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Adrian Jacob Delacroix (stormandshadow) wrote in nevermore_logs,
@ 2015-03-07 20:44:00

Entry tags:

adrian delacroix, isaiah delacroix, jesse delacroix, nicholas rowland

WHO: Adrian and Jesse Delacroix (Maybe Nicholas and Isaiah eventually)
WHAT: Talking
WHEN: After seeing Jayden at the hospital (so literally still the day they arrived in the city)
WHERE: Jesse's house
WARNINGS: Potential talk of sexual assault

The moment everyone arrived back at the house after visiting Jayden in hospital, Adrian went up to his guest room to lie down. He honestly couldn't handle the idea of demons and gods and horrible things that hurt his brother. God, had this been happening since their father died? He should have come back sooner.

It only took an hour before Adrian couldn't handle lying there and going over and over things any more. He jumped up and wandered to the kitchen where he found Jesse. "Jesse, man," Adrian said, shaking his head. "Holy shit."

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jdelacroix
2015-03-07 09:03 am UTC (link)

Jesse had gone into the kitchen almost as soon as they'd gotten home. He'd heated up some of the gumbo Nicholas had made, chasing that with some Advil, then pouring himself a huge cup of coffee and collapsing onto one of the stools. He sat there for a long while with his head pillowed on his arms, willing his mind to calm down.

Jayden was in the hospital. Again. His brothers, whom he hadn't seen for a decade, had found him at last. And now all of them knew the truth about the things that were out there in the dark. His head pounded and he rubbed at his temples, hoping the meds kicked in soon.

He sat up as Adrian entered, an unamused snort escaping him. "Yeah, that's about the right of it," he agreed. "How're you holding up?"

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	stormandshadow 2015-03-07 10:56 am UTC (link)
	"Better than Jayden," Adrian grumbled. He could not get the image of Jayden, skeletal and pale, out of his mind. "I can't- I can't believe anyone would do that to him. He was just trapped there for days. Fucking days." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jdelacroix 2015-03-07 11:04 am UTC (link)
	"Right?" Jesse asked, shoving his hands through his hair. "But from what I understand, that-that thing, it doesn't really need a reason. It just does shit like that for its sick kicks." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	stormandshadow 2015-03-07 11:09 am UTC (link)
	"Fucking hell," Adrian hissed. "He didn't get that thin in three days though. How long has he looked like that? It's horrible." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jdelacroix 2015-03-07 11:16 am UTC (link)
	"No, he didn't," Jesse agreed, sighing. "And to answer your question...a few months. Long enough to screw with his heart. He was starting to actually gain a little weight, though, before all of this happened." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	stormandshadow 2015-03-07 11:25 am UTC (link)
	Adrian looked crushed and he couldn't help it. He stepped forward and hugged Jesse tightly. "I had no idea you'd been dealing with all this. Are you okay?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jdelacroix 2015-03-08 01:47 am UTC (link)
	Jesse clung to him for a few long moments. "Apart from fracturing two knuckles after punching the wall...I'm hanging in there," he answered. "It's been a hell of a time, but if the outcome is that Jay's better at the end, then it's worth it." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	stormandshadow 2015-03-18 06:33 am UTC (link)
	"Jesus," Adrian hissed, nearly under his breath. "I hate that our fucking father kept us apart for so long. I wish I'd known." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jdelacroix 2015-03-18 06:40 am UTC (link)
	"I wish I'd known too," Jesse said. "I wish I'd known earlier, I would have tried to get him sooner." He sighed heavily. "But he's dead now, and we're all here, and for that I'm glad. I just wish it was under better circumstances." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

stormandshadow
2015-03-18 07:00 am UTC (link)

"Yeah, so do I," Adrian said as he leaned against the counter. "Poor Jayden. He- I know some of the stuff that happened to him in Baton Rogue because it started while I was still there. He would come home with a black eye and our father didn't care. Then Isaiah would defend him and end up with a black eye himself," Adrian sighed. "Just- Those few years after you were kicked out were...they were the worst. Jayden wanted someone to love him so much and dad didn't show him any affection. He would get a good grade or something and come home to tell Dad and he was constantly knocked back. Poor kid."

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jdelacroix
2015-03-18 07:34 am UTC (link)

Jesse could feel his heart break even further the longer Adrian talked. "I told Jay this too, I felt miserable having to leave the three of you," he told his brother. "That, and furious at being tossed out. I thought about all of you constantly, just...wondering how you were doing and what was happening to you. I thought about going back a few times, all, 'fuck Dad, he can't tell me what to do anymore'. I should have. I wish I had."

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stormandshadow
2015-03-18 07:50 am UTC (link)

"I'm sure you had more than enough to deal with," Adrian said sadly. Imagining Jesse homeless and alone was horrible. "If you came back he might have hurt you even more-" Adrian had clearly been about to say more, but Nicholas entered the kitchen and Adrian's reaction was obvious. His expression darkened and he shrank into himself, stepping away a little bit.

