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Tweak says, "what is normal?"

andromeda (sinisand) wrote in flippedrpg,
@ 2013-06-11 04:01:00

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! journal, ch: bdh: jayne lupin, ch: regen: ted tonks, ch: squib: astrid black, ch: swap: mariana black, ch: thg: andromeda black, ch: thg: filius flitwick, ch: thg: harry potter, ch: thg: james potter, ch: thg: remus lupin, ch: unwind: andromeda tonks, ch: unwind: narcissa black, p: annalisa, p: ashton, p: kaitlin, p: lisa ii, p: mish, p: rachael, p: silyara, p: trish

[...] Ted has been missing for a long time, as well, but I thought [...] I should have mentioned it sooner. I had been processing it in my own time. I hadn't realised these disappearances were so [...] frequent, or that they don't come back. ~~I thoug~~

I just—

I didn't know. ~~I was hoping th~~ ~~He couldn't handle it, it was turning him into something el~~ ~~I wanted us to be alright, Theodore. I love you~~ I'm sorry for those who have lost someone in the recent shift. I'm— here, if you need an ear, or— well, anything.

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	sinisand 2013-06-10 06:44 pm UTC (link)
	Don't apologise. It's not your fault. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	unendingdays 2013-06-10 06:48 pm UTC (link)
	I know. I just [...] know the feeling. ~~A little over two hundred years worth of it~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

this ted.

sinisand
2013-06-10 07:04 pm UTC (link)

[...] I can only imagine. Ted and I have been— we— I mean, we haven't really seen eye-to-eye for a long time, but— I love him. I love him. I didn't want to believe he was gone. And it might seem like short play, just a handful of years, but I thought— I had begun to wonder if we could have fixed things. If not for us, then Nymphadora. But it all went to pieces.

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	this ted. sinisand 2013-06-10 07:05 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sorry. My word vomit wasn't appropriate. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

this andromeda | this ted

unendingdays
2013-06-10 07:13 pm UTC (link)

You never have to apologise for that. I have lived for 368 years and I had more than my fair share of years with my Andromeda. ~~It's never enough, but that's what happens when-~~ I am sorry you did not get to experience the same with your Ted.

You deserved that. Love is nothing to apologise for. Nor is speaking about it. So speak about him and everything as much as you need.

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	Re: this andromeda \| this ted sinisand 2013-06-10 07:23 pm UTC (link)
	Perhaps he simply did not love me as much as other Teds have loved their Andromedas. My world may be the fluke one. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	this andromeda \| this ted unendingdays 2013-06-10 07:27 pm UTC (link)
	I think, perhaps, he just didn't know how to show it. He was a lot more broken but I don't think that meant he didn't love you. How could we not? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	this andromeda \| this ted sinisand 2013-06-10 07:30 pm UTC (link)
	[...] Oh, now you've done it, mister. I've become all weepy like a maiden. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	this andromeda \| this ted unendingdays 2013-06-10 07:41 pm UTC (link)
	I'm sorry, love. If it makes you feel better, I've been crying for most of the time since Andromeda left. We've had a lot of family piles. You're welcome to join them. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	this andromeda \| this ted sinisand 2013-06-10 07:45 pm UTC (link)
	[...] The other Andromeda is gone, too? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	this andromeda \| this ted unendingdays 2013-06-10 07:49 pm UTC (link)
	Yes. From the Big Damn Heroes world. I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	this andromeda \| this ted sinisand 2013-06-10 07:53 pm UTC (link)
	No, I'm sorry, ~~Theo~~ Ted. I'm really sorry. You were both so incredibly close. It must've been like — the first time all over again. I can't imagine it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	this andromeda \| this ted unendingdays 2013-06-10 07:57 pm UTC (link)
	It was perfect. Everything it was [...] even if it wasn't long [...] was perfect. I just have to adjust to [...] everything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	this andromeda \| this ted sinisand 2013-06-10 08:13 pm UTC (link)
	Perhaps she will return, if not slightly younger. It happens every now and then, doesn't it? And she might retain her memories. I will pray for this for you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	this andromeda \| this ted unendingdays 2013-06-10 08:19 pm UTC (link)
	It's entirely possible. I will manage. Even if she doesn't. I have too many others to stay present for. I'll try to hope. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	this andromeda \| this ted sinisand 2013-06-10 08:25 pm UTC (link)
	~~I remember when you were this optimistic. When everything seemed like it would have a happy ending. Where did that go?~~ Hope is very important, Ted. I'm guilty of forgetting that sometimes, but you have reminded me to keep it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	this andromeda \| this ted unendingdays 2013-06-10 08:34 pm UTC (link)
	We mustn't lose it. It's the only thing that keeps you going when everything's pitted against you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	this andromeda \| this ted sinisand 2013-06-11 09:55 am UTC (link)
	Yes. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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