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Tweak says, "Mel is better than Cookies!"

theboywhowaited (theboywhowaited) wrote in colligo_network,
@ 2011-11-13 14:50:00

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idris, jack harkness, rory williams, the doctor (11)

[Meant to be private to River, but very much public]

...Mels. Melody. Listen to me. I...can't say I understand. I don't know what's happening exactly, but we've known each other our whole lives. I know...I know you might be angry at me, I'm angry at me. I didn't protect you. I didn't help you. I wasn't there for you and you deserve better. But more importantly...all of this is my fault.

If you want to blame anyone, blame me. Not the Doctor. The Doctor saved me. He saved Amy. He made our lives have meaning and...he's my best friend. It's my fault that this has happened to you. It's my fault you didn't have a dad, didn't have a childhood, that things turned out this way.

Please. Talk to me. Let the Doctor's friends go.

[Actually private to Jack]

...I need your help. I'm going to try and find River. Do you think you could maybe give me a hand...?

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( Rory )

amadmanwithabox
2011-11-15 05:11 am UTC (link)

You're welcome.

I guess so.

I hope that we can. I mean we will. Things in this city never stay changed. She'll go back to being River soon enough. But she's not Mels. Not exactly. Parts of Mels are there, but we change.

That means a lot to me. But Rory, you need to realise that I might not walk away from this. Melody can kill me. She has done before. You need to be prepared for that possibility.

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Eleventh Doctor

theboywhowaited
2011-11-15 05:28 am UTC (link)

I...still don't get it, but. Doctor. She is not going to kill you. You are not dying again, I will not let that happen.

You are...listen, so. I don't know. Thick...sort of. Sometimes. I mean, you're brilliant. And. And kind. And mad, all dashing through the universe but you don't see. You help people! And. Save people, and you're so old but you still do it even after everything. And yes, I can be...sort of thick and cross and distant, and Amy's sort of ~~cross, mad~~ brilliant, but.

Do you know what that 2000 years did to me? I...sometimes, I don't even know. I feel...sometimes I feel like I just. I was so guilty. And I love Amy so much. And I needed. To do it. But the times there, all those years...I just...it was so long. Things. Sort of. Fade. I forgot, almost everything. And there were times...where nothing mattered.

You became better because of what happened to you. And the world, the universe needs you. Colligo, everyone here needs you. River, my daughter needs you, and I am not letting her down. Or you.

...And Doctor. I just. I need you too.

So you better as hell not...not die. You have to promise me. We went through that once. And I can't go through it again Doctor. And...neither could River. I believe that.

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( Rory )

amadmanwithabox
2011-11-16 05:05 am UTC (link)

If I do, I'll come back. I've made something of a habit of it. I want you to know that. If something happens, I will come back. I promise.

You know...that's not nice. I mean...it's a bit true, but it's not nice. The rest of it's nice though. I like the rest of it. Just not the part about me being thick. And you are absolutely brilliant, Rory. Never let anyone say otherwise.

You know...you're about as old as I am. That's right. Meant to say. I might have been...underselling my age a bit. Really closer to the two than the one with the thousands. Never mind. Not the time. Anyway, I do understand. And you can talk to me about things like that. And you became better too, you know that, right?

Well...you know...I need you. Just...so we're clear.

I can only promise I'll do my very best not to. And you...do the same, okay? And no guilt!

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