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Brian Kinney ([info]b_kinney) wrote in [info]omega_reality,
@ 2012-11-03 12:04:00

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Entry tags:*complete, 2012 11, character: alexis castle, character: april kepner, character: brian kinney, character: bud hammond, character: claudia donovan, character: derek morgan, character: derek reese, character: dominic vail, character: elaine barrish hammond, character: eliot spencer, character: emily prentiss, character: g callen, character: margaret barrish, character: marty deeks, character: nell jones, character: robert callen, character: sam hanna, character: sean hanna, character: tim riggins, character: troy bolton, dead: eric beale, dead: jenna hanna, dead: leon vance, dead: mike renko, dead: nathan ford, dead: nick green, dead: sheldon cooper

RP: Wake for John and Savannah
Who: Everyone at the base
Where: 114 Sterling Drive
When: November 3, 2012
Summary: Brian does his best to send off two people everyone loved.

The email about housing had given him the idea. Brian had asked Derek to leave the extra couch set in his old house. A dining set from Deeks was brought over as well as extra chairs from Nell's. A chair was being used to set up the computer with the light program. The lights had been brought over from the lounge and the dining room had been turned into a club. Brian didn't know if people would use it, didn't care, but there should have been music and lights. John and Savannah hadn't been musicians, but they had contributed just as much to the club, in all of its versions.

The sitting room had been turned into a fairy land. Brian hadn't had much time, only a day, so he'd resorted to fabric and wall decorations used for nurseries. There wasn't as much pink as he'd have used for Savannah alone, but there was the Magic castle and princes and princesses spread all around. The food and drinks were on the table. Brian hadn't bothered asking people for things, but had ordered from different places creating the weirdest combination of foods, but he'd tried to hit everything either Savannah or John liked (not that John was picky, but then there were things that Brian had enjoyed watching John eat).

With everything set up, Brian could finally sit down on the steps staring his own private party. If he were lucky, his liver would give out before he could sober up.



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Sam/Jenna
[info]sam_hanna
2012-11-03 07:06 pm UTC (link)
Sam was spending his time with G, not that G said much at all. When he wasn't with his lover, he was with Deeks, helping with the children when he could. It had only been two days and 'help' meant making sure that he kept an eye on them while he showered. Other than that, he hadn't seen the man leave their side.

Sam had his own children to check on. He was glad that both had found someone that would be there for them It would make this a little easier. Still he wanted to talk to them.

He found Jenna first. "Hey," he said with a soft smile, before hugging her for a moment. "How are you holding up?"

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Re: Sam/Jenna
[info]j_hanna
2012-11-03 07:42 pm UTC (link)
Since getting the news, Jenna hadn't been able to shake the feeling of disbelief. It was as if there was a gaping hole in the group where Savannah and John had been. The two of them had affected everyone.

She gave her father a hug when he came over. "I think that's supposed to be my line," she said, attempting a smile that didn't come. "I still keep expecting her to show up and ask us why people aren't smiling at a party." When she wasn't feeling guilty for the way she'd refused to let her in for so long.

"How are you?" she asked, looking up at him. "Other than looking out for everyone, how are you?"

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Re: Sam/Jenna
[info]sam_hanna
2012-11-03 07:51 pm UTC (link)
Sam shrugged. "There are no lines here, just family. We take care of our own." He smiled a little. "She would, wouldn't she? She'd complain that we're ruining all the work Kinney has done. He sure has pulled it off once again." He didn't know how the man could do all of this when he seemed unable to even think.

"I'm... I'm taking care of people. There's no time for anything else." He had G and Deeks to worry about, but there was also Morgan and the changes they needed. Usually it was G's job, but right now, G wasn't paying attention and Morgan still wanted to run things off of him and Prentiss. "I'll let you know after I've had time to think."

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Re: Sam/Jenna
[info]j_hanna
2012-11-03 08:03 pm UTC (link)
"She would," Jenna said. "Kinney always pulls it off. I think that's one of the reasons he and Savannah get - got along, she gave him plenty of chances to shine."

"You'll let me know if you need help, won't you?" Not that she thought he would, but she could at least remind him that he could. That he should. "You need rest too, Dad."

