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theboywhowaited (theboywhowaited) wrote in colligo_network,
@ 2011-11-13 14:50:00

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idris, jack harkness, rory williams, the doctor (11)

[Meant to be private to River, but very much public]

...Mels. Melody. Listen to me. I...can't say I understand. I don't know what's happening exactly, but we've known each other our whole lives. I know...I know you might be angry at me, I'm angry at me. I didn't protect you. I didn't help you. I wasn't there for you and you deserve better. But more importantly...all of this is my fault.

If you want to blame anyone, blame me. Not the Doctor. The Doctor saved me. He saved Amy. He made our lives have meaning and...he's my best friend. It's my fault that this has happened to you. It's my fault you didn't have a dad, didn't have a childhood, that things turned out this way.

Please. Talk to me. Let the Doctor's friends go.

[Actually private to Jack]

...I need your help. I'm going to try and find River. Do you think you could maybe give me a hand...?

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	Private to Rory timeaftertime 2011-11-13 09:04 pm UTC (link)
	Absolutely. If Molly regains consciousness and can tell us where to go, we'll ask her what she saw. They obviously didn't bring Rose back here to her house or we would've seen her. Any idea how this River's mind works? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Private to Jack theboywhowaited 2011-11-13 09:12 pm UTC (link)
	Right...right. And I think so. I mean. I've grown up with her and everything...~~And...she's my daughter~~ I think I can talk her out of it. I just. I need to find her. Worst comes to worse, we'll restrain her. I'm...pretty good with a sword, and can handle a fight. But I...don't think it'll come to that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private to Rory timeaftertime 2011-11-13 09:49 pm UTC (link)
	Uh, Rory, tell me you've seen Indiana Jones? Sword versus gun. And you know she's VERY good with a gun. She's pretty likely to have one, too. How about I count on you to be the distraction so I can get Rose out of there? </s>And if I get the chance to take a shot, I will.</s> (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private to Jack theboywhowaited 2011-11-13 10:13 pm UTC (link)
	Er. Right. Well...okay. That's true. Listen. Just...let's try to avoid the gun thing. Or at least...the shooting thing. She is my daughter. ...Is Molly at the hospital? I work there, I could tell you the instant she's awake. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private to Rory timeaftertime 2011-11-13 10:16 pm UTC (link)
	Damn, sorry, didn't mean for you to see that. And I'm sorry, but I really doubt SHE will avoid the gun and/or shooting thing. If I do have to shoot, it'll be to incapacitate her, not kill her. I think Molly must be at her place, since someone was there with her. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Private to Jack

theboywhowaited
2011-11-13 10:47 pm UTC (link)

If the Doctor's taught me anything, it's not to stoop to a level where you end up killing others. And more importantly, try to understand...even when they've hurt you or those you loved. I...understand incapacitating her. But that is my daughter and no one is hurting her, in any circumstances. I will take care of this. I will take the responsibility for this, but she is not going to die, you understand? I'll be the distraction. You get Rose and anyone else out of harms way and leave me to it.

And right. Do you know where she lives? We should take it from there.

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	Private to Rory timeaftertime 2011-11-13 11:00 pm UTC (link)
	I've learned plenty from the Doctor, believe me. But we disagree about the use of weapons, and how far "understanding" should go. And I understand about wanting to protect your daughter. It's not exactly anywhere close to a situation that mine would be in, but I get it. Try not to get yourself killed. Yeah, I do. [Molly's address] Meet you there. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private to Jack theboywhowaited 2011-11-14 01:24 am UTC (link)
	Right...~~Actually, I think and River might be more alike than you think~~ Good. Then just. To make it clear, let me handle her, you handle whoever's been captured, that's that. I'm on my way there now. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Private to Rory timeaftertime 2011-11-14 01:50 am UTC (link)
	We'll be there, me and Ianto, to handle anyone held captive. You'll handle River. The Doctor does whatever he's going to do. We'll see you at Molly's. </s>But don't think I won't shoot the Master if I get the chance.</s> (Reply to this) (Parent)

	( Rory ) amadmanwithabox 2011-11-14 12:43 am UTC (link)
	I know you're upset with me right now, but you should still respond when I'm asking where people are. You know me. I usually have a pretty good reason. I'm glad you're all right though. </s>I was worried she might have done something. To punish me. I certainly deserve it.</s> You really think I'm your best friend? (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Eleventh Doctor theboywhowaited 2011-11-14 12:53 am UTC (link)
	Sorry--I've....I've been busy, I haven't really...been looking at the network. But I'm okay...I'm definitely...okay. But. Doctor...why is she doing this? And--what do you mean punish you, you haven't done anything. This isn't your fault. ...And...well that. Was...actually supposed to be private. ...But yea. Yea, I really do. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

( Rory )

amadmanwithabox
2011-11-14 01:00 am UTC (link)

Oh. I thought you just weren't talking to me because you were cross with me. Which is fine, by the by. You have every reason to be cross with me.

