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elena gilbert ([info]matter) wrote in [info]marinanova,
@ 2013-07-29 10:48:00

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Entry tags:bonnie bennett, caroline forbes, damon salvatore, elena gilbert, matt donovan, stefan salvatore

day 230: closed for all the tvd peeps!
[ she wakes with a gasp. it's a dream for a moment, the nightmare she's never been able to shake, if not repress. the water in her lungs strangling her, reaching out her hand to say goodbye to her dad, knowing her mom was dead and they were going to die.

the peace she felt, that one moment, letting it all in.

but she doesn't remember only that, waking up.

she remembers matt unconscious next to her, stefan's hands at her seatbelt, the flash of rebekah in front of the truck on the road. her hands grasp the sheets as she sits up, sputters and struggles to breathe. she died. she remembers -

she can't be dead.

elena knows where she is. her situational awareness is confused, but she knows these sheets, she knows this room, she knows the floor she's padding across to stumble into the bathroom. she remembers that. (she remembers stefan telling her she had him and the desolation she felt that night, (she remembers ric - ), she remember damon's hands groping her against a pillar outside a motel room, bonnie's mom dying and her grief and anger. her loneliness, her empty house. everything connecting to that moment on her porch and sending jeremy away.

jeremy. oh god, jeremy. seeing anna and vicki and -

she thinks again about matt. dying beside her.

she turns on the sink, splashes water against her lips and tastes it on her tongue. lifts her eyes to the image in the mirror. the light blinds her like nothing ever has before. she squeezes her eyes shut and looks away. she hears something from the kitchen and winces; it's so loud. her hand comes up to cradle her head.

somehow calm is returning to her amidst the gasping panic and the tears collected in her eyes. those sounds; she knows them. those voices. her friends. ]

Caroline. [ it's not said loudly - not by a long shot. but she knows caroline will hear it. ]


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[info]amplified
2013-07-29 03:52 pm UTC (link)
[ caroline's that noise in the kitchen, nervously scrubbing away at dishes that don't need cleaning. yeah, she's one of those people who, when things are falling apart, needs some sort of control. so cleaning the whole apartment sounds like the best.

but even through the sound, she hears her friend's voice. strangled. she looks up and frowns.] What in the-- [ she moves towards elena's room, moving to push the door (which is slightly ajar) open. she can sense it, something's off. and for a moment, she doesn't realize it's the fact that she can't hear the blood pumping in elena's veins anymore.] Elena? Did you just call me?

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[info]matter
2013-07-29 04:21 pm UTC (link)
[ she hears caroline's voice, closer now, and moves out of the bathroom to face her. it's steps on unsure legs. it's clearer now, all of it. jumbled but real. it's just yesterday and just a memory all at once - the beach, the heat, smiling despite it all. tyler and liz showing up before that. helping caroline, talking to bonnie - ] I'm fine, I'm -

[ she feels the tears soak into her lashes. she reaches out for her bed, to find someplace to sit, or maybe just to move, but her arm catches only air. her head pounds and she reaches to clutch at it. ]

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[info]amplified
2013-07-29 04:25 pm UTC (link)
[ yeah, something's up and caroline gets it right away when elena emerges from the bathroom on unsteady legs. immediately caroline's there to catch her, brow furrowing with confusion as her arm wraps around her friend's waist] Elena, what's--[ that's when it hits her, that's when she realize what's felt off.] Elena... Are you... are you a vampire? [ it sounds crazy and how could it have happened? weren't there safe guards against this here? had she gone home? if she hadn't, who did this to her. her mind goes to damon for a second before she dismisses that. and rebekah wouldn't dare...]