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Re: Sam/Jenna
[info]sam_hanna
2012-11-03 08:12 pm UTC (link)
Sam looked at Kinney once again. "I don't think he'll be pulling anything off for a while." He'd have to speak to Sean about him. They spent a lot of time together and someone needed to take care of him too. They were a team, even when Sam didn't like people.

"There hasn't been much to do other than talk to people. Dinner tomorrow, though. If you could take over for now. I doubt G or Deeks are in any state to help and your brother still has problem with his hand." He smiled. "We haven't have to worry about food for a while." Savannah had taken over as soon as she was medically able to do it.

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Re: Sam/Jenna
[info]j_hanna
2012-11-03 08:22 pm UTC (link)
Following her father's gaze she looked at Brian, smoking and drinking on the steps. However strange that relationship had seemed at first glance, John had meant the world to Brian and vice versa. "Yeah, we need to look out for him too."

Jenna nodded. It was something to focus on, something concrete she could do to help. "Of course I can," she said. "Don't worry about food, that's easy." It was everything else that wasn't.

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Re: Sam/Jenna
[info]sam_hanna
2012-11-03 08:33 pm UTC (link)
"I doubt he'll take my help and there's so much turning a blind eye that I can do. Weed is not exactly standard drug consumption in a military base, or in a house with kids and a pregnant woman." Not that he was telling Kinney to stop. People could do what they wanted.

Sam nodded. "Okay, good. You saw Morgan's email. Is Dom okay with taking over Savannah's duties with the kids?" Not that they really had a choice. They were down to five parents and all of them had to pull together here. It wasn't about the agency either. It was about family.

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Re: Sam/Jenna
[info]j_hanna
2012-11-03 08:47 pm UTC (link)
"Perhaps not, but he has friends here. They'll help - or try to at least. The question is if he'll let them." She wasn't exactly happy about the weed herself, not with Blaze here, but if - when - it got too bad they could and would take Blaze outside.

"He hasn't really said anything about it. He'll do what is necessary." He'd hate it, she knew that much, but then she still thought it was good for him. Not that she'd voice that aloud. "We have to help each other out." Cooking wasn't her favorite past time, but she wouldn't hesitate in doing it when needed.

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Re: Sam/Jenna
[info]sam_hanna
2012-11-03 09:18 pm UTC (link)
"Does he?" Sam had no idea who his friends were. He knew Kinney trusted John, but other than that, he had no idea who Kinney considered a friend. "I'll keep an eye on him, though." Not that his interest would be well taken.

Sam nodded. "I know. We all do." It's not like they had a choice. "At least we have this crazy family." Others weren't as lucky. He knew that, but they had fought for their family. He couldn't do it for the others. They'd have to find their own ways.

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Re: Sam/Jenna
[info]j_hanna
2012-11-03 09:24 pm UTC (link)
"he's been a part of that group since the ranch, I can't see them abandoning him when he needs them," she said, though she did make a note of keeping an eye out to make sure she was right too. She shook her head. "You have enough on your plate, dad," she said. "I'll do it." She didn't think it would be received any better coming from him, but Dad had G and Marty to think of, and himself - once he allowed himself the luxury.

She nodded. "We do have that, mostly because of Savannah." She gave him a small smile. "She'd be happy that we have each other." That was one thing they could be sure of.

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Re: Sam/Jenna
[info]sam_hanna
2012-11-03 09:30 pm UTC (link)
"He was there since the club here, but are they his friends?" He knew that plenty of people had had dinner with them, but that didn't mean that G considered them friends, and while Kinney wasn't G, he didn't see the man being friends with many. "I won't stop you, although I don't know how well it would go. With anyone."

Sam was grateful for this family. Whether it was Savannah's doing or each of them had put a little into it, it didn't matter. "We do, and that means a few more people I need to talk to. I'll be around if you need me, okay?"

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Re: Sam/Jenna
[info]j_hanna
2012-11-03 09:37 pm UTC (link)
"I don't know if he considers them friends, but I do believe, or maybe I just hope, that they consider him one." Everyone needed friends, especially when they had lost someone so dear. She nodded. "I don't expect it going well, but the least I can do is try."

"Could you imagine Savannah's reaction if none of us did? She'd be so disappointed in all of us."

She nodded. "Yeah, go talk to them, and that goes both way, Dad."

