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Tweak says, "you. wish."

Maryanne Elizabeth Walker (maryanne_walker) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2022-05-13 00:54:00

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!open, alexander hamilton, maryanne walker (oe)

My head still hurts. I think mixing Blue and Beer was a baaad idea.

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	unimpeachable 2022-05-13 11:55 pm UTC (link)
	Oh sure, that must be it! He’s a good kid, he knew I needed to let loose a little. A lot. She’ll strike when you least expect it. [Private] Gotcha. Oh, so you knew what you were doing? I believe that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	maryanne_walker 2022-05-14 03:37 am UTC (link)
	He is a good kid. A very good kid, and sweet as pie too. So you did everything right. Yep. Probably drag it out on my birthday, because why not. [Private] Besides, he's a good guy. And he deserve someone like AJ. The wardrobe malfunction was not intentional though, so if you got flashed, I do apologize. I hope to god I did not flash Mr Darcy. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	unimpeachable 2022-05-14 07:00 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. I'm very proud to call him my son. Sure, sure, I'll look forward to that. [Private] Hang on, he's just made eyes at her, or he's actually slept with your ex wife now? ~~This is like one of Madrigal's~~ Oh, you didn't flash me. I was just ~~a sucker for~~ enjoying seeing what ~~you~~ some the ladies would've looked like in my own time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

maryanne_walker
2022-05-14 07:29 am UTC (link)

I'm going to gush just a little more, he is very talented too.

I have until November to bribe her. So I need something good. I might have to do a hunt for a rare, and possibly very expensive, guitar.

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He just jokingly mentioned something. And I was doing research, because I haven't been with AJ in over a year, but I suddenly wasn't a man anymore.

Okay, good. ~~I think~~ Stays are very inappropriately named. I don't think I flashed Mr. Darcy either, because I danced with Rawdon after him and I think he would have said something. ~~I hope~~ Brain function is not at the greatest.

But, since we have the dresses, though, I don't see why they couldn't be used more often. It would be a shame for all that lace and silk and pretty to gather dust.

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unimpeachable
2022-05-14 08:02 am UTC (link)

Musically? That's good to know. He seems to have had the opportunity here to explore his own passions, without the same level of career pressure he'd have had back home. ~~At some point, I must've eased off~~

~~Jokingly mentioning someone's ex sound~~ ~~What sort of re~~

Crawley? He'd probably have filmed it!

Oh, you definitely should. I'd certainly enjoy it, if no one else does.

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maryanne_walker
2022-05-14 08:25 am UTC (link)

As his teacher he does me proud. I mean listening to him play just makes my heart sing. Not to mention listening to him sing.

Alexander, no, you can't tell me that. Normally I don't mind showing, but I like to do it on my terms, not because I was being period appropriate.

If I do, at least, I'll probably be wearing more clothes. And probably not the stays. Because the whole station doesn't need to see the goods.

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	Re: Private unimpeachable 2022-05-14 08:35 am UTC (link)
	That’s wonderful to know. I was far too wasted to appreciate his karaoke skills. I’m sorry, I forget myself. ~~I’m just hungover and lon~~ I’ll back off. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private maryanne_walker 2022-05-14 08:45 am UTC (link)
	Oh I was too, but in class I'm never drunk. Shit. What's today? No I was just messing around. I was basically hoping you'd tell me that I'm fretting over nothing that nobody noticed a thing, that I don't have to bury myself under a rock in the park. You're fine. You're one person that doesn't have to back off anything. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private unimpeachable 2022-05-14 09:23 am UTC (link)
	Tuesday? Wednesday? Either way I doubt Philip is coming to class. He’s not awake. I appreciate that, but you’d just apologized to me, and here I am stirring it up again when you’ve already got a man, and I’m near tears if anyone even alludes to my wife, ~~and I’m pining for~~ I’m just… I don't mean any harm, but I think you know that already. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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maryanne_walker
2022-05-14 09:42 am UTC (link)

Oh, good. I'm related to my other students, and they already know I'm not getting off this bathroom floor.

I have no claims on anyone, and neither does anyone on me. But, I know how you feel. I can hardly stand the smell of coffee without wanting to breakdown. Still. I'm lonely without being alone.

I do. I do know that. But I do know that I like the way you make me feel, it's a few seconds where it doesn't hurt to breathe. Even if nothing comes of it. And they are just words. If they don't hurt you, they definitely don't hurt me.

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	Re: Private unimpeachable 2022-05-14 10:05 am UTC (link)
	That’s it. Last night was a great distraction, but the reality is setting in again. Ugh, hangovers. I understand that completely. I’m glad that you like it too, I don’t want to cause you any heartache. Words can be dangerous, but it sounds like we’re on the same page. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private maryanne_walker 2022-05-14 10:28 am UTC (link)
	Well, your son did post that dirty song you sang. You could prolong the distraction... If your hangover would allow it. You like it? That's why I apologized, because I thought that the things I said were hurt you. And that was the last thing I wanted. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private unimpeachable 2022-05-14 10:40 am UTC (link)
	Oh my god I’m mortified. Little asshole. Not so little. Most of the time. Sometimes I feel guilty, but that’s not on you. I was a hell of a player before Eliza, but she tamed the tom cat out of me. Mostly. I need to visualise a disappointed look and then I behave again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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maryanne_walker
2022-05-14 11:01 am UTC (link)

Don't be. I don't know how I was even able to walk home after that. Let alone without a limp. Though I don't remember walking home so... I know for next time, if I am of the male persuasion, no tight jeans.

I can't say I know her, and would know her heart, but I know about the good things she did, the things she started... And someone that would do the things she did, I don't think she'd want you miserable, Alexander.

