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Tweak says, "Have a little faith, baby."

Aidan J. Reilly (redclayheroics) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-11-01 19:35:00

Entry tags:

aidan reilly, euphemia li britannia, hei, kitty pryde (aoa), lacus clyne, malcolm reynolds, piter de vries, sougo okita, tear grants, zelgadis greywars

243 // audio + action
[ It's been a long day. An eternity or perhaps just a few minutes, seconds, heartbeats since he woke up to an empty bed and an even emptier apartment. It wasn't too hard to swallow back the panic at first, keep it at bay with positive thinking and the stubborn task of looking in every nook and cranny, of testing the line over and over and over again because sooner or later he would turn up. He'd pick up the call. He was probably just busy, or out in Sector 6 or taking a bath.

He'd show up, sooner or later.

Morning turns to day turns to evening and he's still alone. By now the panic is all-consuming, squeezing at his heart until he can't even breathe. Fingers shaking, Aidan flicks on the audio feed. One last ditch effort. ]

Has anyone- [ But he stops himself there. Sometimes you know the answer all too well. So well that you don't want it confirmed more than you've already done yourself. He draws a deep breath, steadies himself for another short minute. ]

If anyone wants t' know... I know he had a few friends here. Probably more than he knew. Helix is...

Helix is gone.

[ With that he cuts the feed, abruptly, tugs the headpiece off just as frantically before heading down to the beach. He can't think of any other place to go. ]

((ooc: Anyone is welcome to find him down at the beach! Audio responses will be icly delayed seeing as he's pretty damn heartbroken, but they will be responded to eventually. ))

