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James Valerius Kushim (epipalaeolithic) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2022-01-16 00:09:00

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katherine lokadóttir, miguel o'hara, peter parker (616), tom sully jr, ~james valerius kushim, ~liberty becket

This is new. And I don't say that often. Does anyone know which company made these phones? If they haven't made millions yet, they're going to. And that is before I think about the fact that this is an actual space station like something out of a sci-fi show.

Hi. I'm James. James Valerius Kushim. Is it true that strange things happen here, and people might believe anything, no matter how unusual?

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	Private epipalaeolithic 2022-01-16 01:24 pm UTC (link)
	Are you saying you're a demigod? Yes. I'm born, I live, I die, and then I'm reborn. To new parents, in a new place. But I remember all my other lives. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private daddyissues_ 2022-01-16 01:34 pm UTC (link)
	I guess I kind of am. I'm thinking of myself more as a weird as hybrid. Mum's mostly human but has dragon, fae, supersoldier and whatnot blood in her. I'm a genetic cocktail of random shit. A grabbag heritage. Wow, that makes for an awful child-parent relationship. So, is everyone like you but no one else remembers? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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epipalaeolithic
2022-01-16 04:03 pm UTC (link)

That's very interesting. I'd allowed myself to think that all the beings we believed in years ago really were just myth, and that science was the way forward. Dragons and fae! It's remarkable. So you're not from the human world? You came here from somewhere else?

Usually. It's better to have your parents think you're a god-touched child than that you need a psychiatrist, so it used to be easier. Over the past few centuries I've tried to keep quiet about it and leave home as early as I could.

I don't know if everyone lives many lives but only I remember, or if I'm the only one. If I did something in my first life to cause it. I've been looking for answers for a long time.

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daddyissues_
2022-01-16 04:12 pm UTC (link)

Not quite... the people who arrived like you did lived on an island before we came here. That's where I grew up. So, I'm what happens when people from all kinds of different worlds continue to have babies with each other. And somewhere along the line there must have been a dragon and a fae. Don't ask me how that happened.

Oh gosh, that must have been hard both for you and the respective parents. How did you cope with it all? Living life after life and knowing that you have to start over and over again.

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epipalaeolithic
2022-01-16 04:24 pm UTC (link)

There's something nice about that. All those very different people, living together and getting along. I'd have thought that war would be one of the few human constants, even on an island.

I didn't have any choice but to cope. When I felt angry about it, I'd tell myself that I was luckier than others. I'd always have the skills to earn a living, because I kept my knowledge. No matter how bad it got, it was better than staying dead. No matter what goes wrong, I always have another chance. I've had a lot of time to learn from my mistakes.

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daddyissues_
2022-01-16 04:37 pm UTC (link)

Oh, there have been battles and disagreements over the time. In my time, my mother was killed by others. But for the most parts, we have faced enough outside threats to band together. And right now, in this time, we are all so different. Either we are all outsiders or maybe we are just the same. A single person who would rise against the others will not survive and every group that would form based on a shared background would still be small.

I wish I could have your mind set. It seems admirable. Did you never wish you could just die? Did it never get dull? The same patterns of life repeating again and again?

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epipalaeolithic
2022-01-16 04:57 pm UTC (link)

My condolences for your mother. That must have been a terrible loss. I think I will fit in well enough in this time, though. It is hard to take sides when you might be born among your enemies next time.

Lots of it was very dull, but at the time, I expected that life would be dull, or at least hard work. We accepted it, because so much of our time was taken up with the essential matters of survival. Actual boredom is a luxury for the lives when you are rich, I think. And some things never get dull. Like falling in love, or raising your children. There are times I have wanted to truly die, and hated that I couldn't, yes. I won't deny it. I have ~~done~~ seen some terrible things. But when I fall into that mindset, I think the mind affects the body. I don't want to live, and so I die of a childhood disease that I might otherwise have seen off, and once you have been through that a few times you decide to fight for a better life instead.

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daddyissues_
2022-01-17 08:58 am UTC (link)

Thank you. I am glad I am getting to know her now. Sometimes people from different times or alternate timelines can arrive here too. She is one of them.

I agree with your assessment. And now you should be able to at least tell some who you are and that you were reborn.

I am sorry that you went through this. I'm glad to hear that love and children are still an amazing experience even after so many countless times. How did you get over their losses? I've lost my partner half a year ago. I don't know if I can ever let go.

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epipalaeolithic
2022-01-17 03:48 pm UTC (link)

Your reaction to hearing the truth is definitely the most balanced I've come across yet. Maybe I will tell others. If I don't, though, can you do something for me? In the event that I die here, warn whichever woman next falls pregnant. I might be sent on somewhere else, but I might not.

I think your losses are made more difficult by hope, and perhaps that sounds strange, but if there is a chance that your loved ones could arrive here from a different time, it must make it harder to let go. To accept the finality of it. As for me, I have been through it enough that the pain is a dull one, and I know at the beginning of any love that I will outlast it. Worse for me was when I would die first, because not many times and places are kind to widows and orphans. I learnt to make provision early, because nothing is certain.

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