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Tweak says, "Get Over It!"

elena gilbert (matter) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-07-29 10:48:00

Entry tags:

bonnie bennett, caroline forbes, damon salvatore, elena gilbert, matt donovan, stefan salvatore

day 230: closed for all the tvd peeps!
[ she wakes with a gasp. it's a dream for a moment, the nightmare she's never been able to shake, if not repress. the water in her lungs strangling her, reaching out her hand to say goodbye to her dad, knowing her mom was dead and they were going to die.

the peace she felt, that one moment, letting it all in.

but she doesn't remember only that, waking up.

she remembers matt unconscious next to her, stefan's hands at her seatbelt, the flash of rebekah in front of the truck on the road. her hands grasp the sheets as she sits up, sputters and struggles to breathe. she died. she remembers -

she can't be dead.

elena knows where she is. her situational awareness is confused, but she knows these sheets, she knows this room, she knows the floor she's padding across to stumble into the bathroom. she remembers that. (she remembers stefan telling her she had him and the desolation she felt that night, (she remembers ric - ), she remember damon's hands groping her against a pillar outside a motel room, bonnie's mom dying and her grief and anger. her loneliness, her empty house. everything connecting to that moment on her porch and sending jeremy away.

jeremy. oh god, jeremy. seeing anna and vicki and -

she thinks again about matt. dying beside her.

she turns on the sink, splashes water against her lips and tastes it on her tongue. lifts her eyes to the image in the mirror. the light blinds her like nothing ever has before. she squeezes her eyes shut and looks away. she hears something from the kitchen and winces; it's so loud. her hand comes up to cradle her head.

somehow calm is returning to her amidst the gasping panic and the tears collected in her eyes. those sounds; she knows them. those voices. her friends. ]

Caroline. [ it's not said loudly - not by a long shot. but she knows caroline will hear it. ]

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matter
2013-07-31 07:03 pm UTC (link)

[ no matter what happens, no matter what she is, at least they're friends, sisters, like they've always been. it's the one comfort elena holds onto as she holds onto bonnie. she doesn't close her eyes, can't, only does when bonnie's arms are tight around her and she's just as reluctant to let go.

she says nothing, has nothing and everything to say all at one.

it's only a few moments later, when she hears a creak of floorboards where caroline is waiting, that elena pulls back to see the blood bag in caroline's hands. she blinks back tears and feels a sudden closing of her throat. elena glances up to caroline and back at bonnie for reassurance. (what is she doing? she can't be a vampire. she can't choose this.

she is. she has to.) ]

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amplified
2013-08-01 11:24 am UTC (link)

[ caroline gives both of her friends as best of a reassuring smile as she can muster. she knows that they'll get through this, she's already been through this at home. she just hopes that here, maybe, elena will be able to drink blood not from just the vein, this place changes you and maybe it'll make it less traumatic for her if she doesn't have to bite someone.

she takes a step forward, letting elena know she's ready to help when she's ready to drink.]

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	medeis 2013-08-01 06:18 pm UTC (link)
	[none of this would be easy for elena. but she has the strength and the determination to get through it; both caroline and bonnie knew that. they had witnessed it on several occasions. this might just take longer to adjust to. she steps back from elena to give her space, giving her an encouraging look and a nod to go ahead. ] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

matter
2013-08-01 08:16 pm UTC (link)

[ it's now. caroline's step forward, bonnie's step back; she looks between them, presses her lips together. it registers what they're waiting for, what this is and feels a squeeze in her chest. for a moment she can only look at them and remember a time when this wasn't their lives. try to. (she can't envision what their lives will be; there are no answers past this moment.)

she reaches out to accept the bag from caroline. the blood is cold in her hands, and she looks at it a moment before lifting her head to bonnie, tears shining in her eyes. ]

You'll have to invite me in. [ she remembers what happened to elijah, how he couldn't seem to breathe. it's a practical request, one that makes this more real. she needs another moment. she needs that reassurance. ]

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amplified
2013-08-02 12:52 am UTC (link)

[ caroline steps forward to hand the bag over, her eyes avoiding bonnie because she still remembers how bonnie was after she turned, the anger there. and a part of her felt hurt that bonnie is more understanding now. but a bigger part of her, the less petty part, is happy and proud of her friend.

at elena's words, caroline nods.] It'll be okay. [ not exactly but caroline will make it so.]

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medeis
2013-08-04 04:27 pm UTC (link)

[ bonnie nods in understanding. ] I know, Elena. I will. Promise. [ she wouldn't blame caroline for being a little hurt about her reaction to what happened to elena. bonnie was a different person back then and her views on vampires were pretty straightforward. Now though? They had changed.

she glances over at caroline for a moment, looking apologetic before looking back at elena. ] You'll be fine, Elena. None of us are going anywhere.

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matter
2013-08-18 04:50 pm UTC (link)

[ she wants to believe them both - has to. she decides to, decides she's doing this regardless and she has them both by her side, despite all her doubts and fears. (she's not alone.) she doesn't pause past that moment, looking between them and letting their reassurances settle over her. tears drip down her cheeks, too thick to be stilled as she grabs the bag with her teeth, rips it open -

blood stains her lips, touches her tongue. she manages a hasty swallow before the taste assails and chokes her. elena coughs, sputters. blood overflows onto her hands because her gums swell; she hears and feels the veins around her eyes come alive.

the desire for more.

she stumbles back, disgusted, crying, sits back on her bed. ]

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amplified
2013-08-18 05:01 pm UTC (link)

[ caroline watches as elena moves to grab the bag. she feels that natural instinct, that lurch in her stomach to snatch the bag for herself but it's easy to fight, she's always been good at fighting. she knows how hard this is although for her, she felt like a total freak because she had no idea why she wanted blood so bad that first time. still, she wrings her hands for a moment as elena takes that first sip, feeling the veins beneath her own eyes starting to shift just a little. but she fights them back as she takes a step forward when elena chokes, sputters. ]

Hey, it's--- [ caroline senses it, the change in her body before she sees the veins beneath elena's eyes turn dark, the veins moving darkly beneath the surface.]

You're okay, you're okay. [ she grabs a towel that's hanging on the back of the door (they'll get a new one) moving to help elena, offering it to her.] You did it.

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