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Dean Winchester (cram_it_ugly) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-01-01 19:13:00

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An apology.
My New Years resolutions were to eat more pie, ~~have more sex,~~ and to quit procrastinating and actually write this thing. So here it is:

I, Dean Winchester, would like to apologize for killing Stefan Salvatore. I should have tried to stop him instead of going on instinct and taking him out.

I'd also like to state that I support Damon Salvatore's security reform idea.

~~Why does this feel like an ad for a politi~~

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Dean

strappedonwings
2013-01-02 05:06 am UTC (link)

You're concerned about what the vampire's entitled to from you? You didn't kill her. That's it. That's where your duty ends. You don't owe her a date. You don't owe her one for the road.

And I doubt you'd give a fuck about her rights if you hadn't fucked her first. She didn't tell you what she was cause she expected you to say no. She lied to get you into bed. Bet she got off on it, bagging a hunter.

I'm not asking you to justify anything. I just wanna know where my friend went and who are you in his place.

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Cas

cram_it_ugly
2013-01-02 05:18 am UTC (link)

What did she owe me, then? Huh? I killed one of theirs, or did you forget that little bit? I didn't have anyone to back me up when I did it either. But your other you, and he's just as human as you are, with three kids. Three little kids.

Yeah, maybe. Or maybe I had something that a 500 + vampire liked. Is that that hard to believe? I mean other me has something you like pretty well.

I'm still me.

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	Dean strappedonwings 2013-01-02 05:23 am UTC (link)
	So you screwed her out of gratitude? For something someone else didn't do to you? I'm not questing her judgement. I'm questioning yours. She's doing what I'd expect a vampire to do. Then why are you going tonight? You don't owe monsters dates Dean. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cas cram_it_ugly 2013-01-02 05:34 am UTC (link)
	No, I screwed her because I liked it. Because it felt good. Because I didn't know. Because I like sex, and she offered it no strings. Hell she ripped my shirt off in the street, while I was covered in oil and grease and other car grime. Because she won me in an auction to help repair your Spa. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Dean strappedonwings 2013-01-02 05:37 am UTC (link)
	And because you thought she was something she wasn't. Or doesn't that matter to you anymore. I am NOT pimping you out to fix the fucking spa. I'd rather rebuilt it myself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cas cram_it_ugly 2013-01-02 05:44 am UTC (link)
	It matters. You didn't pimp me out. I pimped myself out. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Dean strappedonwings 2013-01-02 05:56 am UTC (link)
	Good. Cause when he blur that line we're done for. You know what we are. Well it's the last thing I'd ever want. If that's the price I want nothing to do with the spa. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Cas

cram_it_ugly
2013-01-02 09:18 am UTC (link)

Yeah, but what good is it if a hunter cant' hunt, Cas? What good am I here? Huh? You want me to get comfortable being here, you want me to get settled and enjoy myself, and the second I do... You become a bag of dicks all over again. I don't need a Mom in this Cas.

Right now it's just dinner, but whether or not you want her help, I'm going through with it. It's the right thing to do, and I'm sorry if you can't see that. Because somebody would probably really enjoy using the rest of the place.

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	Dean strappedonwings 2013-01-02 09:45 am UTC (link)
	I don't care how much tail you get Dean. That isn't what this is about. What you're doing is freaking me out. What I see is you trusting a vampire, showing it way more consideration than just keeping the peace. You're not talking like you Dean. I don't know you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Cas

cram_it_ugly
2013-01-02 10:10 am UTC (link)

Well, I'm going to end up screwing somebody who's a monster, Cas. Because you know what I've learned since coming here? That this is where they go to procreate, and there are maybe two or three women that are absolutely human. And absolutely not interested.

What you should be seeing is someone who can defend himself against vampires, who's keeping a promise, and not breaking it just because you thought I should have put stipulations on my application.

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	Dean strappedonwings 2013-01-02 10:12 am UTC (link)
	So your answer is to lay yourself open to someone the other vampires find monstrous? What I see is someone who killed the monsters Sam fucked while taking one for yourself while you tell me you're different to him. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Cas

cram_it_ugly
2013-01-02 10:22 am UTC (link)

You know, maybe that's why she sought me out, because they treat her like a leper. Maybe that's why she didn't tell me that she was one, because she thought if she did I'd stick a stake in her heart, or whatever, as soon as look at her. Because they've made her feel like a fucking monster.

