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Savannah Monroe (savannah_monroe) wrote in omega_reality,
@ 2013-05-13 15:42:00

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*complete, 2013 05, character: marty deeks, character: savannah monroe

RP: Savannah and Marty
Who: Savannah and Marty
Where: their room
When: Monday, May 13, 2013
Summary: With Tamira's arrival, April's return and their changed circumstances, Savannah has a minor epiphany about her relationship with Marty

Savannah's brain worked faster than she spoke if that was even possibly. She made connections that people wouldn't see or understand most times. G had gotten good at following her. Marty tried, although she was willing to slow it down for him, and then there was their mind link, which was totally awesome, because she didn't have to slow down at all, and she knew that he was following along with her. So, yes, Marty's power - totally awesome. Except that it wasn't what she was thinking, not now.

It had started with Tamira, talking about Sean and Jenna, and even Sam and G. Then April and Eliot's return, and yes even Nate, but it was more about April and Eliot. She knew that Marty didn't like them, knew that unlike G, he wouldn't be diplomatic. She was almost tempted to tell him that he needed to for the good of the group, and that's when the last piece clicked in her head. "I might owe you an apology," she said, sounding almost confused as she turned her head to look at him.

They were in bed and the twins were asleep. She was breastfeeding Jamie, and really this wasn't the moment for epiphany, but it's not like she could control her brain. "I was about to tell you what to do with April and Eliot, and that's not why the apology. The fact is that I'd never have told G. I mean I might have, but in a different way. I might have made suggestions afterwards, if something happened, but I wouldn't have told him straight out, and... I love you, I love you both, and he's like a dad... and he's like a dad," she finished like that explained everything, which didn't, but she was getting there. "It's not about orders. I can take orders from you. I might argue, but it's not like I never argued with G, getting him to explain. It's... You know how people ask you if someone makes you happy? But you make me happy and sad, you frustrate me and help me clear things up, you're annoying one moment and the best thing ever the next. The worse moments have been when we couldn't rely on each other, and then you were in charge, and I didn't want you to be G, but I thought of you like G, looking for the hidden meanings, the secrets, the mind games, and I know you're not like him. You'll never be like him. Heck, I'm the one who spent weeks telling you that you didn't have to be like him or Sam when you decided that you weren't good enough because you weren't them. I knew all of that, but the secrets, the things you couldn't tell me, they upset me, not because I want to know everything, which I do, but I know better than to think people tell me everything, but because it was you keeping things, and then I started checking everything you said, looking for things you weren't saying, and that whole ordeal with Maura and Thomas, and I was expecting you to do what G does, but you don't, you never have, but I really don't like when you keep things. it's... we have this perfect balance and it gets thrown off, even though I know you were doing your job. I don't know how they can keep things from each other and be so close, but... I really want to find them so they can be in charge again, and then we can talk about things again without worrying." Without having to use Marty's power, since it was awesome, but Marty didn't like it that much. "Am I making any sense? I don't think I am."

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deeks_marty
2013-05-12 08:26 pm UTC (link)

Marty set his phone aside so he could look at her while she talked. He'd found it was much easier to follow where her mind led the conversation if he did. Most of the time, it worked. Although, there were some times, like a couple months ago, when their wavelengths were too far apart to match up. Still, he thought he might get part of what she was saying now. She seemed to be jumping from one thought to another midstream at some places, though. So, he might be pretty far off.

"Well, if what you're trying to say is that because of my job being what his should be you've been expecting me to be G without realizing that's what you were doing, then, yeah, I think you're making sense. If that's not what you're saying...then, I'm not quite following," he replied with a grin after staring at her for a moment. Reaching out, he tugged lightly on Jamie's foot for a second, the way he might tweak a lock of Savannah's hair when he was teasing. "If that is what you're saying, though, I get it. It took me a while to stop trying to do this job the way G would do things instead of the best way I can. I might be over the worst of the self-worth issue where he and Sam are concerned. But, trying to fill his shoes is daunting. And, really, I'm not very good at it. If I'd had to do this before they got everything organized and under control...? I'm just building on the foundation they left for me. And you don't owe me any apologies for something I'm just as guilty of doing."

Smirking, he winked at her. "Unless that's not what you're apologizing for, in which case, apologize away."