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[info]matter
2013-07-29 04:33 pm UTC (link)
[ caroline's close presence is enough to steady her; she sways in a precarious balance. but she can't. the question is too much. her eyes squeeze tighter. ] I'm - [ she is. she was going to be. can't be. ] I don't - [ she needs to sit down. ]

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[info]amplified
2013-07-29 04:35 pm UTC (link)
Hey, shh, it's okay. [that answers it, cements it. elena's overwhelmed and caroline knows that feeling well. but she's not about to let elena go through this alone, not when she had to. she moves to urge her towards the bed to sit down.

caroline's trying not to panic, she's already dealt with vampire!elena before. she can do it again. the timing is just awful but at the same time, caroline jumps on the chance to focus on her friend and nothing else.] It's gonna be okay, just sit down, okay? Just breathe.

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[info]matter
2013-07-29 04:44 pm UTC (link)
[ she lets caroline lead her, pulls in shallow, gasping breaths. opens her eyes after she sits and finds caroline's. ] I remember. The lake and - [ she shakes her head. tears blur her sight. matt. ] Matt was going to die. But he's okay. [ she says it because it's true, because matt's here and he's fine. she saw stefan drag him out of the car. but - ] I'm not. [ this is happening. the things everyone told her about. the change in her life that's been inevitable. ]

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[info]amplified
2013-07-29 04:47 pm UTC (link)
[ it's happened, that means that elena went home and now she's back as--] You're okay, Elena. [ she'll never be okay again. caroline doesn't know what the future holds because no one will tell them. so she tucks elena against her side, stroking her hair gently.] You're safe.

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[info]matter
2013-07-29 05:01 pm UTC (link)
[ she's safe, but she's not - (she has to be.)

she believes caroline, wants to, wants to rest against her. the comfort of her arms is too enveloping and she gives into it for a moment. curls her arms around her friend and rests her cheek on her shoulder. closes her eyes into the soothing contact.

but she can't keep them open for long.

ric's dead. she chose stefan. she thought damon was gone. that tyler was dead and soon caroline would be too. and bonnie... ] I need blood. [ it's a choice. (she doesn't want it. she never wanted to be a vampire.) ] That's what I -

[ have to do. what she wants to do. something crawls up her throat. she pushes away, her hands at caroline's shoulders. ] It's that or die; I can't die.

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[info]amplified
2013-07-29 05:05 pm UTC (link)
[ caroline shakes her head, quickly, her hands moving to curl around elena's wrists as elena's hands rest on her shoulders.] Hey, you're not gonna die, okay? [ caroline's from further ahead, she's seen elena survive this. but she also knows that elena needs blood to survive.] I have some in the fridge in my room. [ caroline didn't put it in the main one, not when other people could find it plus... she didn't want to gross bonnie and elena out.] You're going to be okay, Elena. I promise. I'm going to help you. Do you want to stay here? Or go in my room? [ and caroline knows she's going to have to get bonnie involved sooner rather than later.]

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[info]matter
2013-07-29 05:17 pm UTC (link)
[ it's a lifeline. caroline's hands at her wrists, her voice, her conviction. it infuses with elena's own. she's not gonna die. (it's okay she doesn't want to die. and if it's not okay, it's still true. she can't die.) she says nothing, does nothing but search caroline's face and believes her. (she knows she's survived this but somehow knowing means nothing right now. maybe it shouldn't. it can't.)

she nods. she's not sure which she's saying yes to - staying here or going with caroline. maybe neither.

she has to choose what to do. ] Let's get Bonnie.

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[info]amplified
2013-07-29 05:22 pm UTC (link)
[ caroline doesn't know what their future holds but she knows that at least from her experience that elena survives this. although a dark thought passes over her when she remembers how matt and tyler wouldn't speak of the future, what if something goes wrong?

she pushes it from her mind as she concentrates on taking care of her friend.] Bonnie, right. We need to get you a ring and everything. Unless you want a necklace is is fine, they probably have bracelets too, right? [caroline's rambling a bit but she knows it.] Want me to go get her?

