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Aidan J. Reilly (redclayheroics) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2014-03-04 20:26:00

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aidan reilly, damon salvatore, deanna troi, doctor facilier, euphemia li britannia, helen magnus, kitty pryde (aoa), nathan harris, nico di angelo, number one, piper halliwell, sougo okita

261 — open video//closed action to roommates
[ The video feed comes on early, just after the morning greeting. Aidan is definitely looking worse for wear, perpetually stifling a yawn and doing what he can to drown himself in the first pot of coffee of the day. It's been a few rough nights since Euphie moved in and not for the reasons one may suspect. ~~Or maybe exactly for the reasons one may suspect~~. ]

So, uhm... [ Clearing his throat. ] Anyone got any advice for stayin' awake when coffee don't cut it no more? I've tried cold showers, but uhm... I got a feelin' I'll give m'self a cold if I keep that up.

Anythin' would be helpful. Please.

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	trytobenormal 2014-03-21 05:54 am UTC (link)
	[She gave a short, soft hum of acknowledgement, then was silent for a moment.] I can understand that. Still, though, I doubt Helix would want you running yourself ragged on his account. [She tried to offer him a small smile in comfort, but it looked sad. She'd lost people here, too. Close people.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2014-03-21 11:49 am UTC (link)
	[ Helix. Normally that would be a great way to get him to do just anything, but seeing as his doubts about their relationship is partially to blame for all this insomnia... ] Well... [ Sigh. ] He ain't here, is he? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

trytobenormal
2014-03-21 08:57 pm UTC (link)

That doesn't mean you should give up on everything.

[Her tone softened.]

It's not easy... losing someone. Whether it's just that they left here, or they're gone completely. But you can't let them down.

My family might not be here, and I might not see any of them ever again. In fact, I know I won't see some of them again. But that doesn't mean I keep beating myself up about it.

[Not that she didn't for a while, but she finally got past that part of her grief.]

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	redclayheroics 2014-03-23 08:36 pm UTC (link)
	I ain't beatin' m'self up over it and I ain't givin' up on anythin' either! I just... I've had a hard time sleepin' an' I want some help not feelin' like a zombie all th' time. 's all. Nothin' more to it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trytobenormal 2014-03-28 06:21 pm UTC (link)
	I could offer you a spell or a potion, but that's not going to solve the problem. It'll just help you sleep until it wears off. Then you'll be right back here again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2014-03-28 09:19 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, yeah... I know. I know I gotta deal with th' actual problem, but... I just don't know how t' do that. Especially not when I can't even clear my head enough t' think. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

trytobenormal
2014-03-29 07:44 am UTC (link)

I'd say more, about the whole process, and all of that, but, if there's anything I've learned, is that it's different for everyone. My sisters and I all handled loss differently. What worked for me might not work for you.

But... I did feel a little better after I worked through the anger part of it. If you think that'll help?

[She had been through the grief of loss herself a few times, from losing her mother, her grandmother, and her sister. And then Phoebe had been here, and was gone, so she knew that loss as well. It wasn't easy to deal with grief, but if she could help, she would. Paige would have done the same, had done the same, for her.]

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	redclayheroics 2014-03-29 09:45 pm UTC (link)
	I dunno... I ain't even angry, so I don't know what good it'd do. 'Sides, ain't like he's dead. He's just not here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trytobenormal 2014-03-31 09:02 pm UTC (link)
	It's still a loss, and still a grieving process. Phoebe's not dead, but she's not here, either. And I still felt it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2014-04-01 05:01 pm UTC (link)
	If I let every loss here get to me, I wouldn't be doin' anythin' else. Hell, if it weren't for people askin' I would've lost count of how many of my friends've disappeared by now. I know Helix is supposed t' be different but after this long, it's all just kinda numb. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trytobenormal 2014-04-05 10:53 pm UTC (link)
	I'd agree with you, but the lack of sleeping ability kind of says otherwise. Unless there's another reason? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2014-04-06 02:34 pm UTC (link)
	Well, uhm... [ He sighs. ] Alright. There is somethin' else. I mean, th' whole thing with Helix and what's goin' back home ain't exactly helpin' but... There's a girl. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trytobenormal 2014-04-06 09:19 pm UTC (link)
	Oooohhhh... a girl... [That made sense, too.] And, this girl... she's here in Marina? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2014-04-08 11:06 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. I met her here. She's one of my best friends. [ Clears his throat. ] You know Euphie, right? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trytobenormal 2014-04-10 05:31 pm UTC (link)
	Oh, yeah. She sort of runs the school, right? Pink hair? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2014-04-11 10:20 pm UTC (link)
	That's her. She's... really great. I don't want to mess this up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trytobenormal 2014-04-13 04:09 am UTC (link)
	[This now gets a big smile.] I can understand that. I wouldn't say it's worth losing sleep over, but I can understand not wanting to mess something up. You're a good guy, Aidan. You deserve to be happy, and I don't think you'll mess things up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

redclayheroics
2014-04-13 06:51 pm UTC (link)

[ He's not going to tarnish this conversation by going into how complicated it is, sleeping next to her or trying to while biting back every impulse to bury his face in her hair. How much he doesn't know if this is the right thing, if this is really what he's feeling or just loneliness. It's too much to straighten out and so he waits instead, hoping it'll untangle itself as time goes by. ]

Thank you... that means a lot, comin' from you. I guess we'll see how it goes, huh? I mean, I haven't told her or anythin'.

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	trytobenormal 2014-04-13 10:35 pm UTC (link)
	You should try to eventually. She's a good girl, too. Really nice and caring. You'd be good for each other. [Also because she could see some traces of a deep sadness in both of them at times, and they needed the care and support that each of them could give the other. It would be a good match.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2014-04-14 07:31 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah... yeah, I guess I should. She should know. [ Deep breath. ] Just gotta figure out how. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trytobenormal 2014-04-14 09:03 pm UTC (link)
	You'll find the right time and place. This stuff is hard to plan for. A lot of times, it just sort of happens. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2014-04-15 06:30 pm UTC (link)
	Usually, I don't plan for nothin'... but usually, I'm not th' first one to figure this kinda stuff out either. [ Heh. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trytobenormal 2014-04-29 04:41 am UTC (link)
	[That got a small chuckle.] Well, then, sounds like you've got the edge this time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2014-05-01 10:45 am UTC (link)
	Yeah, sounds like it. [ Okay, he's feeling better about this now. ] Thanks Piper, for listenin' to me... again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	trytobenormal 2014-05-04 06:00 am UTC (link)
	No problem. [She smiled.] Good luck. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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