Nicholas gave Adrian a worried look and took a step backwards. "Er...are you afraid of me?"

Adrian didn't want to answer, but this was Jesse's boyfriend and it was their house, after all. "I- A little bit, yes."

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jdelacroix
2015-03-19 06:52 am UTC (link)

Jesse sighed, then shrugged. "The first couple years sucked, but I got through it OK. Once I moved up here, things got about as stable as they were going to. And yeah, I thought about that too. He was a mean bastard."

He looked over at Nicholas and smiled faintly, but the expression slid off his face as he watched Adrian's reaction. "What?" he asked, very confused. "Ade, what's wrong?"

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	stormandshadow 2015-03-19 08:09 am UTC (link)
	Adrian gave his older brother a shaky smile before glancing over at Nicholas. "Er- It's nothing against you, Nicholas," he assured him. "Look, it's- If we're going to talk about his we should probably sit down, Jesse." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	jdelacroix 2015-03-19 08:28 am UTC (link)
	Jesse honestly didn't know if he could take having another bomb go off. But it seemed like this was important to address, so he just nodded and sat back down on his stool. "OK," he said. "Do you want it to be just you and me?" he asked, glancing at Nicholas. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

stormandshadow
2015-03-19 08:45 am UTC (link)

Adrian considered that but finally he shook his head. "No, I- If I'm going to be edgy every time he walks into a room he should hear this. I mean, if you want," he said to Nicholas.

"Only if you're sure it's okay." It was obvious Nicholas wanted to be there for Jesse, however, considering the way he immediately pulled over a stool and sat as close to Jesse as possible.

Adrian sighed and he started pacing, forgetting about sitting down himself. "Uhm. It happened after you were gone, just- Just so you don't feel guilty thinking you could have stopped it, okay?" God his hands were shaking and he felt like he might vomit. "I never talk about this and this is now the second time I've spoken about it this month," he groaned. "Do you remember our neighbour from a few doors down? John?"

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	jdelacroix 2015-03-19 08:59 am UTC (link)
	"You know, I'm pretty sure I'm going to be feeling some guilt for a while anyway," Jesse said dryly. But he shut up and let Adrian speak, screwing his face up as he thought, trying to remember. "I...think so?" he said hesitantly. "Was he the creepy one who hung out on his porch all the time?" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

stormandshadow
2015-03-19 09:09 am UTC (link)

"That's the one," Adrian said sadly. "John Wilson. He was a deacon at church too, so he knew Dad had kicked you out for-" Adrian pointed at Nicholas and then felt like a complete asshole. "Sorry. Any-anyway, he knew- He knew just what to say to keep me silent and then he uhm-" Adrian waved his hands around a little, trying to buy himself some time. His mouth was suddenly very dry. "He cornered me one day. Told me if I told anyone, he would tell Dad it was my choice and I'd get kicked out like you. I was fifteen and terrified of being homeless so I didn't tell anyone."

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jdelacroix
2015-03-19 09:39 am UTC (link)

For a moment, Jesse just sat silently, as his mind caught up with everything that Adrian had just said. His stomach felt like it had relocated to somewhere around his toes, and he wasn't even sure he could open his mouth without yelling or sobbing.

Finally, when the buzzing in his ears had faded, he stood and pulled his brother into a careful hug. "I'm so sorry, Ade," he said thickly, trying his best not to cry.

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stormandshadow
2015-03-25 06:57 am UTC (link)

Adrian stiffened when Jesse pulled him into a hug, but he relaxed a moment later. "It's not your fault, Jesse," he tried to assure his brother. A glance over Jesse's shoulder let Adrian know Nicholas was fuming in the corner.

"He did it for years, until I couldn't take it anymore and I had to leave. It's why I became a missionary. It was the quickest way to get me the farthest distance away. He started doing it more and more and I was afraid it would start happening every day-"

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jdelacroix
2015-03-26 06:43 am UTC (link)

Isaiah had been resting in one of the guest rooms, but he'd heard voices coming from the kitchen, so he made his way downstairs. He could hear Adrian speaking, and then Jesse sounded really upset. Isaiah could guess what they were talking about.

Jesse watched Nicholas' face contort, and he could feel that emotion warring with a sense of misery. "I'm glad you got away, Ade, I'm just sorry it happened to you at all," he told his brother.

"That's what I said," Isaiah said quietly, stepping into the kitchen.

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	stormandshadow 2015-04-05 06:08 am UTC (link)
	Adrian glanced over at Isaiah, a look of absolute guilt on his face. "That's not- I mean, if I hadn't, then you-" (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	walkabrokenline 2015-04-05 06:42 am UTC (link)
	"Hush," Isaiah said, not unkindly, and Jesse was struck by how much he reminded him of their mother in that moment. "People like him hurt who they're going to hurt, and you could've stayed and it likely wouldn't have changed a thing. If I was you, I'd have left too. Hell, I did. It's no one's fault but his, Ade." (Reply to this) (Parent)