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[info]matter
2013-07-29 05:32 pm UTC (link)
[ she won't need it here. but she'll need one at home. caroline needs to ramble, but it's all inconsequential to her. she can't think of it, can't give it actual thought or decide. instead, she nods again.

it's on the tip of her tongue to ask caroline to bring back blood too, but the words get caught in her throat a moment. she blurts them out after a beat, two. ] And blood. [ she can do it. she wants to do it with bonnie and caroline here, if she can choose how. ]

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[info]amplified
2013-07-29 06:08 pm UTC (link)
[ the ring may not be required here but caroline still thinks elena needs one. just in case. things change here a lot, if the past few days were any indication.

so caroline decides she'll ask bonnie before she brings her back in. and at elena's request for blood, she nods, her expression not grim as one might expect but one of understanding.] Yeah, of course. I'll be back, okay? [ she gives her friend's wrists a squeeze before her hands drop from her and she moves to stand, dreading the reaction of their other best friend.

she leaves the room, moving to knock on bonnie's door.] Bonnie? Are you awake?

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[info]medeis
2013-07-29 10:48 pm UTC (link)
[ bonnie was half awake when she heard the knock and caroline's voice at her door. it prompts her to roll out of bed, slip on a nightgown and move quick to see what was going on. ]

Yeah, just a minute. [ she replies as she makes her way towards the door, pulling it open. ] Hey, Caroline. What's up?

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[info]amplified
2013-07-29 10:53 pm UTC (link)
Bonnie. [ there's an urgency in her voice, one that's clear on her face the moment bonnie opens the door.] Elena's... [ caroline takes in a breath.] Elena went home and now she's back and she's... it's happened. [ the whole turning into a vampire thing.] She needs us. She asked for you.

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[info]medeis
2013-07-29 11:11 pm UTC (link)
[ her expression makes bonnie anxious but she knows it's better to let caroline explain before jumping to conclusions. ] Okay. [ the one thing she feared would happen and now she can't reverse it. ] Take me to her. I wanna be there for her, do whatever I can. [ swallow her emotions as best as she could and be practical.]

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[info]amplified
2013-07-29 11:14 pm UTC (link)
Okay. [ she looks at bonnie for a second before she gives her friend a quick hug. then she moves towards elena's room, knocking gently.] Elena? Bonnie's here. I'm gonna go get what you need, okay? [ she glances at bonnie, tilting her head towards the bedroom door.]

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[info]matter
2013-07-29 11:51 pm UTC (link)
[ she doesn't know what to do when caroline leaves the room. she can hear the floorboards beneath her steps, the suddenly deafening ticking of a clock in the living room. she can't listen to it, gets up and finds herself reaching for her communicator -

she needs to call matt. (see him. touch him. know he's alive.) damon. (she wants him here.)

stefan. (everything that happened after...) - everyone.

instead she reaches for the frame next to her bedside light. of her, jeremy, and jenna. (they're happy. alive. human.) caroline's knock jars her and she turns around, places the picture down on her bed. ]

Okay. [ it's as much an invitation for bonnie as it is for caroline. ]

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[info]medeis
2013-07-30 11:56 am UTC (link)
[ while she is brought to elena's room, bonnie tries to think of the right words to say to her. maybe there are no right words because what could say other than she was there for elena? there's no way back from this and she couldn't help but feel a little helpless, even if what she is doing right now is helping. ]

Hey, Elena. [ bonnie calls softly through the door before she pushes it open and steps inside the room. she offers her a reassuring smile- as much as she can at least- and walks towards her friend. ]

I'm here.

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[info]amplified
2013-07-30 05:56 pm UTC (link)
[ caroline leaves them alone for a bit, moving to her room to get a bag of blood from her fridge and a mug from the kitchen.]

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[info]matter
2013-07-31 10:56 am UTC (link)
[ elena doesn't doesn't need any right words. right now, she just wants her best friend. she wants bonnie. she never wanted to be this. (she doesn't want to become the thing bonnie despises, the thing her very existence is on this earth to balance, what's caused her so much pain and suffering.)

she's going to be a vampire. she's still for a moment, tears collecting in her eyes when bonnie walks in. it's only when bonnie is halfway to her that elena walks forward to embrace her. ]

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[info]amplified
2013-07-31 11:14 am UTC (link)
[ when caroline comes back to this scene, she hangs back against the door frame, watching carefully, waiting to give them both time to let this process. the very petty part of her is jealous of the fact that elena has so many people to take care of her during her when caroline was so very alone. but at the same time, she's relieved for her friend, relieved that they can be there for her.]

