InsaneJournal

Tweak says, "Four to beam up."

Sam Winchester (gradeafreak) wrote in colligo_network,
@ 2013-01-13 21:11:00

Entry tags:

adam milligan, benny lafitte, dean winchester, elizabeth lafitte, gabriel, jo harvelle-wuornos, lucifer, sam winchester

Right. So. Hi. I'm Sam, and I have no idea what is going on.

Any chance someone out there could offer up an explanation?

(Read comments) - (Post a new comment)

gradeafreak
2013-01-14 07:22 am UTC (link)

So now you're blaming me for things I haven't even done? Is that how this is going to go? Really?

And of course you're allowed to grow as a person. But expecting me to just take all of this in stride, acting like somehow I'm to blame because I'm not okay with all of this? That's not growth, Dean. That's you trying to take the high road and paint me out to be the one who is somehow screwing up when I'm only doing what you and dad taught me to do when things aren't adding up right.

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

righteousman
2013-01-14 07:31 am UTC (link)

I didn't know you weren't from then when I said it. After that, I was just clarifying.

I'm not saying you're to blame, Sammy. But, jesus christ, you could try trusting me. The fact of the matter is that this is my life here, and I'm not going to pretend it's not. Take all the time you want to sort it out. But it's not changing.

Whenever you're settled, feel free to come by. You can meet Claire and the kids.

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

gradeafreak
2013-01-14 07:37 am UTC (link)

Trust you? This isn't about trust and I never said anything had to change. I just...

Dean, look at this from my perspective. I show up, find out that you're here, you're chummy with Lucifer, you're friends with a vampire, and you don't even tell me you're married. I have to find that out from Gabriel, first. At this point, I'm still trying to figure out if you're actually you because everything I have ever been taught or told tells me not to buy into any of this.

And see that? Right there? The casual mention that you have kids, like that's something I should easily see you doing? That's what I'm talking about!

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

righteousman
2013-01-14 07:45 am UTC (link)

This is everything to do with trust, Sam.

I was dealing with you immediately jumping on Lucifer, who I'm definitely not chummy with thank you, and Benny and everything else. I was going to get to Claire and the kids, but then Gabriel beat me to it like an asshole. And yes, I have kids. Jack and Meri are eleven and Gabi's six. It's a thing with this place. Sometimes kids grow up a little overnight. Then there's Emma. And Jesse. You remember them? Before you say anything, Emma is trying. And if you try to kill her again, I won't even have to do anything, because Gabriel will turn you inside out. He has a soft spot for her. Not saying you will, just putting it out there.

I have kids. It's just a fact. And not one I'm going to hide, because I'm not ashamed of my kids.

(Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

gradeafreak
2013-01-14 12:22 pm UTC (link)

You aren't listening to anything I'm saying, Dean. I never said you should be ashamed of your kids, and I'm not saying I don't trust your judgement. I'm saying that I don't see why you don't get how hard all of this is to just buy into. I'm not attacking you and I'm getting a little tired of you acting like you're being persecuted, here. Like I'm the one at fault for not ignoring a lifetime of training because someone who looks like my brother, but isn't acting like him, tells me it's okay to do that.

(Reply to this) (Parent)

(Read comments) -