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Suzaku Kururugi (whiteknightmare) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2017-01-24 10:44:00

Entry tags:

c.c., kitty pryde (aoa), lelouch vi britannia, suzaku kururugi

Day 412 | Closed action | Open video
Action: closed to Lelouch and C.C.

[ So after that...

Suzaku's wakes up far more gently than usual. It's his usual time, he knows, but something's not right. He's very comfortable, and very warm. Comfortable enough that for a long moment, he doesn't even open his eyes, just makes a small sound of pleasure.

It feels good.

He'll... register more. In a moment. ]

Video: Open (later)

I know Kitty summed things up earlier, but I just wanted to add - is everyone all right? If you need something but are kind of hiding from somebody today, for one reason or another, you can give me a private call and I'll try to help.

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melioristic
2017-02-05 09:10 pm UTC (link)

One of us has to be. [ Haha! That's...... no, it's not a good joke. He takes a shivering breath, turning back -- Suzaku's covered, good -- pinking again, at entirely unwelcome thoughts, before he shoves them out of his head and -- pads back across the floor, quiet, to sit on the bed. ]

...I take it -- we all remember the same thing? [ Staring at the far wall; the closet; something beyond it... ] That -- waking... up... like this -- wasn't...

It seemed normal enough?

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whiteknightmare
2017-02-05 10:23 pm UTC (link)

[ More covered than he was moments ago, at any rate. ]

It felt good. And normal.

[ And his tone is plenty indicative enough just what he thinks of himself saying those two qualifiers with an 'and' between them.

Then he sighs, looking at his hands which hang a little between his knees. And he takes a long time before adding, quietly, ]

I know that having lived that time was an illusion caused by this place. Probably. But I don't... think that what I felt was fake. [ Even quieter. ] Not even a little.

[ There. He has said his piece. Now he can listen and pay attention and try to not shatter whatever last traces of sweetness are left for them. ]

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tsuntsuntsun
2017-02-06 12:07 am UTC (link)

[ Maybe it's beneath her to lapse into a stubborn silence. They certainly deserve her participation. But right now, it just... hurts too much. When Lelouch sits on the bed, she has the strongest urge to push out of her huddle and lean on him. Because she remembers doing that.

She stays put, listening, watching, but holding her tongue and keeping her hands to herself. ]

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melioristic
2017-02-06 01:45 am UTC (link)

[ Okay, that gets Suzaku a very startled head-jerk, his thoughts abruptly spinning into overdrive.

He wasn't there yet; still just trying to confirm that they'd all had the same shared hallucination, just in case what the prison had shown him was an aberration, some sort of personalized dream, before he embarrassed himself by trying to ask anything else.

But then Suzaku had gone and said, I don't... think that what I felt was fake, and now his heart is hammering in his throat.

What does that mean? Why would he say a thing like that? Is he trying to say--? No, don't be a fool, of course he isn't, there was a past-tense there. But why would he...? He's Suzaku, sometimes Suzaku just says things, stop reading so much into nine words!

C.C.'s silence beside him doesn't help, only gives his paranoia more room to spiral, and it takes him entirely too long to muster a casual, only-slightly-choked utterance of: ]

No, it... certainly all felt -- real.

[ ...and it's a testament to how deep in his head he is that the other, obvious implication of his words doesn't occur until they're out already. Cinches his eyes shut, ugh. ]

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whiteknightmare
2017-02-06 11:34 pm UTC (link)

[ See, this is why Suzaku is not the chess-player, not the strategist. He's very good at seeing the best next move and taking it, but the consequences sometimes...

Well.

The silence stretching before Lelouch speaks up is enough to let him know he went too far. He bows his head in acquiescence. ]

I apologize. It is only very strange to think about it all happening ... [ he hesitates. ] Happening to me.

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