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[info]medeis
2013-07-31 03:38 pm UTC (link)
[ bonnie slips her arms around elena and holds onto her tightly, reluctant to let her go or say anything just yet. she looks at caroline for a few moments, mouthing a small 'thank you' to the other girl before she focuses on again.

she'll talk to caroline alone when she gets the chance because they needed to and bonnie wanted to see how she was doing. really doing. ]

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[info]matter
2013-07-31 07:03 pm UTC (link)
[ no matter what happens, no matter what she is, at least they're friends, sisters, like they've always been. it's the one comfort elena holds onto as she holds onto bonnie. she doesn't close her eyes, can't, only does when bonnie's arms are tight around her and she's just as reluctant to let go.

she says nothing, has nothing and everything to say all at one.

it's only a few moments later, when she hears a creak of floorboards where caroline is waiting, that elena pulls back to see the blood bag in caroline's hands. she blinks back tears and feels a sudden closing of her throat. elena glances up to caroline and back at bonnie for reassurance. (what is she doing? she can't be a vampire. she can't choose this.

she is. she has to.) ]

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[info]amplified
2013-08-01 11:24 am UTC (link)
[ caroline gives both of her friends as best of a reassuring smile as she can muster. she knows that they'll get through this, she's already been through this at home. she just hopes that here, maybe, elena will be able to drink blood not from just the vein, this place changes you and maybe it'll make it less traumatic for her if she doesn't have to bite someone.

she takes a step forward, letting elena know she's ready to help when she's ready to drink.]

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[info]medeis
2013-08-01 06:18 pm UTC (link)
[none of this would be easy for elena. but she has the strength and the determination to get through it; both caroline and bonnie knew that. they had witnessed it on several occasions. this might just take longer to adjust to.

she steps back from elena to give her space, giving her an encouraging look and a nod to go ahead. ]

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[info]matter
2013-08-01 08:16 pm UTC (link)
[ it's now. caroline's step forward, bonnie's step back; she looks between them, presses her lips together. it registers what they're waiting for, what this is and feels a squeeze in her chest. for a moment she can only look at them and remember a time when this wasn't their lives. try to. (she can't envision what their lives will be; there are no answers past this moment.)

she reaches out to accept the bag from caroline. the blood is cold in her hands, and she looks at it a moment before lifting her head to bonnie, tears shining in her eyes. ]

You'll have to invite me in. [ she remembers what happened to elijah, how he couldn't seem to breathe. it's a practical request, one that makes this more real. she needs another moment. she needs that reassurance. ]

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[info]amplified
2013-08-02 12:52 am UTC (link)
[ caroline steps forward to hand the bag over, her eyes avoiding bonnie because she still remembers how bonnie was after she turned, the anger there. and a part of her felt hurt that bonnie is more understanding now. but a bigger part of her, the less petty part, is happy and proud of her friend.

at elena's words, caroline nods.] It'll be okay. [ not exactly but caroline will make it so.]

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[info]medeis
2013-08-04 04:27 pm UTC (link)
[ bonnie nods in understanding. ] I know, Elena. I will. Promise. [ she wouldn't blame caroline for being a little hurt about her reaction to what happened to elena. bonnie was a different person back then and her views on vampires were pretty straightforward. Now though? They had changed.

she glances over at caroline for a moment, looking apologetic before looking back at elena. ] You'll be fine, Elena. None of us are going anywhere.

