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Tweak says, "CHOP CHOP CHOP U UP! "

Prongs (cervine_) wrote in makebelievenet,
@ 2011-08-16 00:35:00

Entry tags:

benjy fenwick, james potter, james sirius potter, lily evans-potter, severus snape, sirius black

I don't want to leave here, because I know I'm going back home to die and that terrifies me.
I love Lils and Harry and Pads and Moony more than life and I know I'd do the same thing again if it meant they stayed alive.
I can't believe I have grandchildren. They're great, and I love spending time with them but sometimes I have to pretend that they're not related to me because Harry isn't even 18 months old in my head, and the whole time travel thing in this place is confusing enough to give me a headache.
Sometimes I miss Pete.
I miss Moony all the time.
Snape, I can't stand you, and I know the feeling's mutual. The only reason I've left you alone is because I know it would upset my wife and I do try not to ever do that. But you're a dick. I really think you should know this in case you were somehow unaware of your dickishness.

I really wish I hadn't said all this over the network.

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	inpotioveritas 2011-08-15 11:59 pm UTC (link)
	Potter, she's much too good for you. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	cervine_ 2011-08-16 12:00 am UTC (link)
	You think I don't know that? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	inpotioveritas 2011-08-16 12:03 am UTC (link)
	Never hurts to be reminded. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

cervine_
2011-08-16 12:34 am UTC (link)

I've always known she's too good for me. I don't need reminding.

Although you're full of dragonshit if you think memories can't hurt. Like how I can't sleep without potions because every night, I see your lord and master showing up at my house to kill my family because of you, and that's a memory. You're telling me that your memory of setting that bastard on Lils doesn't hurt? Really?

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	inpotioveritas 2011-08-16 12:43 am UTC (link)
	I never said it didn't hurt. I'm the one who has had to live with it. If you were still dead like you're supposed to be, you wouldn't feel a thing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cervine_ 2011-08-16 12:51 am UTC (link)
	Actually, you just did. You said "Never hurts to be reminded". So I'm reminding you. This attempt at getting sympathy is really falling short of the mark, you know. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	inpotioveritas 2011-08-16 01:05 am UTC (link)
	I think I preferred it when we were ignoring one another. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cervine_ 2011-08-16 09:38 pm UTC (link)
	huh, we actually agree on something. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	inpotioveritas 2011-08-16 09:43 pm UTC (link)
	The apocalypse clearly draweth nigh. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cervine_ 2011-08-16 09:52 pm UTC (link)
	Obviously. uh, quick quick you're a twat There, I averted the apocalypse. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	pad_foot 2011-08-16 12:19 am UTC (link)
	I agree with everything you have just said. Except the grandchildren thing. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	charminglylily 2011-08-16 01:42 am UTC (link)
	You never know, Sirius, given your history you might have a grandchild show up. And then you can agree with James completely. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	cervine_ 2011-08-16 09:49 pm UTC (link)
	Of course you do. (Reply to this) (Parent)

charminglylily
2011-08-16 01:39 am UTC (link)

James - I love you too. I wish I knew how to help you get through those memories ~~Severus knows occlumency maybe he could teach me and then I could teach~~. I miss Harry so much, I think his absence is why we've 'adopted' two children, or maybe it's just because I love children so much. That's not saying I want to get pregnant again, but can we 'adopt' more children?

I think, if you think about it, and why you miss Peter you might understand why Severus and I are friends again. If Peter showed up and had changed completely from the person who gave us up, was truly trying, would you not want some measure of your friendship restored?

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cervine_
2011-08-16 09:46 pm UTC (link)

I wish you did too because I hate the taste of the potions, but if I don't take them I'll never sleep again. Ask Jamie, he's seen what I dream. And of course we can!

I don't know. I've read the books, I know he doesn't change and I can't understand how we didn't see it and I want to hex him from here until the start of the next century. He was our friend, Lils, he babysat Harry! I just don't understand

And I honestly don't understand why you want to be friends with Snape

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	benjywenjy 2011-08-16 02:00 am UTC (link)
	I'm supposed to die a bit after I go back from death eaters. The idea scares me. I keep trying to think about making what time I have here worth living, if it's all I'm going to get, but I've just been reading and working as much as I can instead of socializing. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	benjywenjy 2011-08-16 02:55 am UTC (link)
	And, for that matter, I wish I had gotten to know most of the Order Members better. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cervine_ 2011-08-16 09:47 pm UTC (link)
	Pub crawl! When we're not telling our deepest secrets to each other, that is. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	benjywenjy 2011-08-16 09:52 pm UTC (link)
	I can readily agree to that, especially waiting until after the secret telling ends. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	tictic_boom 2011-08-16 04:05 am UTC (link)
	oh jim it's okay we're all talking crazy over these things sometimes i dont want to leave here either (Reply to this) (Thread)

cervine_
2011-08-16 09:55 pm UTC (link)

I am considering sending my phone to the bottom of the lake, or sticking it to a dragon or something. Except then I'd probably end up running around after people, shouting things at them, and that's never a good thing. I did that to a bunch of second years once and it got old after about twenty minutes.

Want to go on a pub crawl with Benjy and me and whoever else ends up coming along?

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	tictic_boom 2011-08-17 12:25 am UTC (link)
	sure Jim can Jamie come? I know he looks like you but it won't be so confusing I promise. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cervine_ 2011-08-17 12:40 am UTC (link)
	Why not? And I wear glasses, so it's fine. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	eldest_potter 2011-08-17 05:17 am UTC (link)
	I get it. I really do. I mean if I have kids in the future and they showed up here it'd be pretty mental. But I'm really glad to have gotten the chance to meet you and grandma Lily cause I grew up hearing all about you guys and even though I had Nana and Grampa, I always wished that you guys had been around too. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	cervine_ 2011-09-04 03:08 pm UTC (link)
	This place is great sometimes. I mean, Pads knows we don't blame him, and Moony was here for ...nowhere near long enough, and seeing Harry all grown up, that was... wow. But meeting you lot has been amazing. This bit isn't so bad! I'm still sorry about the whole dream thing, though. Nobody needed to see that. (Reply to this) (Parent)