Because it's my fault. It always is, when you think about it. I find you lot and I take you with me and then you get hurt and you wouldn't if I'd just left you alone. I get lonely and I find people and it always, always makes it worse for them.

They took her from you. They raised her and they made her into a weapon to kill me. And she's perfect for it. Of course she is. But she's hurting people and I have to stop her, but I can't, because she's my wife and even if she wasn't she's yours and Amys. So don't you see? I could never hurt her. And they knew that. So this is all my fault. All of it.

And I have to do something, but I haven't the faintest idea what. I can't help Rose without being willing to hurt River. And I can't bring myself to hurt River. And none of them understand. Not really. I'm sorry, Rory. I'm so, so sorry. It never should have been like this. I'm the reason why you don't get to raise your daughter. I'm the reason she's hurting people. I'm the reason Rose is being tortured and maybe even killed and who knows who else will be hurt. So I'm sorry. I really am.

...It's good to hear that. You're mine too. You and Amy both.

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Eleventh Doctor

theboywhowaited
2011-11-14 01:21 am UTC (link)

Doctor...I'm not...I'm not avoiding you because I'm cross with you. I...I'm doing this because. I can't...

I...wanted a family. Some day. And everything you've shown us, every planet, every world. You're wrong. You've made me and Amy better. You make people better, it's what you do. You help people. And I want to be like that. At the end of it...I'd never change what's happened. I'd never...leave. I mean, I think. Sometimes. You know, about going back, but...I don't think I actually could. Me or Amy.

It's just. With River...she's my daughter. She's my daughter, Doctor, and I. Failed her. I let her grow up in a world where she had no one. It isn't you. I mean, you...help her. You and her fall in love. It's just. Right now, I can't look...at myself, I can't...be with you knowing what I've done, someday. I can't handle that.

...You and Amy. You, Amy, and River...you're all I have. I'm just...I don't know who I'm going to be someday. And that scares me.

I'm sorry.

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( Rory )

amadmanwithabox
2011-11-14 01:31 am UTC (link)

Rory. Rory, listen to me very carefully.

It was not your fault. It wasn't. Not at all. You were brilliant and brave and you did everything you could. I was supposed to find her for you. And I failed. And I always knew I would fail because...she's River. Obviously I couldn't change what happened to her. But she had you. She did. She was Mels. She grew up with you. You raised her. You did everything you could for her. And in the end, it wasn't me that made her change and become better. It was you.

You and Amy are my best friends. You're my family. And you're going to be what you've always been. The absolute best of humanity. Don't ever doubt that.

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Eleventh Doctor

theboywhowaited
2011-11-14 01:40 am UTC (link)

...Doctor.

Thanks, I...~~I just~~

But you're wrong, you know? I mean. I might be a bit...rubbish, but you always make people better. And. Well. You're sort of. The best we have. So guess we both sort of have to make do, huh?

That was a joke. Sorry. Still rubbish at that.

But...we can still save River, still help those people. Both of us, not just you. Let me talk to her. Let me talk to her and maybe we can stop this. If she is Mels, she'll listen to me. All we have to do is find them.

I'll...you know. Still be by your side. Probably...always will, actually. Just happens like that. And. Well. Like you said, we're sort of family, I mean, even if River and you weren't...you know.

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( Rory )

amadmanwithabox
2011-11-15 05:11 am UTC (link)

You're welcome.

I guess so.

I hope that we can. I mean we will. Things in this city never stay changed. She'll go back to being River soon enough. But she's not Mels. Not exactly. Parts of Mels are there, but we change.

That means a lot to me. But Rory, you need to realise that I might not walk away from this. Melody can kill me. She has done before. You need to be prepared for that possibility.

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Eleventh Doctor

theboywhowaited
2011-11-15 05:28 am UTC (link)

I...still don't get it, but. Doctor. She is not going to kill you. You are not dying again, I will not let that happen.

You are...listen, so. I don't know. Thick...sort of. Sometimes. I mean, you're brilliant. And. And kind. And mad, all dashing through the universe but you don't see. You help people! And. Save people, and you're so old but you still do it even after everything. And yes, I can be...sort of thick and cross and distant, and Amy's sort of ~~cross, mad~~ brilliant, but.