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[info]matter
2013-08-18 04:50 pm UTC (link)
[ she wants to believe them both - has to. she decides to, decides she's doing this regardless and she has them both by her side, despite all her doubts and fears. (she's not alone.) she doesn't pause past that moment, looking between them and letting their reassurances settle over her. tears drip down her cheeks, too thick to be stilled as she grabs the bag with her teeth, rips it open -

blood stains her lips, touches her tongue. she manages a hasty swallow before the taste assails and chokes her. elena coughs, sputters. blood overflows onto her hands because her gums swell; she hears and feels the veins around her eyes come alive.

the desire for more.

she stumbles back, disgusted, crying, sits back on her bed. ]

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[info]amplified
2013-08-18 05:01 pm UTC (link)
[ caroline watches as elena moves to grab the bag. she feels that natural instinct, that lurch in her stomach to snatch the bag for herself but it's easy to fight, she's always been good at fighting. she knows how hard this is although for her, she felt like a total freak because she had no idea why she wanted blood so bad that first time. still, she wrings her hands for a moment as elena takes that first sip, feeling the veins beneath her own eyes starting to shift just a little. but she fights them back as she takes a step forward when elena chokes, sputters. ]

Hey, it's--- [ caroline senses it, the change in her body before she sees the veins beneath elena's eyes turn dark, the veins moving darkly beneath the surface.]

You're okay, you're okay. [ she grabs a towel that's hanging on the back of the door (they'll get a new one) moving to help elena, offering it to her.] You did it.

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[info]matter
2013-08-02 01:30 am UTC (link)
[ it's done. she's fed, she's cried (tears she couldn't have stopped even if she realized they were falling), she's sat on her bed with her communicator in her lap wondering how she could feel so entirely different and exactly the same.

(she ignores the aching in her gums, the thirst in her throat tempered only by her shock and devastation. she tries to disregard and quiet her spinning, amplified senses.)

she knows she needs to talk to matt. to see him. her last memory is of the lake, how she shook him and he didn't wake up.

she knows he did. she knows he's alive. but for a moment -

she calls, intent on at least leaving a message. ] Matt. [ she says his name and the sound of her voice sounds normal and not at all. it's why she has to pause. ] Hey. [ she feels warmth mix with her fear, left over from the crash. ]

I know it's early.

I was wondering if you would come over. I've remembered things and... [ and she's a vampire now. something matt knows and doesn't. ] There are some things I want to tell you. I want to see you.

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[info]stuck
2013-08-03 08:32 am UTC (link)
[ it takes matt a while to respond -- about an hour, in fact. it's the alarm clock effect; hearing something go off, glancing at it, and closing his eyes for what he thinks is "just a few more minutes," before realizing a large chunk of time has passed while he slipped back into slumberland. remembered things is sobering, wakes him up, has him taking this call out onto the balcony as if that could stop the original and hybrid that dwell in this apartment with him from overhearing the conversation if they wanted to. hopefully, they're both still asleep. ]

Hey. Sorry, I fell back asleep after seeing your call... [ awkward, unsure, still tinged with hints of grogginess. what does she remember? should he have told her more than he was willing to? ] What do you remember?

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[info]matter
2013-08-18 05:03 pm UTC (link)
[ his voice is a lifeline and a relief. just what she wanted, needed to hear. ] Hey. It's okay, I - [ it's okay he fell asleep, but nothing is truly okay right now. an hour later and elena is showered and dressed, fighting the urge to break down and pushing herself through her routine instead. this is what people (monsters) do. they get up, they shower, they get dressed.

they talk to their friends and find comforting ways to tell them bad news. ] I remember... I remembered the bridge, and - [ it's more than just remembering. tears mute her. ] Matt, I thought for a second you were dead.

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[info]stuck
2013-08-31 02:01 am UTC (link)
[ matt's breath catches in his throat, old guilt and fear and panic swelling up within him. these were feelings he's done his best to bury, to ignore. things that were easier to not focus on when dealing with an elena that was from before all that happened. matt didn't necessarily like how time was all misaligned up and jumbled here, but he did appreciate certain aspects of it -- elena not being a vampire was one of them.

but now she is. she remembers the bridge, how he almost died and she died for him so that he could live. she doesn't remember how he repaid that gift by doing the same later on, else she would've commented on it. he's thankful that she (hopefully) doesn't remember much past the bridge.

he swallows roughly. ] Where are you?

