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Tweak says, "I am your father"

Abigail Hobbs (abigail_hobbs) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2017-04-09 19:49:00

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abigail hobbs, finn collins, will graham

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Pop

I'm gonna ask Finn to come over. I need us all under the same roof.

Finn

Can you come over? Please.

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	abigail_hobbs 2017-04-17 02:14 am UTC (link)
	He wasn't the one talking about killing Anders. I like what we have now. I am a coward. I'm terrified of losing you and Pop and all of this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_spacewalker 2017-04-17 02:40 am UTC (link)
	Babe, if he had done the things he was... If he was even talking about you the way he was the woman at the farm... I would have rang his neck myself. I know he was your friend, and I'm only sorry he's gone for that reason alone. I'll think good thoughts for us both then. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

abigail_hobbs
2017-04-17 03:12 am UTC (link)

Then you'd have to ring my neck too. I was influenced by a god too. And a bunch of people that slut shamed one of my papa's patients. And Adele's father if he comes back. He said horrible things about Sookie when they broke up. There's probably more over the years, I can't even think of them all.

Or you can choose not to kill because someone's rude, not kill over words ~~I had that fear with Papa, not you too.~~

Even if I'm gone tomorrow, you don't have to kill for me. You don't have to join Katherine's plans, whatever those plans are. I want you to have a long life.

Just keep the good thoughts. And be happy with me.

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_spacewalker
2017-04-17 03:36 am UTC (link)

He wasn't influenced by a god when he was saying all those things Abigail. He was talking about a person like they were some... thing that he could just stick his dick in. A person that someone else loved.

I wouldn't kill him, unless he actually put his hands on you, and you didn't want him to. Over words... I'd break his nose, if not a few other bones.

I love you, Abigail. I'd kill for you if you were gone tomorrow. I'd be on the front lines. I wouldn't care anymore. You're all I've got, all I have to lose.

I just... want to think of alternate versions of what might happen. Where I get to stay with you.

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abigail_hobbs
2017-04-17 03:46 am UTC (link)

He was. He had to live with that god in his head every day. He was never free of it. Maybe now he has some peace in death.

I should introduce you to Sookie, and Katherine, and the Sullys. Maybe someday Pop can be like your Pop-in-law. Especially if we're all under the same roof.

I shouldn't be your everything. Because I could be gone. I know you could be gone too. It sucks. It's a part of life.

You're here now. With me now. Let's enjoy that.

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	_spacewalker 2017-04-17 06:40 am UTC (link)
	He died? Maybe, though he has asked me to call him Will. Which is a little weird, but something I'll survive. I think. I don't like thinking about it. Yes. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	abigail_hobbs 2017-04-17 05:59 pm UTC (link)
	That's what I think happened. That's not weird. His name's Will. If he asked you to call him Mike, that'd be weird. Let's cuddle and watch movies tonight. Not serious movies. Something silly. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_spacewalker 2017-04-18 12:07 am UTC (link)
	Why do you think that? I know but he's older than me, and very... Adult. But you're right, Mike would be a little weird. A lot of silly movies? It'll help build up things in my mind. ~~Besides going home, and dying at Clarke's hand.~~ (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	abigail_hobbs 2017-04-18 01:39 am UTC (link)
	I can put two and two together. You'll have to see him playing with Thor and Toby. I'm hoping it'll clear up some of the bad stuff in my mind. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_spacewalker 2017-04-18 01:48 am UTC (link)
	But you didn't die here when you went back... I would have gone crazy if you had. Think he'd let his guard down enough to do that in front of me? Me too. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	abigail_hobbs 2017-04-18 01:54 am UTC (link)
	That's not what I meant. Yeah, he can't let the dogs go without attention. What movie should we start with? Something with cute animals? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_spacewalker 2017-04-18 02:17 am UTC (link)
	What did you mean? Do you think someone killed him? Oh true. I didn't think. That cartoon movie Sing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	abigail_hobbs 2017-04-18 02:20 am UTC (link)
	Yes. Maybe you could all have a game of frisbee. Sing's perfect. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_spacewalker 2017-04-18 05:09 am UTC (link)
	Why do you think that? Maybe. We'll have to see. As long as no one from the movie shows up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	abigail_hobbs 2017-04-18 01:33 pm UTC (link)
	Because I know when someone says they want to kill someone else, sooner or later, they do it. Some cute animals might be good for the island. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_spacewalker 2017-04-18 08:57 pm UTC (link)
	No one found any bodies. That's an awful big accusation. They could be. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	abigail_hobbs 2017-04-18 09:10 pm UTC (link)
	They never found those girls my dad killed. Yeah. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	_spacewalker 2017-04-19 03:54 am UTC (link)
	Yeah but this place is a lot smaller. And crawling with people that kinda have a knack for figuring that stuff out. Your Pop being one. Outright killing someone wouldn't be smart. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

