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jemma simmons is just a scientist. (miracleworker) wrote in jurassiccitynet,
@ 2016-06-17 21:18:00

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alphonso mackenzie, bobbi morse / mockingbird, daisy johnson / quake (mcu), gabriel gray / sylar, grant ward (mcu), jemma simmons, phil coulson (616)

This isn't where I'm meant to be. This doesn't make any sense. I don't understand how I got here. This isn't right.

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	ward \| daisy. aberrancy 2016-06-17 08:33 pm UTC (link)
	You owe it to her to leave her alone. I think I know when she's from, and if I'm right the last thing she needs right now is you bothering her. You need to talk to one of us that badly, fine. I think it's stupid and selfish and you're an ass for not just going off and living your life away from us. But fine. Talk to me. I can deal with it. But leave her alone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ward \| daisy. survives 2016-06-17 09:09 pm UTC (link)
	Ten minutes. However long it takes her to take her aggressions out on my face. And I'm gone again. ~~Never mind that a year ahould be more than enough time for you to realize I'm not~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ward \| daisy. aberrancy 2016-06-18 06:15 pm UTC (link)
	It won't help. Not really. I know you think you're helping or making things better, but you're not. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ward \| daisy. survives 2016-06-18 06:20 pm UTC (link)
	My only other option is to do nothing. And that's worked splendidly with you. So I'd rather try something. Even if it doesn't help, if she takes something out on me, I get part of what I deserve. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

ward | daisy.

aberrancy
2016-06-18 10:09 pm UTC (link)

When have you ever done nothing? Every time we think you've figured it out and moved on, you pop back up. Like a bad penny. And yeah. I screwed up by talking to you when I was screwed up and hating myself and suicidal. But that was my screw up.

You'll never get it. It's not about you. It's not about what you "deserve". Call it what it is. You want us to hurt you so you can feel justified in this bullshit complex you have with us. We're so awful for not wanting you in our lives. If we hurt you, then it's even and we can't ignore you any more. All we want is for you to stay out of our lives. Why is that so damn hard. God I wish this was like back home and you were dead because then we'd be rid of you.

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ward | daisy.

survives
2016-06-18 10:21 pm UTC (link)

Eight months. I've stayed silent for eight months with you. Trip, Hunter, Morse. None of them issues a no talking order. Trip's actually being a decent fucking human being about things. But that's not surprising. He was always the best of everyone. But I have said absolutely nothing to you since you told me not to.

And that was you needing to talk to someone who had absolutely no reason to humor you as far as what you'd done. Why would I have to spare your feelings if I had a reason to say you were entirely at fault? Not that you were. Even a blind idiot could see that.

And you really don't get it at all. You think any of this is about me. That any of it ever has been...

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ward | daisy.

aberrancy
2016-06-19 03:28 am UTC (link)

You don't get brownie points or a gold star for not talking to me when I had to ask you for months to leave me alone. When I had to literally threaten destruction to get you to respect my wishes. I refuse to feel guilty for standing up for myself when you kept pushing and pushing and forcing your way into my life. For doing what was necessary to protect myself. So yay. You finally did what I asked. Good for you. But you keep forcing everyone else to deal with you and it's disgusting.

It was a mistake. I was unbalanced and I made a shitty choice. I didn't need anything from you. I was punishing myself. I don't care what you think. Don't make it into more than what it was.

It is about you. You and what you want. Because you don't care that we all hate having you in our lives. Bobbi and Lance and Trip may put up with you talking to them, but they don't want you around. The fact that Trip talks to you has nothing to do with him giving a damn about you and everything to do with him protecting his teammates. And I wish he didn't feel like he had to protect me from you by dealing with you himself.

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