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Dean Winchester (cram_it_ugly) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2013-01-01 19:13:00

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An apology.
My New Years resolutions were to eat more pie, ~~have more sex,~~ and to quit procrastinating and actually write this thing. So here it is:

I, Dean Winchester, would like to apologize for killing Stefan Salvatore. I should have tried to stop him instead of going on instinct and taking him out.

I'd also like to state that I support Damon Salvatore's security reform idea.

~~Why does this feel like an ad for a politi~~

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	strappedonwings 2013-01-03 07:54 am UTC (link)
	I'm not judging you Dean. I'm trying to figure out how you went from killing them on sight to this. I don't understand why you changed so much like you didn't understand when Sam did. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cram_it_ugly 2013-01-03 08:06 am UTC (link)
	Sounds like judgement to me Cas. And it also seems like you're not paying attention to what I'm telling you, so that makes it more than a little useless to talk to you. You read what you want into whatever I've said instead of what I've actually said, that's fine, but don't expect me to be happy about the bullshit you're scooping. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	strappedonwings 2013-01-03 08:31 am UTC (link)
	This isn't you, Dean. Kissing vampires just is like nothing you've ever done. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	cram_it_ugly 2013-01-03 08:46 am UTC (link)
	No, this is me getting pissed off. It's like you can't read exactly what I'm saying. Either that or what I'm actually saying isn't good enough. If that's the case you can cram it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	strappedonwings 2013-01-03 08:55 am UTC (link)
	It doesn't explain the change. Nothing could have made you cosy up to a vampire short of a glamour. Not even obligation. Only now you have. I wanna know why monsters are suddenly okay with you. You were so... absolute. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Cas

cram_it_ugly
2013-01-03 10:22 am UTC (link)

Cas. Do I really need to spell it out for you. Again? I didn't know until you told me she was a vampire. Just because I found that out doesn't mean I'm going to go back on something I promised I would do. When I said I'd call it quits with her I meant it. But after the auction date.

I can't believe your having such a problem with me keeping a promise. I'm not the only one she bid on. But she is the only one that bid on me.

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Dean

strappedonwings
2013-01-03 12:35 pm UTC (link)

And don't pretend this is about duty and a promise you made before you knew. I can see you flirting. Now you know what she is. You're getting off on this. I can fucking see it and you're lying to me. Just like Sam did about Ruby.

What would you think if I started flirting with demons? What's with making yourself vulnerable to her?

You know the risk and you're playing it down cause you think she gives a shit about you. Like Sam did with Ruby.

They lie, Dean. They look for our needs and they exploit them. Vampires, demons. They're the same. If it was anyone else I wouldn't care but its you. I can't believe you're letting a vampire get under your skin. It's a rookie mistake. It's one you'd never make.

So who are you? What verse did you live in where you never learned that lesson? When did you start trusting vampires Dean? Cause it's what you're doing.

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Cas

cram_it_ugly
2013-01-03 11:20 pm UTC (link)

Cas do you know me? I mean really know me? Who haven't I flirted with in this fucking place? Besides the Jimmy's kid and the ones young enough to be my kids. Even then, the cheerleader you caught me flirting with her.

I'd wonder about you, because the Cas I know is still a virgin. But I wouldn't be treating you like this, I'd watch your back instead, and trust your judgement. What makes you think i'm making myself vulnerable to her? I'm not spouting fucking poetry at her. Or any of that other bullshit.

Unless you haven't noticed there's a whole ass load of vampires in this place. And they're not all like the ones at home, Cas. Mitchell, for instance, is a pretty nice guy. That Cutler guy, he's organized things so that the other vampires don't go fucking nuts and start killing people, and I hear he's getting off of blood.

And she's not under my fucking skin.

This isn't home, Cas. Wasn't it you that said I needed to adapt?

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Dean

strappedonwings
2013-01-04 02:17 am UTC (link)

I thought I knew you. I get this place is different. Keep the peace, fine, but flirting with vampires is a world away from flirting with girls for you. Girls doesn't worry me. Monsters... to me I don't care so much. I know they aren't all what they seem but you never crossed that line. You never wanted to.

And you'd be right to worry but not because I was a virgin.

Adapt yeah. Start losing who you are and all that stuff you learned the hard way? No.

And sex makes you vulnerable. It's an act of trust and risk. She has a monsters power. It's nothing to her to snap your neck as you screw her.

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Cas

cram_it_ugly
2013-01-04 09:53 am UTC (link)

I crossed it without knowing what she was, Cas. Do you have to keep harping on this?

But I'd also know you could take care of yourself. Something you should know about me. Or I thought you knew.

So what does that mean, Cas, I have to hold auditions for you now? Make sure that none of the girl's asses that I'm looking at aren't human?

I don't know how you do it man, but I don't do it like that. I don't know how much Future me has changed to make you think that sex is an act of trust with me. And I'm very aware, now, that she could full on praying mantis me. This isn't about sex tonight Cas.

And it's going to happen no matter how long you bitch about it.

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Dean

strappedonwings
2013-01-04 12:39 pm UTC (link)

And now you know you're still making eyes at her.

Well I thought you weren't into vampires either but looks like we're off the playsheet.

Then what the fuck is it Dean? You're making moves on her. I can see it. So don't tell me it's about abligation. You're acting way out of character.

Yeah. Can't disappoint vampires. That's the Dean Winchester way.

Who the fuck are you?

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Cas

cram_it_ugly
2013-01-04 10:19 pm UTC (link)

Hi, my name is Dean Winchester. I'm an Aquarius, I enjoy sunsets, long walks on the beach, AND FRISKY WOMEN. Have we met?