I didn't think you'd be so hypocritical, Cas, considering you were an Angel, what the angels have done to me, and future me is still fucking you.

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	Dean strappedonwings 2013-01-02 10:26 am UTC (link)
	So now you're adopting he monsters the other monsters reject? And maybe they made her feel like a fucking monster because she is a fucking monster. And they are fucking supposed to be scared of you. Notice how I fought against them even though they were my family? So you think I'm a bigger monster than Katherine. That's great Dean. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cram_it_ugly 2013-01-02 10:41 am UTC (link)
	I'm done with this conversation, Cas. I'm tired of you trying to shrink my head. And get into it. Because you're getting it all wrong, while you try. So see whatever picture you want, because I'm done. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	strappedonwings 2013-01-02 10:44 am UTC (link)
	How do I get you're fucking an insane vampire wrong Dean? Even out of obligation you'd never do that. Ever. Do what you want. I warn you because I love you but whatever. I can't compare to a good fuck. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cram_it_ugly 2013-01-03 12:43 am UTC (link)
	You're just looking to fucking far into it Cas. If I wanted a Mother, instead of a friend, I sure as hell wouldn't have told you about it at all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	strappedonwings 2013-01-03 02:10 am UTC (link)
	No. I'm not. You're talking about this vampire like she was a human woman. I'm as thrown as I should be considering who you are. Friends don't just agree with everything you do, Dean. If you want lackies look somewhere else. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cram_it_ugly 2013-01-03 07:46 am UTC (link)
	I am not, now get this really clear... You know what, forget it. If what's important to you is that she's a monster or not, fine. If it doesn't matter that I was going to keep my word to you, fine. If you can't be friends with me without judging me... You know. Forget it. I see what's more important to you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	strappedonwings 2013-01-03 07:54 am UTC (link)
	I'm not judging you Dean. I'm trying to figure out how you went from killing them on sight to this. I don't understand why you changed so much like you didn't understand when Sam did. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cram_it_ugly 2013-01-03 08:06 am UTC (link)
	Sounds like judgement to me Cas. And it also seems like you're not paying attention to what I'm telling you, so that makes it more than a little useless to talk to you. You read what you want into whatever I've said instead of what I've actually said, that's fine, but don't expect me to be happy about the bullshit you're scooping. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	strappedonwings 2013-01-03 08:31 am UTC (link)
	This isn't you, Dean. Kissing vampires just is like nothing you've ever done. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cram_it_ugly 2013-01-03 08:46 am UTC (link)
	No, this is me getting pissed off. It's like you can't read exactly what I'm saying. Either that or what I'm actually saying isn't good enough. If that's the case you can cram it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	strappedonwings 2013-01-03 08:55 am UTC (link)
	It doesn't explain the change. Nothing could have made you cosy up to a vampire short of a glamour. Not even obligation. Only now you have. I wanna know why monsters are suddenly okay with you. You were so... absolute. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Cas

cram_it_ugly
2013-01-03 10:22 am UTC (link)

Cas. Do I really need to spell it out for you. Again? I didn't know until you told me she was a vampire. Just because I found that out doesn't mean I'm going to go back on something I promised I would do. When I said I'd call it quits with her I meant it. But after the auction date.

I can't believe your having such a problem with me keeping a promise. I'm not the only one she bid on. But she is the only one that bid on me.

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Dean

strappedonwings
2013-01-03 12:35 pm UTC (link)

And don't pretend this is about duty and a promise you made before you knew. I can see you flirting. Now you know what she is. You're getting off on this. I can fucking see it and you're lying to me. Just like Sam did about Ruby.

What would you think if I started flirting with demons? What's with making yourself vulnerable to her?

You know the risk and you're playing it down cause you think she gives a shit about you. Like Sam did with Ruby.

They lie, Dean. They look for our needs and they exploit them. Vampires, demons. They're the same. If it was anyone else I wouldn't care but its you. I can't believe you're letting a vampire get under your skin. It's a rookie mistake. It's one you'd never make.

So who are you? What verse did you live in where you never learned that lesson? When did you start trusting vampires Dean? Cause it's what you're doing.

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