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Tweak says, "I'm <^..^>ty for you"

Kitty Pryde (Shadowcat) (kitty_has_claws) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2015-07-13 09:53:00

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ianto jones, jack harkness, kitty pryde (aoa), pavel chekov (au), piper halliwell, ton phanan

Day 332 [Action/Open][Video/Closed]
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[Morning. She's not quite awake yet, but she feels warm and safe and pressed close to someone and it hasn't quite had time to feel wrong yet.]

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[Single again. It's getting to be shorter each time. One day is definitely a record. She keeps reaching for her communicator to call Ianto or even Reid, but she keeps putting her hand down again. It's probably starting to look like some kind of bizarre exercise routine to the casual observer. Instead, she settles down in her office at the Defense Force headquarters to look through some of their research even if her mind isn't really on it. Apparently there was also a murder yesterday. She needs to check that out. Part of what everyone went through or standard murderous tendencies?

The door is open in case anyone wants to come in. And if you do, you might notice the band on her wrist which has been blue for quite awhile is now a bright red.]

[Video closed to Piper]
Hey, can we talk?

[Video closed to Pavel (later)]
Hey... Um, are you busy? You want to do something? We could talk about quantum mechanics or eat ice cream. Or do both I guess. They aren't really mutually exclusive kinds of activities.

(OOC: If anyone would like to call her privately, you can do that on this post too and it's always possible to catch her en route here and there..)

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foreverjack
2015-07-13 05:05 pm UTC (link)

[He wakes in the same way as he did the day before, with Kitty snug and close beside him. Only today, as he swims up into awareness, he knows this is not how things should be.

He looks down at the peaceful face of the girl whose head rests on his arm and it almost breaks his heart to have to wake her back to the reality of their relationship. But not to wake her would be unforgiveable too.

So he starts to pull away slightly, to let the movement start to rouse her, even as he says her name softly.] Kitty.

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	kitty_has_claws 2015-07-13 05:12 pm UTC (link)
	Hmm? [She instinctively shifts back toward the fleeing warmth and security of his arms, but the act rouses her back to wakefulness where all the harsh realities live.] Morning again... [It's going to be a very different day.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

foreverjack
2015-07-14 01:50 pm UTC (link)

[Yeah. Very, very different. He gives her a rueful smile as he gently disentangles himself from her. The sooner they start giving each other a little space the easier this will be.]

I'm sorry.

[He's not even thinking about Ianto yet, not really - mainly because Ianto got used to him sleeping with other people once upon a time and he never has really understood what a big deal that was (is) for Ianto. Right now, he's most concerned about how yesterday's antics must be hurting Kitty, whom he feels is a lot more vulnerable emotionally.]

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kitty_has_claws
2015-07-14 02:14 pm UTC (link)

[She's all about disentangling right now. She's thinking about disentangling herself right through the bed. Phasing has it's perks, right? But she just shifts over to her side of the bed more, staying solid for now.]

You didn't do anything wrong.

[Her first thought is Reid. How is Reid going to take this? Will he be okay? Can they work it out? But it's moot, isn't it? He'd have to want to be with her in the first place to even care. The heaviness starts settling back into place—that weight and pain she's been carrying around for months—except when the happy pearl was dealing with it. She didn't miss that yesterday.

She looks at her wrist fully expecting the band to have gone black, but it's still blue. Reprieve?]

Huh.

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foreverjack
2015-07-14 06:39 pm UTC (link)

Not the point. [He can see it happening as she withdraws from him, not just physically (which he was, after all, encouraging) but emotionally as well.

He glances down at her wrist, and then at his own, at least as relieved as she is not to find black around his wrist once more. He's had enough of that for one lifetime.]

Well, at least there's that. Apparently they're still happy to punish us for dying, but sleeping with other people because they've flung us together is okay.

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	kitty_has_claws 2015-07-14 06:49 pm UTC (link)
	They're real humanitarians. [~~Death~~ Intangibility is her gift. Sometimes it expands beyond the physical. There's a lot to process here—much of it is still occurring to her. Their current states of dress and undress. That she works with him. ...Inato.] Are you going to tell him? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	foreverjack 2015-07-14 08:12 pm UTC (link)
	[His eyebrows lift a fraction.] Ianto? [Or Reid?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2015-07-14 08:14 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. I don't want to apologize for something he doesn't know. [She doesn't want to be the one explaining it. She really, really doesn't know what to do when it comes to Reid, but she doesn't expect Jack to start that conversation.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

foreverjack
2015-07-14 08:29 pm UTC (link)

Yeah, of course I'll tell him. [He's never really kept his liaisons a secret anyway, except when Ianto asked him to because he didn't want to know. And now? It's not like it's something he could really keep secret anyway. He must have told at least half the dome yesterday.]

But you don't have anything to apologise for. It wasn't your fault. It was those damn AIs.

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	kitty_has_claws 2015-07-14 08:31 pm UTC (link)
	I know, but it's not the damn AIs that have to deal with the fallout. [She slips out of bed wearing another one of his shirts and her underwear just like yesterday. She finds her pants on the floor pulling them on first.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

foreverjack
2015-07-14 08:55 pm UTC (link)

I know.

[He watches her for a moment, still half-caught in the memory of her being his wife, his one and only. Then he catches himself and turns away to find his own clothes. He's sure him being naked isn't making this any easier for her.

He wonders if the closets here are still full of his own outfits as they were yesterday, or if they're back at his and Ianto's apartment. He can't quite bear to look, but instead starts to pull on yesterday's clothes, looking round at Kitty, unusually hesitant.]

