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Tweak says, "So... this is awkward."

𝑙𝑢𝑛𝑎 𝑜𝑙𝑚𝑜𝑠 🌘 (holyrites) wrote in nevermore_logs,
@ 2021-03-19 15:54:00

Entry tags:

luna olmos, merlin

WHO Luna & Merlin
WHEN Tuesday evening (16th March), after her run in with Kaden
WHERE Merlin's place
WHAT Just looking to feel better
WARNINGS Upset Luna times feat. mentions of Ares, Michele, Dunkin, Peitho's treatment of humans. (Generally all of Luna's past.) Consensual rough(ish) sex with a dom/sub flair.

When Luna got off the train to walk to Merlin’s house, she was still agitated, a tightness seeming to infect every part of her body. The whole trip there she had kept going over the conversation with Kaden and wondering if the turn had been her fault, or if he was always going to go off like he did. She had called him a ‘pimply prepubescent’ - yeah, maybe that had been uncalled for. But he didn’t even seem to respect that she’d done what she could to protect him.

Maybe that’s where she’d gone fucking wrong. She should have just kept her head down like she always did, instead of trying to- do what? ‘Save’ some teenage boy from a choice he already wanted to make? Who the fuck was Luna? His mother? He was a big enough boy to make his own bad decisions, and Luna should never have stepped in the way. She should have just left the room and let him learn his own lessons.

He could have just been another person to kick out in the morning and Luna would have felt much better for it, instead of feeling unsettled and angry and on the verge of frustrated tears. How dare he try and lecture her on the world of the gods! Just because his brothers were Ares’ arseholes, just because he would probably end up being just another one of those arseholes as well?

How dare he suddenly make her think of that room full of men grabbing for her. How dare he make her remember how powerless and awful and terrifying it had felt to have so little control over anything.

God damn it! Luna didn’t feel like she had any control over anything anymore, not a simple conversation with some other human and not in anything that happened around her.

Isn’t that what you wanted? she demanded, boots hitting the wet ground hard as she stalked towards Merlin’s place. Didn’t you want to have no control?

No.

Maybe.

Sort of.

But… it wasn’t the same! Yes, she wanted someone else to have all the control but… well, she didn’t want to have no control. But-

It didn’t matter! It wasn’t the point!

She pushed open the door to Merlin’s house and headed towards the library, assuming she’d find him there. If she was a god - how she wished she was a god! - she would have been able to sense him, but for Luna all she felt was the warmth of the house compared to outside.

When she found him her cheeks were pink and flushed, her breathing hard, her gaze erratic. “Hey,” she said in greeting, and there was a tightness in her voice.

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empiresanderas
2021-03-19 08:18 am UTC (link)

Merlin’s face softened, a little touched at her asking, and he nodded. Kicking his shoes off, he climbed onto the bed and patted the sheets beside him, flipping back the bedspread for her to climb in. “Shall I be big spoon?” he asked, hoping to make her smile a little. She deserved some lightness.

Luna did grace him with the smallest of smiles, tired as it was. She crawled back onto the bed and said, “maybe like this,” before lying down facing him and resting her head against his chest. She managed to resist the strong urge to curl herself up into the tightest ball, knees right up, but did rest her arms against her chest, pinned tightly between the both of them. She squeezed her eyes shut.

He let her settle herself, and tucked her head in under his chin. His fingers were wrinkled, he noticed, like they’d been soaking in a bath. Just the two that had been dipped in her cunt, though.

Gently he stroked her back, his arm around her providing her with comfort, and relaxed into it. It was an unexpected way to spend his evening, to be sure, but he couldn't say it was unpleasant. He would give it a minute to sit before speaking. He didn’t want to rush her.

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holyrites
2021-03-19 08:20 am UTC (link)

The quiet ease of the room was so markedly different to what had just gone before, that it felt like a completely different time. But there was something safe about lying in Merlin’s arms like she was, something she would be happy to let go on. But she also was very aware of overstaying her welcome. This, after all, was not their usual routine.

“I should probably go,” she said, but didn’t actually make any move.

“Rest, it’s alright,” he said in reply. Maybe some hold-over of her obeying his word would work on her, and she would just accept his suggestion. “You just lay here nice and safe for a while, and then I’ll get us a cup of tea and some cake.”

Luna nodded, her cheek shifting slightly against his chest. “I’d like that,” she told him quietly, closing her eyes and drawing herself a little closer to him. She could handle lying here for a little longer, and she could handle tea and cake. Maybe that was all she could handle right now.

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empiresanderas
2021-03-19 09:28 am UTC (link)

Merlin smiled and kissed the top of her head. He’d have to be careful or he would end up falling asleep here in a post-coital haze. Instead, he just concentrated on rubbing his thumb up and down her spine. He waited a good long while before he murmured, “I hope you got what you wanted out of this.”

“It helped,” Luna nodded, slowly drawing herself back from where she’d been curled against him so that she could see his face. With a tired half-smile she leaned in and kissed him gently, her lips feeling a little numb and tingling, her body aching in a way that made her feel present.

Well this was a pleasant end to proceedings. A sweet little kiss from her, and the promise of tea and cake, and maybe Luna might stay for a while and she would curl up in an armchair like a cat and they could read companionably together until bedtime.

Maybe. He would see how it went.

"You can stay as long as you need to," he said, brushing her hair back behind her ear. "We can just chat. Or not talk, whatever you want."

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holyrites
2021-03-19 09:36 am UTC (link)

"Thank you," she said again, because she truly was grateful- not only for him going along with what she'd asked, but for his gentle kindness now. Today Luna needed both.

"I like your cake idea," she said, fingers playing with the fabric of his shirt that had never ended up being removed. "All I've eaten today is a handful of fries. But-" she closed her fingers around the fabric, more of a symbolic gesture of making him stay than an actual attempt. "Maybe not quite yet."

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