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[info]matter
2013-08-02 01:47 am UTC (link)
[ she's not sure she knows how to make this call. after she sends matt her message, it takes her a moment and a decisive breath to contact damon.

and it's not because - not because she doesn't want to, doesn't want to see him or want him here (maybe it's all she's wanted, needed; she can't decide which - maybe it's both and she's decided that) but now she pauses. knowing all of what's happened between them until the moment she died. (knowing and accepting suddenly, all at once.)

and knowing damon hasn't yet.

she doesn't think; simply calls. ]

Damon, I... [ she trails off. she could explain - something, anything.

it doesn't seem necessary. ] I need you to come over.

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2013-08-02 11:43 am UTC (link)
[ Damon's at the grocery store buying an assortment of fresh goodies to make dinner for two tonight when he gets Elena's message. The moment he hears her voice, he knows immediately that something's not right. He leaves the basket on the floor; practically drops everything behind as he rushes out of the store, past caring about being careful with using his vamp speed abilities. It's the least of his concerns.

He's at her balcony in less than two minutes. ]

Elena? [ There's an edge to his voice; a kind of urgency. Obviously, he's worried. He doesn't knock and simply slides the door open. He can't get in, but it doesn't stop him from trying to get a peek behind the curtains. ]

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[info]matter
2013-08-02 01:47 pm UTC (link)
[ she doesn't wait for a reply from him or from matt past a still moment. she checks, because she should, because she wants to, because she thinks maybe matt had enough time - but ultimately ends up putting her communicator on her already made bed (she straightened up after finding herself alone) and padding over to her dresser. she's not dressed, not yet, and she won't just sit, can't do nothing -

(she's a vampire now. so far that means feeling on the edge of tears endlessly.)

she's set her clothes for today aside and prepared the bathroom for a shower (the thought of water, being immersed - it's nothing she can think of, she decides) by the time damon arrives.

elena's walking out of the bathroom, not yet undressed, when she hears his voice and the opening of the balcony door. it doesn't surprise her that he's here - but tears warm in her eyes because he is. she saw him yesterday; she just spoke to him - she just said goodbye. she remembers it all and everything here, and the reality is -

the reality is it's simple; she's just happy (wants) to see him.

elena moves into the threshold, pushes the curtains out of the way - ] Hey. [ it's said softly, her hands reaching up to touch his shoulders, her smile watery. ]

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[info]reaction
2013-08-02 02:03 pm UTC (link)
[ Relieved to have her within reach, he lets go of the breath he'd been holding. ] You almost gave me a heart att--[ If he'd been about to give her a little playful scolding, he stops when he notices the look on her face. She's clearly not okay. ]

What's wrong? [ The last time he saw Elena, she was at the beach having a blast with her friends. Things had been going well for her. For them. Damon reaches for her hand on his shoulder, giving it a reassuring squeeze; letting her know with a single touch that she can tell him anything. That he's here for her. ]

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[info]matter
2013-08-02 07:26 pm UTC (link)
[ he's right. she's not okay. she's nowhere near okay. her hand smooths over his shoulder and her fingers curls around his. she's happy to see him, she's glad just to touch him; she's devastated. tears collect in her lashes and she blinks quickly to tide them back. ] Damon, I... When I woke up this morning, I remembered... [ everything they've been so afraid of. it's real. ] I drowned in the lake. Damon, I -

I died. I'm dead. I'm a vampire.

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[info]reaction
2013-08-03 02:43 am UTC (link)
[ She's a vampire. How is that even possible? Info dumping, as far as he thought he knew had to do with memories. How does it have any affect on the physical body? ]

What? [ She can't be dead. How are the things that have supposedly happened back home happening to her now? He'd been protecting her and keeping her safe. Klaus is gone and none of this -- none of this should have happened.

