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Tweak says, "STOP REFRESHING!"

Liam has gained (perspective) wrote in doors,
@ 2014-02-24 09:57:00

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cobb, dean winchester, hatter, hulk, james potter, jo harvelle, phantom, scarecrow, supergirl, wendy darling, wonder woman

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Any tips for a caffeine replacement? I'm not supposed to have caffeine, and I'm missing my coffee more than I would have imagined.

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	Re: neil/ash perspective 2014-02-25 02:56 am UTC (link)
	[Later, after Louis' post and the ensuing response from Shane.] It doesn't fucking matter, Neil. I've got people I don't fucking know pissed at me so no, I'm not alright. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash incharge 2014-02-25 02:57 am UTC (link)
	[...] No one's pissed at you, Ash. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash perspective 2014-02-25 03:02 am UTC (link)
	Of course they aren't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash incharge 2014-02-25 03:43 am UTC (link)
	Ash, come on. We're your family. We want to support you. We want what's best for you and your baby, okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash perspective 2014-02-25 03:49 am UTC (link)
	~~Except for the fact that this baby is going to break you and Louis' hearts every day.~~ I don't think I deserve that ind of support from any of you. Not after what I've done to the lot of you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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incharge
2014-02-25 03:53 am UTC (link)

~~Oh, for the love of~~

[Pen press.]

Okay, look. I'm going to be honest with you. I love you, and I'm here for you, so don't get all defensive. Do I think getting involved with Alex was stupid? Yeah, I do. And, alright, so maybe things were fine when you first met, but they didn't stay fine and you kept seeing him. I think he's using you now, and I think he's going to hurt you in the end. And I'm worried, okay? We're all really fucking worried about you and this baby. But you didn't do anything to us. This isn't about us. This is about you and this baby and what's best for the two of you, which I don't believe for a second the Murphys give a damn about.

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	Re: neil/ash perspective 2014-02-25 03:58 am UTC (link)
	[...] One of them contacted me, Neil, and told me they thought that maybe I got pregnant on purpose to hurt Alexander and use the baby against him. That my brothers were using me to hurt that family. They told me they'd take the baby in if I couldn't handle it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash incharge 2014-02-25 03:59 am UTC (link)
	Because that's how they think, Ash. Their minds work like that, so it's the first assumption they make. [...] Yeah, I bet that's exactly what they want. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash perspective 2014-02-25 04:02 am UTC (link)
	But don't you see, Neil? You are all doing the same thing! You're accusing him of using me right now, they're accusing me of trying to hurt him! Everyone's doing the exact same thing and it's got to stop at some point! Or are you all happy being miserable and hating that family so much? When is enough going to be enough? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash incharge 2014-02-25 04:03 am UTC (link)
	~~Are you serious~~ Ash, do you understand that THEY CONSPIRED TO HAVE SAM FUCKING KILLED [A very long pause. The pen doesn't even touch the page.] What do you want, Ash? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash perspective 2014-02-25 04:07 am UTC (link)
	I want this baby to have a good life. That's all. That's all I want. Whether it's with me, or with Alexander and his family... I just want them to be loved. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash incharge 2014-02-25 04:10 am UTC (link)
	[...] You think we wouldn't love this baby? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash perspective 2014-02-25 04:13 am UTC (link)
	I think you'd love them, but you would always look at the baby and be reminded of the father. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash incharge 2014-02-25 04:14 am UTC (link)
	[Pen press.] This kid would be my niece or nephew, Ash, and I wouldn't give a damn who its father is. None of us would. But hey, nice to know how you really feel. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash perspective 2014-02-25 04:18 am UTC (link)
	How else am I supposed to feel, Neil, when it's quite clear how much the lot of you despise the Murphy's? I can't see any of you being happy with anything that's connected by blood to them! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash incharge 2014-02-25 04:19 am UTC (link)
	Of course I'm going to hate the people who tried to kill my girlfriend, Ash! What the fuck do you expect? But I would NEVER put that shit on an innocent kid. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash perspective 2014-02-25 04:23 am UTC (link)
	Sorry. I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash incharge 2014-02-25 04:24 am UTC (link)
	[Sigh.] I don't want this to tear us apart. It doesn't have to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash perspective 2014-02-25 04:24 am UTC (link)
	i'm doing a good job of making it happen (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash incharge 2014-02-25 04:25 am UTC (link)
	Don't take it all on yourself. You don't deserve that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash perspective 2014-02-25 04:26 am UTC (link)
	no, neil, i do. we both know that. i made these decisions and now i have to live with them. you've all warned me away but i thought i knew better and now it's fucked up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash incharge 2014-02-25 04:29 am UTC (link)
	Listen, it'll be okay. You can raise this baby and we'll help. If that's what you want. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash perspective 2014-02-25 04:33 am UTC (link)
	i don't even know what i want right now. other than sleep. i'm tired. but i won't sleep because i'm just going to lay here and think about what i've done. [...] matthew would have been a good father. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash incharge 2014-02-25 04:35 am UTC (link)
	Okay. Just rest. Sleep if you're tired, Ash. You'll drive yourself crazy thinking about things you can't change. [...] I know. I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: neil/ash perspective 2014-02-25 04:36 am UTC (link)
	i miss him. he'd know what to do if he was here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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