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elena gilbert (matter) wrote in marinanova,
@ 2013-07-29 10:48:00

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bonnie bennett, caroline forbes, damon salvatore, elena gilbert, matt donovan, stefan salvatore

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[ she wakes with a gasp. it's a dream for a moment, the nightmare she's never been able to shake, if not repress. the water in her lungs strangling her, reaching out her hand to say goodbye to her dad, knowing her mom was dead and they were going to die.

the peace she felt, that one moment, letting it all in.

but she doesn't remember only that, waking up.

she remembers matt unconscious next to her, stefan's hands at her seatbelt, the flash of rebekah in front of the truck on the road. her hands grasp the sheets as she sits up, sputters and struggles to breathe. she died. she remembers -

she can't be dead.

elena knows where she is. her situational awareness is confused, but she knows these sheets, she knows this room, she knows the floor she's padding across to stumble into the bathroom. she remembers that. (she remembers stefan telling her she had him and the desolation she felt that night, (she remembers ric - ), she remember damon's hands groping her against a pillar outside a motel room, bonnie's mom dying and her grief and anger. her loneliness, her empty house. everything connecting to that moment on her porch and sending jeremy away.

jeremy. oh god, jeremy. seeing anna and vicki and -

she thinks again about matt. dying beside her.

she turns on the sink, splashes water against her lips and tastes it on her tongue. lifts her eyes to the image in the mirror. the light blinds her like nothing ever has before. she squeezes her eyes shut and looks away. she hears something from the kitchen and winces; it's so loud. her hand comes up to cradle her head.

somehow calm is returning to her amidst the gasping panic and the tears collected in her eyes. those sounds; she knows them. those voices. her friends. ]

Caroline. [ it's not said loudly - not by a long shot. but she knows caroline will hear it. ]

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matter
2013-08-18 04:36 pm UTC (link)

[ it's not long after damon's left her side for just a moment - and that involved insisting she wanted to take a shower and get dressed - that she makes a call to stefan. she knows there was a time when she night have called him right away... and there was a part of her, the part that remembered all of it, the part that still (always) loves him that wanted to.

there's so much to say, to tell him, so much she's feeling. she's felt on the edge of tears all afternoon and right now is not exception. ]

Hey, I... I don't know if someone or - [ she commits to who would have, if not damon - ] if Caroline called you. Something's happened and... I'm fine. I guess it's just not a thing you say over the phone. [ she pauses. she hurts. she mourns. she wants to say she needs him but - ] Come over when you can.

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sanguino
2013-08-18 11:13 pm UTC (link)

[It's immediately obvious that something's wrong, and Stefan hates that his first reaction is immediately to think Damon's done something. After all, it's happened before, and while he doesn't want to feel like he's constantly waiting for his brother to make yet another idiot mistake involving pushing Elena away, he knows better than anyone that old habits die hard.

And the vagueness of Elena's message certainly doesn't help that. She always says she's fine when she obviously isn't. And right now he seriously doubts that everything is just okay.

He doesn't call back, he simply finds himself making his way to her place, knocking on the door.]

Elena? It's me.

[Because he's not in a position in her life anymore to just appear inside her room, even if that had been his first instinct, too.]

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matter
2013-08-24 10:02 am UTC (link)

[ she's sitting on her bed when the knock on the door sounds. she hears it, much more distinctly than she ever could. knows it's him with a caught breath before he speaks. that's the thing about how she feels for stefan; it hasn't weakened even if it's changed. and she feels it more strongly, more truly, than she has since before remembering all of it -

feeling that longing. getting through to him. finding the man she once fell in love with still there, as she always knew he was. (all that confusion over damon - her decision. decisions she can't think on right on.)

she's up and at the front door quickly. quicker than is humanly possible.

elena can breathe again once she's seen his face. ] Stefan.

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sanguino
2013-08-25 08:42 pm UTC (link)

[He hears that movement through the door, too fast to be human, so he expects Caroline to open the door.

When Elena greets him instead, there's a sinking feeling in his gut. He ignores it, as best as he can, because he doesn't want it to be true. Maybe if he denies it enough, it won't be.]

Hey.

[He moves toward her without even thinking, hands falling on her shoulders, his eyes searching hers.]

What's wrong?

[Even if he already knows, deep down.]

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