who ever saw that side of me. He was the only one I really... let in. And now... I don't have that.

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