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Sam/Sean
[info]sam_hanna
2012-11-03 07:23 pm UTC (link)
After leaving Jenna, he waled to where Sean was. He passed in front of Kinney who was smoking a joint. He almost said something, but then gave up. Today wasn't the day to fight with him.

When he approached, Troy excused himself, saying hat he needed to speak to Nell and left them alone. "Hi there." He wasn't the type to hug and he rarely did it with Sean, but it was happening more and more, and today was one of those occasions. He closed his arms around him and kissed Sean's cheek. "You okay?" he asked as he pulled back.

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Re: Sam/Sean
[info]sean_hanna
2012-11-03 07:48 pm UTC (link)
His dad's hugs always surprised him, but Sean held on to each one for the rarity of them. Still, there were times when he really just needed that hug from his father, when he was the little boy who believed Daddy could fix anything.

Only nothing could fix this.

"Will be eventually," he replied, shrugging one shoulder. "Don't have any other choice, I guess. Time doesn't stop just because our nightmares come true, does it?" He'd fought against letting Savannah into his family for so long and now he'd lost the girl that had become another sister, right along with a good friend who'd been there for all of them. It sucked and it hurt and for the first time in his life, Sean couldn't seem to express emotion much at all.

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Re: Sam/Sean
[info]sam_hanna
2012-11-03 07:57 pm UTC (link)
"I know, baby. It's ... it's the way our lives are." He remembered the angry boy when Burke had died, the way Sean had condemned him for his lack of emotions, and now Sean was reacting like a pro. It made Sam proud and sad at the same time.

"It's not a lesson I wanted you to learn." He sighed, because he really wanted to protect his children, but couldn't. "If you need anything. I know you have Bolton. He loves you." The crazy kid with no common sense hadn't been Sam's first choice, but they were proving him wrong. "I still want both of you to come to dinner tomorrow. It's... important for everyone."

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Re: Sam/Sean
[info]sean_hanna
2012-11-03 08:25 pm UTC (link)
"Yeah, I know. Still sucks, you know." But, after the last year and a half, it was either learn to deal or go crazy, Sean supposed. "And you're getting a free pass on the 'baby' only because it's today."

Sean's eyes tracked to where Troy stood talking to Nell automatically. "He does. And, I know," he turned back to smile a little at his dad. "You're still here if I need you, regardless. I guess, if nothing else, Savannah did get her wish, at least. And, of course we'll be at dinner. What do you need us to bring? How bad is G?"

He wasn't going to pretend that he didn't know G would be as devastated as Marty. And they'd all be there for Marty. Savannah would also want them to take care of G, even if Sean wouldn't have tried on his own anyway."

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Re: Sam/Sean
[info]sam_hanna
2012-11-03 08:43 pm UTC (link)
Sam chuckled. "It's okay. I'm smart; I know when to sneak in the 'baby' so you can't complain too much. It usually goes with the hugs." it usually took something major for either reaction.

He smiled, because he couldn't not be happy for Sean despite everything. "Always here and what wish?" he asked with a frown. "I asked Jenna to take over the cooking for a while. You can ask her what she needs." He looked to where G was standing, talking to no one. "It's the worst I've seen since meeting him. He'll need time. People to remind him that there are others here ha care. Savannah- they were so different and so similar at the same time. he wouldn't have let so many people in if it weren't for her."

Turning to the other side, he eyed Kinney again. "G isn't the only one that worries me. Maybe you can talk to your friends and someone can talk to Kinney. I don't even know who he considers close, other than John."

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Re: Sam/Sean
[info]sean_hanna
2012-11-03 09:37 pm UTC (link)
"Ah, and I'm on to you, now." Sean smiled and shook his head. It wasn't quite the father-son relationship he'd wanted as a kid, but, in a way, this was better. He actually knew his father.

"Us. She always admitted to trying too hard sometimes, but it was because she wanted you and I to get where we are. She wanted us to keep our family together...and then she expanded it." Nodding, he followed his dad's look. "I'll talk to Jen before we go. Still have to give her her birthday gift. Savannah would kick my ass if I didn't. We'll take care of him, Dad. He might not see it, but he's got a lot of family now. He'd have had some of us even without her. We're a package deal with you."

Brian was another matter. Sean hadn't had a chance to talk to the man yet, but he fully intended to make sure Brian realized he was one of them, too. Not just because of John. "No one was as close as John. But, we'll be there for him. All of us. We look out for our own, too."