Do you know what that 2000 years did to me? I...sometimes, I don't even know. I feel...sometimes I feel like I just. I was so guilty. And I love Amy so much. And I needed. To do it. But the times there, all those years...I just...it was so long. Things. Sort of. Fade. I forgot, almost everything. And there were times...where nothing mattered.

You became better because of what happened to you. And the world, the universe needs you. Colligo, everyone here needs you. River, my daughter needs you, and I am not letting her down. Or you.

...And Doctor. I just. I need you too.

So you better as hell not...not die. You have to promise me. We went through that once. And I can't go through it again Doctor. And...neither could River. I believe that.

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( Rory )

amadmanwithabox
2011-11-16 05:05 am UTC (link)

If I do, I'll come back. I've made something of a habit of it. I want you to know that. If something happens, I will come back. I promise.

You know...that's not nice. I mean...it's a bit true, but it's not nice. The rest of it's nice though. I like the rest of it. Just not the part about me being thick. And you are absolutely brilliant, Rory. Never let anyone say otherwise.

You know...you're about as old as I am. That's right. Meant to say. I might have been...underselling my age a bit. Really closer to the two than the one with the thousands. Never mind. Not the time. Anyway, I do understand. And you can talk to me about things like that. And you became better too, you know that, right?

Well...you know...I need you. Just...so we're clear.

I can only promise I'll do my very best not to. And you...do the same, okay? And no guilt!

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	stoleatimelord 2011-11-14 04:30 am UTC (link)
	Pretty. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	theboywhowaited 2011-11-15 05:36 am UTC (link)
	Not...uh, now---sorry. What...what do I call you? It's just...kind of a bad time. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	stoleatimelord 2011-11-16 12:30 am UTC (link)
	Anything you'd like. I know it is. You forget that I do know everything surrounding Sweetie back home. Offering help and attempting to be a comfort. That's what you fleshy people do during a time like this, is it not? I'm offering. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	thenameofsanity 2011-11-14 11:40 pm UTC (link)
	What's happening? Why, I'm simply playing a game with the Doctor. That's all. Not a thing for you to worry about, daddy. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	theboywhowaited 2011-11-15 04:04 am UTC (link)
	No. No, this isn't you. I know you, Mels. I grew up with you. Please. Tell me where you are. Please. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

thenameofsanity
2011-11-15 05:07 am UTC (link)

Oh you poor, poor boy. You mean no one's bothered explaining it all to you? Regeneration, I mean. How we change? Looks. Personality. It's like receiving an entirely new lease on life, in fact.

I'm hardly the same Mels you knew before, Rory. I'm not following about after dear Amelia, listening to her stories of the Raggedy Doctor and wondering when you're going to get up the nerve to ask her out. I'm Melody Pond, the woman who managed to do what entire species have failed in the past. I'm the woman who killed the Doctor.

And I'm going to do it again. Just watch and see.

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	amadmanwithabox 2011-11-15 05:08 am UTC (link)
	Then do it. Just get it over with already and leave them out of it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	thenameofsanity 2011-11-15 05:10 am UTC (link)
	Oh, pishposh, where would the fun be in that?! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	amadmanwithabox 2011-11-15 05:12 am UTC (link)
	Oh come now. I'm much more fun than this lot. I'm hardly just going to let you kiss me this time. I've got your number, sweetheart. You'll have to try a bit harder this go around. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	theboywhowaited 2011-11-15 05:21 am UTC (link)
	Private to River No. You...listen. You are my daughter. And you are my friend. And whatever's happened to you, I don't care. I know this is my fault. And I know what that must've done. I just want to talk with you. Just. Please. Take me instead of Rose. Private to the Doctor. Doctor...stop. Please. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	( Rory ) amadmanwithabox 2011-11-15 05:22 am UTC (link)
	If she's focusing on me, she's not hurting anyone else. This is my fault, Rory. I need to stop it. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Rory thenameofsanity 2011-11-15 08:12 am UTC (link)
	Sorry, daddy dearest, but I really just don't think you'll scream as prettily as she does. Maybe next time though! (Reply to this) (Parent)

thenameofsanity
2011-11-15 08:09 am UTC (link)

Promises, promises, you old prude.

Oh, I don't know. I think I've put forth good effort so far. At least, I've made your dear, beloved pet wish for the sweet kiss of death. I'd let her say as much herself but, well, she's a bit indisposed at the moment. I'm sure you understand.

You will be coming along to get her soon, won't you? I'm growing ever so tired of hearing her shriek. Gives me quite an aching in my head.

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