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Aidan J. Reilly (redclayheroics) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-11-01 19:35:00

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aidan reilly, euphemia li britannia, hei, kitty pryde (aoa), lacus clyne, malcolm reynolds, piter de vries, sougo okita, tear grants, zelgadis greywars

243 // audio + action
[ It's been a long day. An eternity or perhaps just a few minutes, seconds, heartbeats since he woke up to an empty bed and an even emptier apartment. It wasn't too hard to swallow back the panic at first, keep it at bay with positive thinking and the stubborn task of looking in every nook and cranny, of testing the line over and over and over again because sooner or later he would turn up. He'd pick up the call. He was probably just busy, or out in Sector 6 or taking a bath.

He'd show up, sooner or later.

Morning turns to day turns to evening and he's still alone. By now the panic is all-consuming, squeezing at his heart until he can't even breathe. Fingers shaking, Aidan flicks on the audio feed. One last ditch effort. ]

Has anyone- [ But he stops himself there. Sometimes you know the answer all too well. So well that you don't want it confirmed more than you've already done yourself. He draws a deep breath, steadies himself for another short minute. ]

If anyone wants t' know... I know he had a few friends here. Probably more than he knew. Helix is...

Helix is gone.

[ With that he cuts the feed, abruptly, tugs the headpiece off just as frantically before heading down to the beach. He can't think of any other place to go. ]

((ooc: Anyone is welcome to find him down at the beach! Audio responses will be icly delayed seeing as he's pretty damn heartbroken, but they will be responded to eventually. ))

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	kitty_has_claws 2013-11-01 08:28 pm UTC (link)
	I think we were probably more alike than he'd have admitted. [Give or take. She doesn't really know much about his past except what she learned from not!Adian. Jethro, was it?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-01 08:29 pm UTC (link)
	Believe me, he doesn't like bein' compared to nobody. [ He tried a few dozen times. Always a disaster. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-11-01 08:31 pm UTC (link)
	[Little smile.] I have a feeling the list of things he doesn't like is a very long thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

redclayheroics
2013-11-01 08:48 pm UTC (link)

It is... but you'd be surprised if you knew how much he actually likes. Ain't exactly somethin' he flaunts.

[ He doesn't even need to close his eyes to see what Helix looked like when he wasn't trying to be tough. He could be sweet and tender, full of sunshine and warmth, childish glee, wonderment... the way his eyes lit up or that smile he probably wasn't even aware of himself. The private moments, whether it was at home or out on a crowded dance floor. The way he could be so caring. So few people got to see that and Aidan always thought it was a shame.

Now they never will.

It's been ages since he last managed to cry, but something in this deceptively casual conversation is hitting the right nerve, bringing the right images to mind and before he knows it he's choked up, eyes burning wetness. ]

Shoot...

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kitty_has_claws
2013-11-01 09:05 pm UTC (link)

[Is he...? He is, isn't he?

There's a small throat clearing on her side. She's not sure what to say. It hasn't been that long since she last cried, but it was the first time in a very, very long time for her, and it was one of those "strange" days in the dome, so not entirely her. She thought she'd forgotten how. Maybe she did.

Maybe she forgot how to be comforting somewhere along the way too. They didn't have the luxury of stopping and feeling or maybe that was just her. Even when her students died and others reached out she pushed them away. Not that she needs to push when she can make herself completely intangible.]

...It's better that way. [Letting it out. Anger isn't the only thing that builds up too much on the inside sometimes.]

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	redclayheroics 2013-11-01 09:13 pm UTC (link)
	[ He draws a few deep, stubborn breaths. She's authority. You don't break down in front of authority. He believed it a little bit when he was younger and with fierce determination once he signed up for the guerilla relief aid and despite her being surprisingly accommodating, he can't. Not with her. ] Sorry, sorry... 'm fine. [ He's so not fine. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-11-01 09:18 pm UTC (link)
	Today's a pretty good day to be not fine if you ask me. [Seriously, still the authority?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-02 08:00 am UTC (link)
	Ain't gonna bring him back, is it? [ Cracking. If she wasn't authority he wouldn't be able to keep himself together. ] He was always here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-11-02 07:29 pm UTC (link)
	[Not always, she thinks, but that isn't the point.] I think it must be different to arrive after people you know are already here. [She wouldn't know. You only really get it one way or the other.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-02 07:33 pm UTC (link)
	[ He shifts, curls in on himself, voice coming out muffled and about the size of an ant. ] ...I don't know how to be here without him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-11-02 07:41 pm UTC (link)
	You'll learn. Adapt. People can do almost anything when they have no other choice. [She sounds almost sad when she says it. Just what you want in a pep talk, right?] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-02 07:48 pm UTC (link)
	[ Wow, wrong thing to say to him although maybe not for the reasons she might think. He knows she's right. He's done things he never thought he'd do... because he had to. Maybe this really is no different. ] Yeah... you're right. [ Sniffle. ] Thanks. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-11-02 07:50 pm UTC (link)
	Yeah, well... Take care of yourself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	redclayheroics 2013-11-02 07:51 pm UTC (link)
	Right... you too. [ By "take care of" you mean crawl into a bottle of whiskey and stay there, right? ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	kitty_has_claws 2013-11-02 07:53 pm UTC (link)
	[She really didn't. Not that she'd blame him. She's done that herself. Except for the staying there. And the whiskey. But instead of explaining she'll just sign off. Maybe someday she'll ask more about Helix. She wonders what he went home to if going home is actually what happens. It's not what she believes, but sometimes she wants to believe it. In this case? Maybe not.] (Reply to this) (Parent)

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