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Re: Sam/Sean
[info]sam_hanna
2012-11-03 09:51 pm UTC (link)
"It's no actually a secret when I'm divulging my strategy," he said, chuckling. "I can be more subtle than that. I've even been known to keep a secret or two. Hard to believe, I know."

He smiled. "And how many fights did her eagerness cause? Maybe a few that we might not have had otherwise. Not that I'd take them back. She was G's family before you two even showed up, and then... we were all family." He wished it were that simple with G. "I know, Sean. I'm not sure that he wants that right now. You keep people away, you keep them safe, this way nothing can happen to them. I've spent twenty years doing just that. As long as you were with your mom, you were safe, and I didn't look for anyone else, no one to care about, no one whose death would affect you. I don't know how to tell him to let people in, when I've done the same for so long."

So many deaths, but none had touched the entire groups like these two, not even all those losses back last November, and really he was starting to hate this month as much as G hated May. "Your sister seems to agree with you. She wanted to speak with him. I don't care who does what as long as he has a support system. I'd offer, but we know how well that would go."

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Re: Sam/Sean
[info]sean_hanna
2012-11-03 10:59 pm UTC (link)
"You keep secrets? I can't believe that!" Laughing softly, he bumped his shoulder against his dad's.

"And how many of those fights were things we needed to get out and start moving on from?" Sean countered with a smirk. reaching out, he put a hand companionably on his dad's shoulder. "I'd be surprised if he did want it. But, he needs it. And you don't tell him. Telling him won't do a thing. You let us show him. We have family dinner tomorrow. Someone stops in at lunch just to bring him food and then leave him to eat in peace. You let me grab him a beer and take it over now, since everyone else seems afraid to approach him," he added with a small smile.

One eyebrow rose and he stared at his dad for a moment. "Jen is going to try?" Sean wasn't sure that would be any better than Dad trying. Maybe after he took G a beer, he should hunt up Troy and Nell and make some plans of their own sooner, rather than later. "I don't know how successful Jen will be. But, he has us, Dad. We might have to do a lot of reminding, like with G -- and how much did you never think we'd ever be comparing those two? -- but, we'll do what we can. He's not alone, even if he thinks he is."

They just had to prove it. There was going to be a lot of work to do in the next few weeks and months to take care of Brian and G and Marty and Derek.

And themselves.

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Marty/Robert
[info]deeks_marty
2012-11-03 07:34 pm UTC (link)
Marty wished he could have his own private party. But, he kept thinking about what Savannah would want and how the only time she'd ever stayed on the sidelines was right after they got to the ranch when she was having a crisis of faith. And he had the girls, who took after their mother in their enjoyment of being around people.

So, he sat in the room Brian had done up for Savannah, filled with faerie tales, and tried not to think about their Cinderella wedding or the princess baby shower or the fanciful birthday party, their anniversary. A thousand and one memories that should have made him smile, but only made him want to curl up in a ball and close his eyes.

But he couldn't, wouldn't, for his daughters' sake. They needed a father who could hold it together better than his ever had.

It was their happy babbling that brought him out of his head, the sound they made when the family was around. Or at least, it was what Marty thought of it as. He was probably wrong and they were still too little to really tell. But, he liked to think they knew who was family. And, at least this time, it seemed they were right as Robert was approaching.

Marty tried to smile. "Hey."

Right. Conversationalist 101 failure.

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Re: Marty/Robert
[info]r_callen
2012-11-03 07:45 pm UTC (link)
Robert put Liam down so he could play with the twins, or whatever children considered playing. It sounded like a lot of babbling to him, but they were happy so it couldn't be wrong. He sat near Deeks, his eyes on the children.

"I'm worry, man. I... I won't even insult you and say that I know what it's like, but I do know what it's like to have children that depend on you, when you never thought you'd be doing this by yourself." He turned to look at the other man. "Anything you need, I'm here. Savannah went over and beyond the call of duty for me, even when I didn't think I need help. She welcomed us into your home when we needed it. She made all of us family, whether we liked it or not. You're not alone."

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Re: Marty/Robert
[info]deeks_marty
2012-11-03 08:16 pm UTC (link)
"Feel free to say it," Marty said with a snort. "Maybe it'll help me figure out what it's like."

