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Email to Tim


Tim,

So you wanted to know one really good reason why I could never be with a woman and here it is. When I was 12 years old I was molested. The man in question never actually fucked me, but he went down on me ever chance he got. Told me he would kill Sarah if I told anyone about it and I believed him. I repressed the memory for a long time but then Bucky and I started being physical and it just brought everything back up.

I've been going to therapy but I still can't get that image of him between my legs out of my head. I have a panic attack just thinking about someone being down there. And since it's kind of essential in a relationship with a woman, you can now understand why that wouldn't exactly be a possibility for me.

I'm sorry that I've been a selfish bitch lately. I'm sorry that I've been such a downer. And I'm sorry that I've dumped all of my relationship crap onto you when you're trying to be happy. I've learned from my mistakes, though, and I can assure you they will never happen again.

I really hope that you and TJ are happy together for however long it's meant to be.



Rachel