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savannah_monroe
2013-05-12 08:39 pm UTC (link)

"Yes, no, in part. Told you I'm not making any sense." It was very clear in her head, but she was having a problem putting things into words. She stopped and took a deep breath, trying to get her brain to slow down long enough that she could put it in a more coherent way.

"It's not that I expected you to be G or wanted you to be G. It's that I started to expect you to use some of his ... less than noble traits ... on me, and that's why I'm apologizing." She sighed. "It just dawned on me, but it took a while. First there was that talk with Tamira, about Sean and Troy, about Jenna, about being happy, and I realized that I've only been truly happy when we have been able to communicate honestly with each other. G has taught me this job and he's given me a safe haven on occasion, but you're the one who makes me feel in tune with myself and the world. If he keeps something from me, it's expected. If you keep something from me, it hurts. Then the pick up today. I know how you feel, I know what G would do, and as much as I think that his way is more productive, it's not you, and I guess that's when it finally clicked. You will never be them or Vance. Your moral compass is a lot different, but it's not even about what an awesome person you are, but how much in the defensive the secrets made me, at least until-" She tapped to her head.

"I can apologize for that, but I'm not apologizing for wanting you to give up this job. I really don't like secrets between us," she said with a pout. "Do you think they keep secrets? And if they do, how do they manage? It feels so wrong."

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deeks_marty
2013-05-12 09:24 pm UTC (link)

"Good, because I'm not going to apologize for wanting to give it back to G and Morgan as soon as we find them." Unable to resist the pout, he leaned over to kiss her softly. "From each other, you mean? I don't..." Marty frowned. "I don't know. The two of them, they don't look at things the way the rest of us do. If they do, it seems to work for them."

Moving back, he sighed. "This is why I hate this job, though. I mean, I can do it. I have to. There's no other choice but to step up. But, even after all this time, I'm not like them. I'm a cop. I might have the law degree, the agent training, Sam's SEAL training. But, under it all, I'm still a cop. And, while the things I have to do for this job might be necessary...it's not who I am. Or who I want to be." He reached over to tuck a lock of her hair behind her ear, but chose to toy with it between two fingers instead. "I don't like secrets between us, either. But, I hope this means you know that if it wasn't necessary for the job, I wouldn't keep anything from you."

Not that there's much you don't hear this way, he added for her alone. He wasn't sure this was what Robert had meant when he said to find a way to talk to her. But, Marty had to admit the man was right about feeling more balanced when he wasn't holding her at arms' length. "I'm an awesome person, huh?"

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savannah_monroe
2013-05-12 09:39 pm UTC (link)

"Then it works out perfectly," she answered with a grin, before leaning into him for a kiss. It wasn't easy with two kids between them and one in her arms, but she scooted over enough that she could lean against him. "Yes, I meant from each other. I know almost everyone assumes that they tell each other everything, but I don't know either. I doubt it. I'd ask, but no matter what their solution is, I doubt it would work for anyone else."

Savannah nodded. "I know, and I like you better when you are who you are. It's much better than when you tried to be them." She looked at him smiling. "I've always known that it was for the job, but as I said, while I don't mind in general, it's not a pleasant feeling to have this divide."

And now we don't have to have it. It wasn't the perfect solution, because she didn't like that he had to break the rules, but she couldn't find a better solution. "You're a very awesome person with a very awesome power. Not so awesome when it's a kid having that power. We're going to have our job cut out for us."

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deeks_marty
2013-05-12 10:27 pm UTC (link)

Marty snorted. "They know each other and predict each other so well, I think most people assume they share a brain." In a way, the two of them were privileged because they'd seen so much more than anyone. And they still didn't know a lot of things about Sam and G. What Marty did know because of accidents in training was the only thing he kept from Savannah even in their minds. "But, yeah, what works for them is probably so far outside the way other people think it couldn't work for anyone but them. I doubt Derek and Emily do things the same way, either, even though they share the job."

It was awkward, but he managed to get an arm around her shoulder without disturbing twins or infant. "I'm not a fan of the divide, either. I don't do well when something comes between us...including my own two mental left feet." He kissed her temple. Now we don't have to have it, he agreed, then rolled his eyes. "I don't know that I'd go that far. My power is what it is. My son...well, hopefully he'll have a decent enough role model for how to deal with that power."