Eyes on the three happy babies, he sighed, shook his head. Not really at what Robert was saying, but just the general idea of doing this on his own, managing to do everything they'd planned without Savannah there to laugh at him and point out all the ways he was doing it wrong and see, this was why he needed her. And Marty absolutely needed her. The thought of living without her was impossible to get a grip on without feeling like he'd been shot.

Being shot might have been less painful.

"You were already family, whether you liked it or not." A hint of a smirk came out. "She just made sure you knew it. It made her happy to take care of her family."

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Re: Marty/Robert
[info]r_callen
2012-11-03 08:29 pm UTC (link)
"I didn't love Kensi." He was about to start pretending now. "You adored her and she you. I know how I felt when my mother was killed. Anger, disbelief, denial."

He reached over as Deeks looked at the kids and clapped his back. "You'll do all right, not because you want to or because you're great at it, but because your daughters need you, and you can't betray their trust. They only have you. The rest of us can be family, but they will rely on you."

Robert chuckled. "She made sure everyone else knew it too. She made this family out of sheer will." He nodded. "It did and we all took a little advantage of it. I've avoided cooking longer than I should have because of her."

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Re: Marty/Robert
[info]deeks_marty
2012-11-03 09:26 pm UTC (link)
Marty didn't say anything about Kensi. He hadn't been in love with her, but he'd cared about her and he didn't want to think about the fact she wasn't here or that it was her little boy having an enthusiastic conference with his little girls in baby-ese. "Check. Check. And, check. Got all those."

Robert's words hit home with a lot of the things he'd already been thinking himself. He knew what happened when one parent was gone and the other lost all sense of things. He couldn't do that to his girls. He couldn't do it to any child, but especially not his little princesses. "Yeah, I know. They need me to be here, not stuck in the past."

For the first time in two days he caught himself almost smiling. "You should have seen the look of shock when she realized I was going to cook breakfast for her the first time." And even though he smiled, he could feel his eyes watering and he blinked, looking away until he could get under control again. "Damn. Sorry."

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Re: Marty/Robert
[info]r_callen
2012-11-03 09:36 pm UTC (link)
"You know all that shit they tell you about time making things better, about getting easier. It's all bullshit. Two years later, a dimension away and it still hurts like hell," he said softly.

"That's right. You show them the future and when you need to remember the past, then you come to us, and you can talk about her, remember her, get drunk in her name," he said. "We will be there, because we do understand."

Robert smiled a little, before sliding a little closer and putting a hand on Deeks' shoulder. He squeezed gently. "It's fine. I understand."

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Re: Marty/Robert
[info]deeks_marty
2012-11-03 10:40 pm UTC (link)
"Good to know I won't be too weird about it, then." Because Marty was pretty sure it would never stop hurting. There would always be this sharp pain where part of his heart was ripped out and turned to ash in a butterfly urn.

Emotions dammed up once more, he took a breath and nodded. "Thanks. I appreciate, man." Watching his girls, he found himself wishing Ray was there. Ray knew Marty better than anyone but Savannah. He knew what being a father meant to him, what fears lurked behind the smile. And, yet, he was grateful for people like Robert and Sam, too. "Maybe a beer sometime."

Getting drunk over this was a minefield he intended to avoid.

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Re: Marty/Robert
[info]r_callen
2012-11-03 10:49 pm UTC (link)
"Oh I'm sure plenty of people would say we're weird." He smiled a little. "I'm sure your wife would have been the first to tell us, with a lot of words, little breath and a few y'all. She never understood that she could love the world while the rest of us are just human."

Robert nodded. "A beer, sometimes." He didn't move, didn't say anything else. He stayed there, watching the kids. Deeks could talk when he wanted or stay silent. Robert would stay here to keep him company until he went to see G again.

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Margaret and Brian
[info]margaretbarrish
2012-11-03 10:15 pm UTC (link)
One didn't get to be her age without experiencing death. At her age a good number of the people Margaret had known in her youth were gone. Even without whatever tragedies had befallen these people since they'd come to this dimension, this was hardly the first memorial she'd ever been to in her life, not even in the first handful.

This was, however, the first she'd ever been to that included a night club and Disney princesses.

Then again, the two young people who had been lost were a unique pair. One didn't need to spend a lot of time with either to see that. And, Margaret had lived with the young Deeks' family for weeks, spent time with the musical group Brian's young lover had helped out with, as well.