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	Re: Private unimpeachable 2022-05-14 12:03 pm UTC (link)
	Haha, well in that case, you’re welcome, I regret nothing, and I really should do some song research for the next time. She’s the kindest, sweetest person I’ve ever known. She really wouldn’t. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private maryanne_walker 2022-05-14 05:11 pm UTC (link)
	If you get underwear thrown at you, I can't be held responsible. Maybe skirts should be crossed off wardrobe list if I'm not a man. Then do things that make you happy, without guilt. If that's being a shameless flirt, then welcome to the club. Question, do you play poker? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private unimpeachable 2022-05-14 10:02 pm UTC (link)
	~~I don't even know what that would~~ ~~Oh fuck I~~ I'm so confused. I'm far too hungover for this. ~~Why?~~ Everything hurts. Yeah. Maybe the guilt will go one day. Not well. I'm not much of a gambler. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private maryanne_walker 2022-05-15 03:09 am UTC (link)
	I'll explain, and probably apologize profusely, later after the pain subsides. You'll meet somebody that will make you happy enough that the heart will override the head. Because you are a good man, and you deserve to be happy. Really? I would have bet on you giving Rawdon a run for his money. But money isn't usually used in poker games here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private unimpeachable 2022-05-15 08:47 am UTC (link)
	I'll take notes. ~~I already~~ Maybe in time, yeah. Thank you. You do too, you know. Less of this 'deserves someone like AJ' shit. No, no, he's another level. I prefer more calculated risks. Oh, sure, I thought that's what you were getting at. ~~That's one way to figure out what kind~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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maryanne_walker
2022-05-15 09:41 am UTC (link)

It'll be a cautionary tale about tequila, with some Elvis education sprinkled in.

I'm too broken. I don't have what's needed for that level of a relationship, left. Clint took it all with him, and if there was anything left behind at all, it'll probably die next year with Tony. Besides, Peter is a good man. ~~I'm just a slut that sleeps with other women's husbands. Or wants to.~~ Before you start thinking this is the post drunken sad, I am not in a puddle on my bathroom floor. It's me not being in denial.

Okay if poker isn't your game, what is?

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unimpeachable
2022-05-15 10:53 pm UTC (link)

Lots of nonsense words, Maryanne. I was more hurting my head about ~~why you wouldn't wear a skirt and~~ what is considered underwear these days. Don't tell me now, please lord save it for the tequila and elvis chat.

I'm sorry. You've been through too much. ~~And here I'm crying about~~ If I'm ever too much, if I cause you pain rather than joy, you just shut me down, ok? Then I'll know that as long as you're not complaining, we're all good. ~~I feel like I've taken advantage of your~~

I don't know, I don't really have one. Maybe I should get Crawley to teach me and get back to you on that.

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maryanne_walker
2022-05-16 04:14 am UTC (link)

Tequila is a Spanish whiskey, its dangerous because it's good. Elvis is the King of Rock and Roll, more nonsense words I know, he is an experience you need to have, but not one you should have hungover. And... I could show you what's considered underwear. How I do that will depend on the mood.

I keep getting up. This wont conquer me, it's just taking longer than I'd like to get back up, and old tricks aren't exactly working. You will never be too much. I could listen to you talk until you're hoarse, and I could read anything you wrote until my eyes bleed. About whatever you feel like writing about or talking about. Especially if you're passionate about it. You'll have to do the same for me, if I become too much feel free to tell me to go jump in the lake.

I felt a sudden sense of doom reading those words, but I'm down for a challenge, get him to teach you all the tricks. Until then, what about billiards?

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unimpeachable
2022-05-16 09:47 pm UTC (link)

Oh no, no, we don't talk about booze right now. I cannot. Promises, promises. I'll look forward to that particular bit of education.

You're strong, but sometimes you don't want to have to be strong anymore. ~~I get that~~ High praise indeed, but I'll hold you to it. I always have too much to say. I will - if we know we can tell each other when there's a crossed line, then it's kind of freeing, and no one needs to start apologising for nothing, okay?

Ah, because you know that when I put my mind to learning something, I don't know how to go at it half-assed? Billiards I know, yeah.

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maryanne_walker
2022-05-17 04:41 am UTC (link)

Sorry sorry. I will have you know I keep my promises. But I will say, I am very glad I am not a man right now, because that statement would have brought on a lot of pain, now as is I am tempted to crawl into my shower and turn on the cold water. If you had it your way, would the showing of the modern underthings be worn? Or a tasteful displayed on a dress form?

I don't know what that would feel like, having to be strong for one reason or another has been something I've had to do since I was four. Where you are concerned I don't think there is too much, but I've also not been across the table from you while you're angry. I can agree to that. And for reference, no lines, of mine, have been crossed in this whole conversation. I'm fairly certain that, because I trust you, that there are no lines.

I don't think you go half-assed at anything, but also, if Rawdon Crawley wanted to see everyone on the station naked he'd challenge everyone to a game of cards, and this place would be a nudist colony in three to five hands. But I'm not discouraged! How about a game of Billiards, Tuesday evening, and I'll bring along my knowledge of Tequila, Elvis, and underwear?

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unimpeachable
2022-05-17 10:50 pm UTC (link)

If I'm ever asked that question, and honestly respond that I want it 'tastefully displayed', just shoot me, I've obviously lost the will to live then. Of course worn, although I suppose it might rather depend on who's doing the wearing.

It would make you nervous? Someone displaying anger, I mean? I'll never hit you. I'll promise you right now, even if I get furiously angry for some reason, I'll not hurt you. You have my word.

Ha, yes, I believe he could. Tuesday it is. What a hell of a combination.

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