When I said I was sorry, it wasn't that I was sorry for yesterday. Yesterday was amazing. I always thought we'd be great together, and yesterday proved it. It wasn't just warden magic, was it? It was us. We worked. We would work.

[If he hadn't already given himself to Ianto.]

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kitty_has_claws
2015-07-14 09:14 pm UTC (link)

[She is turned away when he says that and thankful for it as she closes her eyes and bites her bottom lip, trying to hold the emotion back. Come on, she was doing so well trying not to feel it.]

Jack... [Her voice is soft, it warbles a little. She draws a breath and turns to look at him, trying to harden herself—her expression, her voice.]

Do you think that makes it better? We could work? Me and Reid could work too. But I'm still going home alone again.

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foreverjack
2015-07-15 01:08 pm UTC (link)

[He looks at her helplessly. Hating himself for bringing this on her, even if he knows it really wasn't his fault.]

No. No, it doesn't make it better at all. It makes it much, much harder. And it's not fair. They experiment with us - play with us - and like you said, it's us who have to deal with the fall-out.

[He wants to hold her, comfort her, but he knows that'll just make it harder for her. Even so, he'll do it in a flash if she wants.]

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kitty_has_claws
2015-07-15 01:20 pm UTC (link)

[She wants it. Of course she wants it. She wants to feel all the security and love and warmth of yesterday again. But that isn't waiting for her. She's already been spending her days missing it from someone else. And much like today that's not Jack's fault.

Kitty wraps her arms across her chest protectively, watching him for a moment. It's hard—impossible—not to feel more for him than she did before. Part of her wants to lash out again and phase herself out of this room. It's easy. It's a comfort zone and this zone she's in now? There's nothing comfortable about it, but it also makes it harder to take it out on yesterday's husband when she's worried about him too. He has feelings about this too and a relationship with Ianto to look out for.]

What were you apologizing for?

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	foreverjack 2015-07-15 03:31 pm UTC (link)
	[It makes his heart ache, watching her withdraw him like that - even more so after the easy closeness and intimacy of yesterday.] I wasn't apologising, not as such. I was... empathising? [A slight hesitation and a crooked grin, because it's not something he's known for.] Trying to, at least. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

kitty_has_claws
2015-07-15 03:39 pm UTC (link)

Yeah, well...it's not my first failed marriage.

[Not that it failed. Not on it's own. They were doing great and she's not sure where the line between fake and real is there. It's not like she didn't enjoy Jack before or have a certain amount of attraction, but she was in love with and faithful to Reid. Maybe that's exactly what they would have been to each other under different circumstances.]

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	foreverjack 2015-07-17 07:00 am UTC (link)
	Nor mine. [Giving her a dry look, and then quirking an eyebrow, because...] Did we fail? I don't think so. Things beyond our control have changed, that's all. [Which... may not be that comforting, but it's how he sees it.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

kitty_has_claws
2015-07-17 12:31 pm UTC (link)

[She meets his eyes and her voice softens a little.] No. It was... [wonderful. She'd been extremely happy.] You know how it was. [And, no, it's not that comforting because now he has his relationship with Ianto to work on and she has hers with Reid and now maybe with Jack to mourn. In some ways her world made things easier. There was death and loss and violence and inhumanity everywhere. She couldn't let it in. She stayed hard and moved from one tragedy to the next staying behind the walls she'd built up to protect herself from it all. It always crept in, but she didn't react. There wasn't time.

There's so much time here. Years of things she never dealt with coming back with their new friends every time she opens her heart and lets herself be vulnerable.]

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foreverjack
2015-07-20 04:37 pm UTC (link)

[Softly] Yeah. [It was wonderful. Perfect possibly in the way that only a fictional marriage can be. His lips twitch wryly as he looks down to fasten his boots.]

Of course, it might not have lasted like that, in reality. You know how we clash sometimes, over leadership of the Defence Force. I expect some of that would have crept in eventually.

[Hoping that might be at least a little bit comforting.]

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	kitty_has_claws 2015-07-21 03:07 am UTC (link)
	Sure. And I'm not sure how well I'd handle you coaxing people into mistletoe bot barriers on purpose. [Just one example of course. She actually handled the open relationship with Tyki pretty well, but that was really only because she never wanted to admit it was a relationship and he never really exercised his freedom until they were over.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	foreverjack 2015-07-21 08:11 pm UTC (link)
	[He grins.] Exactly! I'm a terrible husband, really. [And he doesn't bring up the idea of them not working out because of her moping over Reid or anything like that, because he's not a complete monster and that would not be funny.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2015-07-22 03:22 am UTC (link)
	[Marathon heartbreak often fails at having a sense of humor. And right now she could play along, but...] No, you aren't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	foreverjack 2015-07-22 08:55 pm UTC (link)
	[He gives her a helpless look. They were doing so well. They'd managed not to be maudlin for a whole thirty seconds or so!] Kitty... [This time, he does hold out his arms to her, not really expecting her to come to him, but desperate to offer comfort, all the same.] Come here? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

kitty_has_claws
2015-07-22 09:24 pm UTC (link)

[Gotta be mourn something before you can move on? And part of her just didn't want him to think he's a terrible husband even if he was saying it just to cheer her up. She's been thinking about Reid and Ianto but not a lot about her and Jack and where this actually leaves them.

She looks at his outstretched arms for a moment before deciding to step forward. Once she does she curls into the hug pretty easily.]

Think it'll be weird now? Awkward Force meetings?

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	foreverjack 2015-08-03 08:46 pm UTC (link)
	[His arms fold around her, hold her tight.] Awkward as hell. [Grinning, even as he rubs his cheek against her hair, breathing in its scent, yesterday's memories and emotions still too close to the surface, making this feel natural, normal.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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