After paying her respects to Deeks and his daughters, she found herself a cocktail and headed right for Brian. "Move over and make some room on that stair, Sugar. I brought my own drink so you don't have to share, but I'm not carrying a chair over here."

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Re: Margaret and Brian
[info]b_kinney
2012-11-03 10:21 pm UTC (link)
Brian looked up at Margaret. He almost told her to fuck off, but then Margaret had a drink, or maybe she was already drunk, and she wouldn't give him shit about the join.

Without a word he scooted over to give her room in the not so big staircase. He was pressed against the wall. He took a hit from his joint, before passing it over without saying a word. if she wanted to talk, she could do so. He wasn't interested in anything other than drugs and alcohol until they numbed everything he was feelings.

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Re: Margaret and Brian
[info]margaretbarrish
2012-11-04 12:00 am UTC (link)
Sitting, Margaret spared a brief thought for how easy it wouldn't be to get up again. But, she'd tackle that when it came around. Until then, she took the joint when he passed it and took her own hit. She passed the joint back to him. Years of dealing with TJ had taught her timing. Angry young men didn't respond well to platitudes. Luckily, she didn't offer any. "Don't tell my daughter, but this is the reason my second husband's funeral is just a blur in my mind."

Not that she'd been as in love with Dale as these two young men had been. Oh, she'd cared about him and she'd been sad when he died. But, it was a quiet sort of caring and not the wild, passionate, love affair. "Come to think of it, he wouldn't have approved, either. Somehow, Elaine was always more like her step-father than anyone."

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Re: Margaret and Brian
[info]b_kinney
2012-11-04 12:46 am UTC (link)
"She's smart. I doubt she doesn't know," he said, taking the joint back. "First funeral. unless you count all the idiots that got themselves killed since we got here. Or my father. Now, that a real party." The bastard had deserved to die. Unlike John who still had his entire life in front of him.

He took a hit, before handing it back to her and reaching for the whiskey. "Damn fucking shame. You're a lot more fun than your daughter. She's so fucking boring... like John." Why the fuck wouldn't he even name John without his eyes watering? He was better than this; he could control his emotions like a pro. Until now. "I've been so fucking pissed with him, over a fucking costume to wear at a party we didn't even go to." He brought the bottle to his lips and took a healthy (or unhealthy depending on the point of view) dose, letting the burn wash away the much deeper pain he was feeling.

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Re: Margaret and Brian
[info]margaretbarrish
2012-11-04 04:22 am UTC (link)
"Doesn't mean we have to tell her." Margaret was sure Elaine was well aware of all her bad habits. Heaven knew the press was. "Eh, they don't count if the people didn't matter."

Taking the joint back, Margaret shrugged. "My own fault for naming her after my mother, probably." Another hit and then she passed it back. "Loved my mother but the woman would have had me married off to some mechanic and stuck in Needles the rest of my life if given her druthers. My daughter has her own dreams, though. They're not mine, but they're what she wants. And I'm not my mother, even if she may wish I was sometimes. Fewer things to do damage control on later."

She'd been watching the group rather than Brian as she spoke. But, now she turned to look at him. "Oh, Sugar, no one gets out of this life without regrets, no matter how hard we try. And no amount of words from me are going to make that better, so I won't insult you by trying. But, I wonder what he'd tell you if he could hear you right now. Never struck me as the guilt trip type, your John."

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Re: Margaret and Brian
[info]b_kinney
2012-11-04 04:48 am UTC (link)
"I'm not getting up to talk to her," he said in a monotone voice. He had no intention of getting up and talking to anyone. If it weren't for Margaret, he'd be happy not to talk to anyone even while sitting. "Exactly, so I really never went to a funeral.... Actually no. My best friend's uncle. He had AIDS. God, it's like a lifetime ago."

Brian took the joint back. Listening to Margaret ramble about this shit was distracting, in a good way. "You don't have to worry about damage control here. You fuck up and you die. You don't fuck up and you still die. Or you're like me, doing whatever the fuck you want and don't die."

He took another sip of whiskey before taking a hit. He knew this was so fucking bad. He needed uppers, but as he didn't want to wipe out the pain, not yet. John deserved better. "I wasn't trying, hard or otherwise. I'm the one who's always said no excuses, no apologies, no regrets. John was the one to apologize, to feel regrets. Not that I think he gave a shit about the costumes, but we spent the last week he had with me being a nasty bastard More so than usual. It's not regret; it's anger. He shouldn't have been there, wherever there is."