I'm not making moves. I'm saying a nice goodbye. Instead of not answering her phone calls because she COULD KILL ME. Treating her like she's human, and I'm Sam for one night wont hurt me. And no I'm not treating her like she's fucking Ruby so don't go there.

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	Dean strappedonwings 2013-01-05 12:14 am UTC (link)
	She's not a woman Dean. See, showing a vampire a night on the town is the last thing Dean Winchester would do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cas cram_it_ugly 2013-01-05 12:27 am UTC (link)
	Sure fooled me, I mean she's got a tremendous rack, and all the right lady parts. She sure looks like a woman, and tastes like one too. Cas, one night isn't going to kill me, or you. I promise. If it does, well you can tell my ashes that you told me so. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Dean strappedonwings 2013-01-05 12:30 am UTC (link)
	You seriously telling me there's no difference to you between a woman and a vampire? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cas cram_it_ugly 2013-01-05 12:38 am UTC (link)
	You are seriously missing the point. Cas I knew you were clueless but this is obviously too much for you. Go to bed, once you're done being a dick, we can, maybe, talk about this another day. Unless you wont ever be done being a dick then this conversion wont ever happen again. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Dean strappedonwings 2013-01-05 12:55 am UTC (link)
	How am I being a dick? You're the one making no sense. I'm just being fucking baffled by you not acting like you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Cas

cram_it_ugly
2013-01-05 05:37 am UTC (link)

You can't just let this go. You've got to study the hell out of it. And it makes me really wish I hadn't told you anything. It can't be just what it was, me getting sex from an incredibly hot chick. It has to be some blimish on my character because it was vampire.

And now not only is that some smudge on my soul, me trying to make it right with her is too. Again because she's a vampire.

Because you want me to stay the same. I can't grow up any and try to get over the race boundries because, lets behonest, I'm not allowed to actually be a hunter here, and in order to get along I have to see passed certain abnormalities like... no heartbeat. Because when I did 'act like me' they wanted to hunt me down with torches and pitchforks.

And where were you, Cas? Instead of making nice with the natives and maybe dropping grudges for five seconds and accepting help while it was there, and actually coming to help me out, because other you has his hands full with three babies, you were off playing tarzan and jane with other me. And I had to depend on a woman who had just had a kid, and was helping other you with his babies by feeding them 'food' that was rightfully her kid's, to talk the vampires down from draw and quartering me in the middle of the jungle.

And now you want to judge me and lecture me. Well that's just peachy. But I've reached the top knotch of my bullshit meter. And I'm afraid we're going to have to save some for later.

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Dean

strappedonwings
2013-01-05 06:08 am UTC (link)

Yes. Because she's a vampire and you're Dean Winchester. Making things right with monsters was always beneath your consideration.

I don't expect you to hunt them. Again. I told you when you did that it was a bad idea and I meant it. At least unless they're attacking innocents but there's a difference between calling a truce and inviting monsters to dinner dates. You can keep the peace here without making it personal. Certainly without dating them.

When did you ask for my help? I asked after you over and over and you never said "hey, Cas, can you give me a hand with this?" You know I would have without question but I can't read your mind any more if you recall. If you're relaying on women who just had babies that's on you. Not me. And I can promise you I wasn't playing. I was in the forest, hunting for food for the people at the camp with teeth. Thanks for asking before you accused me though. Like I said if you needed back up you should have called for it cause I didn't know where you were.

I'm not judging you Dean. I'm trying to work out how you changed so much I don't know you. Like I said over and over so while you're accusing me of not listening maybe you should take some of that for yourself.

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	Cas cram_it_ugly 2013-01-06 12:03 pm UTC (link)
	How well do you know me Cas? The Dean you know is into dudes. And I'm really tired of the lectures. And no matter how much you say it, it's you judging me. No mater how you want to paint it to yourself that's what it sounds like to me. I'm not your Dean. So I'm some alien invaded body or some other ridiculous bullshit. Thanks for that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Dean

strappedonwings
2013-01-06 12:21 pm UTC (link)

He's not into dudes. He's into me. That's it. Other than that he's straight but that says nothing about his character.

I don't expect you to be him but I expect you to be something like him, like you were before it all went to shit.

For the very last time I'm not judging you. I'm not interested in judging you. You seem to wanna believe that cause it's easy to ignore if it's just me being a dick.

You were a brother to me, you were the one I followed. I saw things in you, you showed me your way of being. I put my faith in that.

As for you as you are now I don't know. Enough to be worried. Enough to wonder why. Enough to know a hunter should never cross that line and I thought you'd be the last one to do it cause you know, for sure, how bad it can get. Cause there were humans and there was everything else. Cause you were the one to stand up for humanity and the innocents against all odds. I may not have always agreed with you but you never hid who you were and where you stood.

I do know she is one of the worst, as far as her kind goes. I doubt her kind are lying about that.

Historically it wasn't here.

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	Cas cram_it_ugly 2013-01-06 12:38 pm UTC (link)
	What part of done with talking about this, and my bullshit meter being full, don't you understand? I'm sick of it Cas, if you aren't judging me then your accusing me. So I'm through with it. So be through with it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Dean strappedonwings 2013-01-06 12:43 pm UTC (link)
	Accusing you of what? Acting weird? You are. That's all I accused you of. You're acting weird. For you. I'm not gonna apologize for noticing what's in front of me or for being worried about it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Cas cram_it_ugly 2013-01-07 04:07 am UTC (link)
	Fine, worry, don't be sorry. I don't give a rats ass. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Dean strappedonwings 2013-01-07 07:15 am UTC (link)
	Yeah. You made that clear. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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