Damon's at a loss for words.

So much for being in denial about future things. He remembers what he'd been told about the future. The future he hadn't wanted to believe in at all because as far as he'd been concerned, they had a new life here. But Stefan had pulled Matt out of the water and his dear brother had left Elena behind. His idiot of a brother. And Rebekah--

He has to tell her that she's going to be okay. He knows this isn't what Elena wants for herself, but he knows he has to reassure her somehow, someway. ]

Elena... [ Judging by the fact that she's just stepped out of her apartment means the girls know. Bonnie knows. At least she hadn't been on her own when she woke up. ]

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[info]matter
2013-08-07 12:47 pm UTC (link)
[ she doesn't know how any of this is possible, how any of it can be, but that first taste of blood was enough to prove it was happening. (she didn't want it to.) the cloying thirst puncturing throwing her veins, the taste of blood, so metallic and right (wrong) against her tongue is something she can't forget.

(she has to remember everything; it's not about wanting to.)

her lips move into a facsimile of a smile, the way she has to when there's nothing else she can do. when she can recognize and know his bewilderment and concern and not know how to comfort him. comfort herself. she blinks back tears, fists the fabric of his shirt in her palm and smooths it over. tightens her grasp on his fingers. (it's the only way she knows how to comfort him. reassure him.

reassure herself. he's tangible; he always is.) ]

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[info]matter
2013-08-18 04:36 pm UTC (link)
[ it's not long after damon's left her side for just a moment - and that involved insisting she wanted to take a shower and get dressed - that she makes a call to stefan. she knows there was a time when she night have called him right away... and there was a part of her, the part that remembered all of it, the part that still (always) loves him that wanted to.

there's so much to say, to tell him, so much she's feeling. she's felt on the edge of tears all afternoon and right now is not exception. ]

Hey, I... I don't know if someone or - [ she commits to who would have, if not damon - ] if Caroline called you. Something's happened and... I'm fine. I guess it's just not a thing you say over the phone. [ she pauses. she hurts. she mourns. she wants to say she needs him but - ] Come over when you can.

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[info]sanguino
2013-08-18 11:13 pm UTC (link)
[It's immediately obvious that something's wrong, and Stefan hates that his first reaction is immediately to think Damon's done something. After all, it's happened before, and while he doesn't want to feel like he's constantly waiting for his brother to make yet another idiot mistake involving pushing Elena away, he knows better than anyone that old habits die hard.

And the vagueness of Elena's message certainly doesn't help that. She always says she's fine when she obviously isn't. And right now he seriously doubts that everything is just okay.

He doesn't call back, he simply finds himself making his way to her place, knocking on the door.]

Elena? It's me.

[Because he's not in a position in her life anymore to just appear inside her room, even if that had been his first instinct, too.]

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[info]matter
2013-08-24 10:02 am UTC (link)
[ she's sitting on her bed when the knock on the door sounds. she hears it, much more distinctly than she ever could. knows it's him with a caught breath before he speaks. that's the thing about how she feels for stefan; it hasn't weakened even if it's changed. and she feels it more strongly, more truly, than she has since before remembering all of it -

feeling that longing. getting through to him. finding the man she once fell in love with still there, as she always knew he was. (all that confusion over damon - her decision. decisions she can't think on right on.)

she's up and at the front door quickly. quicker than is humanly possible.

elena can breathe again once she's seen his face. ] Stefan.

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[info]sanguino
2013-08-25 08:42 pm UTC (link)
[He hears that movement through the door, too fast to be human, so he expects Caroline to open the door.

When Elena greets him instead, there's a sinking feeling in his gut. He ignores it, as best as he can, because he doesn't want it to be true. Maybe if he denies it enough, it won't be.]

Hey.

[He moves toward her without even thinking, hands falling on her shoulders, his eyes searching hers.]

What's wrong?

[Even if he already knows, deep down.]

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