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Jenna and Brian
[info]j_hanna
2012-11-04 08:22 pm UTC (link)
Jenna waited for Mrs Barrish to leave before approaching Brian. She knew it was a hopeless task, and that he'd probably tell her to get lost, but she had to try all the same. Someone had to try and the people he'd spent most time with seemed determined not to.

Maybe they were just smarter than she was right now.

"Hey," she said as she came up to him, not quite sure how to start this conversation. Her father might not be the right person to do this, but then neither was she. She was tactless, blunt and insensitive with no patience for other people. She was probably the least person in the world who should attempt this, with the possible exception of her father. But someone had to try, and she wasn't one to shy away from things.

"I don't know all that much about drugs, but from what I do know, weed isn't exactly the perfect choice when you're feeling down. Or am I missing some vital point that I don't understand?" she asked, taking a seat at the step below his.

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Re: Jenna and Brian
[info]b_kinney
2012-11-04 08:28 pm UTC (link)
Brian looked at her, almost wondering if she was bothering to tell him to stop, not that it would have helped. He snorted. "I would have shot up, but I forgot the cocaine in my other jacket."

He took another hit and watched the smoke escape his body, before passing the joint over. "I'll share if that's what you want." It'd give him time to take another swallow of whiskey.

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Re: Jenna and Brian
[info]j_hanna
2012-11-04 08:59 pm UTC (link)
"Thanks, but it's not my thing," Jenna answered, shaking her head.

"I came to check on you," she then said because really there was no need to beat around the bush and she wasn't good at doing it even if she'd tried. "Not that it's hard to see that you're not okay, but-" she shrugged. "Sometimes talking helps, sometimes not, but either way I wanted you to know that you're not alone in this."

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Re: Jenna and Brian
[info]b_kinney
2012-11-04 09:34 pm UTC (link)
"You're loss," he said with a shrug, before taking another hit.

He looked at her. He must have drunk more than he realized, because he thought that she was trying to help. "Yeah, sure," he said, before drinking some more, before turning to her. "When someone kills your husband fuck knows where for fuck knows what reason and hand him to you in urn, then we'll be in the same boat, until then, either smoke and drink or fuck off. Or you know just sit there, while I smoke and drink. Cheers."

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Re: Jenna and Brian
[info]j_hanna
2012-11-05 06:09 pm UTC (link)
"I didn't say we are in the same boat,"Jenna answered calmly, and it helped that this had been the reaction she'd been expecting. "I said you're not alone, that I'm willing to listen if you need or want to talk."

"Trust me, I know I'm not in the same boat as you. The only one who is is Marty."

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Re: Jenna and Brian
[info]b_kinney
2012-11-05 07:54 pm UTC (link)
"I might be drunk, but how does that work? You couldn't even stand Savannah for ages, barely tolerated her later, got friends with her because you needed her. You've barely talked to John. So what the fuck do you know?" He snorted. "Go talk to someone who buys your bullshit."

He looked at where Deeks was sitting with the girls. He smiled, although it was nothing pleasant, before nodding in the man's direction. "Go tell him and see if he buys it. Or better yet shut up and look pretty."

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Re: Jenna and Brian
[info]j_hanna
2012-11-05 08:42 pm UTC (link)
"You talk, I listen, the concept isn't a very complicated one, drunk or not," Jenna answered calmly.

"And you're right, I barely knew John, and I couldn't stand Savannah. I didn't understand her, I didn't like her, more importantly I didn't want to like her. But she was hard not to like, especially when she was determined to get you to like her." She paused. "She was stubborn, and strong willed, and I'll miss her. But even that wasn't the case, I could still listen."

"Now if you don't want to talk, that's another thing entirely. I'm not about to tell you what to do."

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Re: Jenna and Brian
[info]b_kinney
2012-11-05 09:06 pm UTC (link)
"And I'm telling you that I have no intention to talk to someone who didn't give a shit for months and months and now pretends to give a fuck so she can feel useful. Go fuck yourself." He got up, because alcohol wasn't going to stop him from moving, and walked off. She could get her girl scout badge for helping other somewhere else.

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