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Tweak says, "Wuddup?"

Spike (chipswiththat) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2014-08-16 16:11:00

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anya jenkins, brian moser, deanna troi, doctor facilier, euphemia li britannia, ianto jones, jack harkness, kitty pryde (aoa), rebecca crane, spike, zatanna zatara

284 // voice
[ The feed starts long before anyone speaks, lingers in eerie silence broken by the clicks of a stubborn lighter, the dry crackle of tobacco being set alight, the hollow intake of smoke in dead lungs. The trembling exhale, functioning as an initial indicator to just how rough and ragged his voice is when he does speak. Strained, like he's been screaming himself raw or perhaps the measured and stilted words are a product of him trying to keep himself from doing just that. ]

Are you happy now? Is the world all bright, full of puppydogs and rainbows again? Messing with things you don't understand... makes you feel powerful, doesn't it? Like you're in control. Like you know something. Let me tell you a lit'le secret: you don't know shit. You've never been in control and you never will be. Always somethin' else, calling the shots... whether you realize it or not.

The real monsters aren't out there... but in here. [ Punctuated by the hollow knock of knuckles against breastbone and then he cuts the feed. ]

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	kitty_has_claws 2014-08-21 09:16 pm UTC (link)
	I've seen you with a soul before. You don't remember it, but I'm pretty sure that's how things were. [Not that she ever discussed it with him. Did she ever even talk to him back then? She saw him around the network though. Heard about him from Buffy.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-08-21 09:21 pm UTC (link)
	Buffy told me. [ Of back home, not here. No point in clarifying, just like there's no point in hiding. ] Went out and reclaimed it myself, she said... figures that makes all the difference. Don't have that choice now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-08-21 09:25 pm UTC (link)
	Would you have made it? Here? Now? Before someone who can't get up again died? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-08-21 09:27 pm UTC (link)
	...I thought about it. [ As much of a confession he can ever give. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-08-24 04:18 pm UTC (link)
	Why didn't you? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-08-24 08:05 pm UTC (link)
	I lost the reason to. [ Shut up. What are you doing to him, magical woman? ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-08-25 08:45 pm UTC (link)
	Someone who left? [A guess really. But what else would he have lost here?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-08-26 01:20 pm UTC (link)
	What else would it be? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-08-26 05:05 pm UTC (link)
	[What indeed.] Buffy? [Also seems like the most reasonable guess to her.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-08-27 08:12 pm UTC (link)
	Got it in one. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-08-27 09:22 pm UTC (link)
	I've been wishing she was here for awhile. Maybe we should start a club. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-08-28 08:51 am UTC (link)
	She never would've stood for this, you know. She'd rather stake me six ways 'til Sunday than do this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-08-30 04:19 am UTC (link)
	Then I guess it's the sort of decision we'll both have to live with. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-08-30 01:24 pm UTC (link)
	That's where you're wrong, Kitty-cat. You'll forget all about this in a week's time. The only one who has to live with it, is me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-09-01 04:47 am UTC (link)
	I'm sure it's hitting you a little closer to home, but I'm not that easily distracted by shiny objects. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-01 08:53 pm UTC (link)
	Sure. Let's say you will remember this for the rest of your long, healthy life. I'll still have you beat at the end of it. 126 is still considered pretty damn young by vampire standards. If I'm stuck here, I'll really be immortal. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-09-01 09:34 pm UTC (link)
	Could still be worth it. You must have thought so if you were considering it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-02 07:19 am UTC (link)
	Who the hell knows what I thought... will think. Whatever. Won't think now, thanks to you lot. [ A mock sigh. ] Doesn't matter much anyway. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-09-03 03:21 am UTC (link)
	No? It's just your life, isn't it? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-03 07:08 pm UTC (link)
	Why do you care, anyway? Why are you so bloody keen on making sure I'm alright? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-09-04 01:46 am UTC (link)
	I don't seem like the type to care? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-04 09:05 am UTC (link)
	I'm not the type to be cared for. [ It's not you, Kitty-cat. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-09-04 01:25 pm UTC (link)
	[She shrugs.] You helped me out before or some version of it when I wasn't exactly in the best place. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	chipswiththat 2014-09-05 08:26 pm UTC (link)
	Bit different, isn't it? Broken heart is one thing. You don't owe me anything, Kitty. Give it a rest. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2014-09-05 08:55 pm UTC (link)
	Am I that annoying to talk to? Come on, I know I don't owe you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)