Brushing a finger over Jamie's cheek, he sighed. The kids might be more accepting of powers in general than their parents ever were going to be. But, this power was still dangerous to the owner. Even half the family didn't know what Marty could truly do. The thought of his son having to deal with that risk...Marty almost wished he was the kind of man who would simply use his power to cancel Jamie's out until he was older. But, that might prove even riskier with the world they were raising these children in.

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savannah_monroe
2013-05-12 10:41 pm UTC (link)

Savannah laughed, trying to stop herself before she woke up the kids, but the comparison was too funny. "Please, you know Derek and Emily tell each other everything. I'm thinking G would twitch if he knew how much they share. Heck, with just the four of them, he must be twitching as we speak. Hard not to profile people when it's just them." She looked down at Jamie and saw the wedding band on Marty's finger. "Did I tell you that I found a wedding band in Derek's things. It matches Emily's engagement ring. I told Brian, used their funds to get a matching band for him and a wedding dress for her. I know it sounds stupid. Brian looked at me like I'm crazy. I don't think he believes we'll really find them, but I have to, and then they can have the wedding."

She chuckled. "I'm usually a little more patient with your two mental left feet. I just... I told you I was looking for things that weren't there." The power was still awesome when Marty used it. "He'll have two good parents who will teach him what's right and wrong, and not just when it comes to his power, but you'll have to keep a close eye on him. He might not even realize what he's doing. Look at the twins. They change shape like it's nothing, they don't even keep human shape. I still have to concentrate to do what they do."

Pulling Jamie away as he fell asleep, she fixed her bra and changed position, waiting for him to burp before putting him down for the night. "We'll have to teach all of them. Do you know how easy it would be for them to eavesdrop? And... I never thought of doing that, but if I look like sheet rock, or metal or anything, and blend with the surroundings, I could be there and no one would know. The moral responsibility of these powers has always scared me more than the powers themselves."

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deeks_marty
2013-05-12 11:45 pm UTC (link)

"So, when we find them, G will just be a twitching mass from all the sharing?" Marty asked, all innocence. Smiling, he shook his head. "It doesn't sound stupid. Brian thinks anyone who gets married is crazy, even if he's practically married to John without realizing it -- and I would never say that to him, before you go telling me not to say that. Emily and Derek will appreciate the gesture, though. Of course, if they've been together this long, they might just decide to make G and Sam the best man and bridal attendant," he teased. It might sound crazy to someone else. But, it wasn't anything he didn't expect from Savannah.

"I know you are, which is good because that wasn't the only time my two mental left feet got in the way. Probably won't be the last, either."

Marty nodded. "I know. I had the same thought at the party after the christening. I was teasing Robert about Liam knowing Jamie wanted me to hold him instead and it hit me that in another month or so, when his brain develops enough, that might actually be a real thing we have to deal with. It probably won't even be a conscious decision because he's too young. It will be as natural to him as crying is for other children when they're hungry or sick. I never thought I'd have to rely on this power to keep track of my kids...but I may have to now, simply because there's no other way until they're old enough to understand."

He snorted. "I hadn't, either. But, I'll be G's already thought about it, probably the minute you started practicing non-human forms."

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savannah_monroe
2013-05-13 12:01 am UTC (link)

"Mmm, I don't know. It might be balanced by the fact that he doesn't have to deal with people." It might have started as a joke, but she was thinking about seriously. "Brian is... Brian, and they are totally married, and I wasn't telling you anything. I'm pretty sure that you don't want him freaking out on you. One day you're going to tell me what happened when John and I were on that island. Y'all seemed to get along a lot better, and not just you, but G and Brian too." She smacked his arm. "And don't say that. I'm the Matron of Honor."

She didn't comment on his ability to speak. They would deal like they always had in the past. "I wish I could help you with this, but I can teach them what's right and wrong, re-enforce what's right, but until he gets old enough to understand consequences, there's not much we can do."

Savannah chuckled. "Of course, he did, but I'd rather not spy on our own people." She put Jamie down, next to her. "And we're done for the next few hours. We should get some sleep." She leaned over and kissed him. "I love you."

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