Jesse could feel his heart break even further the longer Adrian talked. "I told Jay this too, I felt miserable having to leave the three of you," he told his brother. "That, and furious at being tossed out. I thought about all of you constantly, just...wondering how you were doing and what was happening to you. I thought about going back a few times, all, 'fuck Dad, he can't tell me what to do anymore'. I should have. I wish I had."