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	voice; _incurable 2013-11-01 03:38 pm UTC (link)
	...Sorry. [He's soft spoken as always, though that one word is full of intense sincerity. He's not great at comforting to say the least. He's trying.] I'm bad at this, but I understand. [What it's like to lose the one you love, he can't say aloud. Too intensely personal for anything but veiled implications.] (Reply to this) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-01 04:16 pm UTC (link)
	Happens, doesn't it? Every goddamn day... guess we're up to more than a... a two to one ratio or whatever th' hell he was blabbin' about... [ Bitter and bordering on delirious. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_incurable 2013-11-01 04:25 pm UTC (link)
	[He's not entirely following, but not surprised. Zelgadis wasn't exactly making sense after Saber vanished, even to himself.] Whatever that means, we seem to lose more people than we keep. I've tried what magic I know to get them back, but... [Obviously, nothing worked. Have some company for that bitterness.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-01 04:31 pm UTC (link)
	[ There's a stretch of silence and maybe he's agreeing or maybe he didn't really pay attention. Whichever it is, his voice falls into something flat and monotone. ] I don't know what to do now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_incurable 2013-11-01 04:43 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah. [Neither did he.] You know what I did, I guess. Told everyone to get away from me. And you told me I was being an idiot, and you were right. But if it helps... [no judgment.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-01 05:40 pm UTC (link)
	[ Another stretch of silence, shorter this time. ] I'm startin' to think that maybe you had th' right idea. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_incurable 2013-11-01 05:42 pm UTC (link)
	Maybe. I sure wanted to tell everyone to go to hell and leave me alone. It didn't help. At all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-01 06:02 pm UTC (link)
	So what am I supposed t' do? What can I do? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_incurable 2013-11-01 06:11 pm UTC (link)
	[A pause as he thinks about it. There's no good answer whatsoever, and he's not sure if he should try to pull one out of his ass.] Take the time, I guess. Drinking helped. Once I ended up in the hospital after using all my energy trying summoning spells. It made me feel better in some stupid way. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-01 06:36 pm UTC (link)
	...Drinkin' sounds real good right about now. Ain't like I got anythin' better to do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_incurable 2013-11-01 06:40 pm UTC (link)
	[He shrugs, and it's somewhat evident in his tone.] Then do it. It's not hurting anyone. Maybe it won't help, but maybe for a little while it might. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-01 06:44 pm UTC (link)
	I think I will. [ A beat. You don't have a problem as long as you don't do it alone, right? ] ...You wanna join me? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_incurable 2013-11-01 06:48 pm UTC (link)
	[...Did he hear that right?] Uh... [His first instinct is always to decline, but this guy did try to help him.] Sure. I guess. As long as you remember I'm really bad at this kind of thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-01 06:59 pm UTC (link)
	You're bad at drinkin'? Cause that's all I'm plannin' on doin'. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_incurable 2013-11-03 06:30 pm UTC (link)
	Oh. Good. [Awkward clearing of throat.] I meant comforting people, that's what I'm bad at. But just drinking [with no obligation to make anyone feel any better whatsoever] I can handle. Where? I'll go anywhere but the Devil's Compass. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-04 08:15 am UTC (link)
	Don't know. Don't really care, 's long as I can get drunk. [ Every place is about as bad as the next. You make a lot of memories in just a few short months. ] Not Mer- [ Right. Sam's gone too. ] Not th' Rusty Spoon. So I guess... karaoke bar or blood bar. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_incurable 2013-11-04 05:29 pm UTC (link)
	[A hum of thought. He really doesn't like the options, but in the scheme of things it's not that big a deal.] Blood bar, I guess. People singing can get loud and annoying. [Especially when you have ears that pick up everything.] I'll try to find a quiet table. Take your time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-04 06:05 pm UTC (link)
	Alright. I'll come find you. [ And when he does show up, it's pretty clear that he's had a head start on the drinking. Enough to be noticeable in any case — he's a decently bulky guy who was raised on grain alcohol, but that doesn't stop the sway in his step or the way he's not in complete control of his movements. ] Hey. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_incurable 2013-11-04 06:09 pm UTC (link)
	[Hood in place, Zelgadis glances up from his near-empty mug of beer enough to nod and gesture toward the empty seat. He'll have to keep an eye on this guy and make sure he gets home okay... or wherever he's planning to crash.] What do you want? I'm about to get another one anyway. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-05 04:38 am UTC (link)
	[ He takes a seat, somewhat clumsily but at least he's not at the point of randomly falling over. Yet. ] Beer's fine... thanks. [ Might as well continue with what he started with. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_incurable 2013-11-10 08:07 pm UTC (link)
	[Zelgadis returns momentarily with two medium sized beers (he's not about to contribute to alcohol poisoning, thanks) and plops into his seat -- stone clattering on wood is never really subtle.] [Then he takes a long drink to cover up for the fact that he doesn't know what to say and feels awkward as hell. Like he said, he's bad at this.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-12 05:12 pm UTC (link)
	[ He gives a little nod in thanks, gratefully taking a mouthful of beer. A small stretch of silence appears. Another mouthful. He should probably say something, huh? ] So, uh... how've you been? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_incurable 2013-11-18 08:43 pm UTC (link)
	[It takes a second of incredulous blinking before he can process that. A guy who just lost his... well, someone he cared about obviously... is asking some random guy how he is?] [Nice people, he really doesn't understand them.] Fine, I guess. Considering. [The most forced of all shrugs.] All I want to do is find a way out of here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

redclayheroics
2013-11-19 07:39 am UTC (link)

[ It's a lot easier to care about someone else's well being than his own and with how much he's already been forced to examine his own feelings today, shutting down with some good, old-fashioned selfless caring seems like a good plan.

He makes a little noise of agreement. ]

No luck with that still, huh? You'd think someone would've thought of somethin' by now.

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	_incurable 2013-12-03 02:22 am UTC (link)
	I've thought of lots of things. [Shockingly, he's not indignant because hey, he was getting paid a compliment. Sort of.] The problem is I don't have enough power here to do them. I'm pretty limited in my magic while I'm stuck here. If Lina were here, and we could access our full powers, we could blow this place out of the water, literally. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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