abigail_hobbs
2017-04-19 03:46 pm UTC (link)

Killing them around the same time as disappearances is very smart.

Some people must know. I can't be the only one to notice that the people who get threatened 'disappear' afterwards.

I killed my dad when he was here. Pop probably knows. Others might too.

This isn't like my world or your ark. We don't have FBI locking people up and we don't float anyone. Which is a good thing. I'll take being afraid of dying over being afraid Jack Crawford locking me up any day.

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_spacewalker
2017-04-20 03:26 am UTC (link)

Yeah, but that would take knowing people are going to disappear. And when. I don't think anyone can know that. Besides the things that brought us here.

Who else has vanished after being threatened?

You probably did this place a service.

Sorry.

No it's not, but we've got people who aren't human, people who aren't real in most places. People who are more lawful good than anyone on the ark.

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abigail_hobbs
2017-04-20 06:57 pm UTC (link)

Or noticing the missing names right when it happened and then choosing to kill to make it seem like it was all part of the same group.

Who else? A girl not much older than me who talked about someone's picture. A mentally ill, possibly disabled woman that my Papa was treating. I don't want to think of any others. I'll have worse nightmares.

Lawful? Maryanne is the law here. She makes sure that we all know we're never, ever to cross her. She makes sure she knows we're not strong as her, not as smart as her and she causes us all to fear, triggers PTSD when we hear about the terrible ways she can make people suffer and die. Do you think she cared about the pain she caused me when she talked about putting people in cookpots or when she brought my Papa into her argument with Anders? It's her way, her law, too bad for my pain. You know all of this. We've talked about it before, about how we can all suffer through it in order to live. It's just the way life is here.

I don't know what's good. Some people probably think it's good that Anders is gone. Some people might think it's good that my dad and Nicholas Boyle are dead. Papa thought it was good that I was my Dad's lure because it allowed me to live. I thought Papa was good, no matter what.

I don't believe in good and bad anymore. Except for you and Pop and a few others that I know are good.

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	_spacewalker 2017-04-21 01:03 am UTC (link)
	She'd have to move exceptionally fast, and she lives outside the city. With children. ~~I think you'~~ Why don't you bring this up to other people if you think she's so bad? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

abigail_hobbs
2017-04-21 01:20 am UTC (link)

Other people have read the same scary things I have. They don't need reminders.

I know how to live with fear. I've done it all my life. So do other people here. Some of them are afraid of me.

It's best to just live our lives, enjoy them while we can. We'll have cuddles and movies tonight and I'll make you a big breakfast in the morning. Bacon or something different if you want.

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	_spacewalker 2017-04-21 02:31 am UTC (link)
	You have your reasons. You care about hers? ~~I know why she wanted to Anders bodily harm~~ who's afraid of you? I don't know.. I think I'm going to go to the shop. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	abigail_hobbs 2017-04-21 02:40 am UTC (link)
	I care about surviving and you and pop and Katherine and so many things. I don't want to lose anything more. Anyone who's seen me in the fog or when Hel was in my head or when I was fighting the zombie-robot things could be. But you said you'd definitely be here. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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