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Tweak says, "you have a lot going for you"

daddyissues_ (daddyissues_) wrote in compass_network,
@ 2017-04-08 23:21:00

Entry tags:

abigail hobbs, dean winchester, kytana montrose, sarah sully, shepard, x-23 (oe), ~amy fitzwilliam, ~feyre, ~rhysand, ~tony stark

(Ooc: Posted the day after the majority of drops is gone.)

I have enough. I'm done with this place. I'm getting out of here. Whether it seems impossible or not. I an no slave.

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	ernestoic 2017-04-10 06:18 am UTC (link)
	And you say it with such pride. My son has gone, again. Not that he was the same man I knew, but you know. Honestly, it worries me. As much as I agree that things can't continue like this, I'm afraid of losing the life I've built here. How can we guarantee that we aren't all just scattered back throughout time and space? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	daddyissues_ 2017-04-10 06:24 am UTC (link)
	One has to be proud of something. I am sorry, Ernest. I am so tired of this phrase. We can't. But I will not let fear be my shackle anymore. We might not even leave this place. But I want control. We are slaves with a broken will. That's how he works. He keeps everyone scared. If he would be untouchable, he would not need to. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

ernestoic
2017-04-10 06:36 am UTC (link)

True enough. I'm obnoxiously proud of being an asshole, sometimes.

Yeah, I'm tired of hearing it, too.

I understand your point. I worry every day. I worry about falling asleep in case I wake up alone here, or back in Florida. And usually I would agree with you. I've charged headfirst into battle more times than I can tell you. I've pulled a punch or a gun at a dirty look or sharp tongue. In other words, I've been extremely reckless and prone to acting before thinking since... always. If you'd asked me last year, I'd have been first in line to fuck up our dear dictator.

I don't know what that makes me now. I really don't know. I suppose it's that Abi and Charlie have become more important to me than... well, anything. I don't want to risk losing them.

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	daddyissues_ 2017-04-10 06:42 am UTC (link)
	And so you should be. Yes. That's why we are doing it. His eyes will be directed at us, not you. But is not the status quo a risk? I've heard of Nazi Germany and this place makes me feel like a jew waiting for deportation. This place has taken more people than it has left you with. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	ernestoic 2017-04-10 06:48 am UTC (link)
	This place has also given me my health, my partner, my family, my life. The status quo is definitely a risk, and in any other world, I'd be charging on in like a bull. I guess I'm just finally feeling what it's like to have something to lose. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private daddyissues_ 2017-04-10 06:51 am UTC (link)
	And I will try to keep you from losing anyone. This post should ensure that he knows who to target. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private ernestoic 2017-04-10 07:51 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. I appreciate that. Good luck, and be safe. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Private daddyissues_ 2017-04-10 10:10 am UTC (link)
	Thank you. I'll try my best and if I die, I expect a eulogy filled with swear words. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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