Angel Grove OOC

I've come to a decision. I am leaving AG. This game is not a place for me anymore, it has slowed down considerably and there is a serial killer and the Devil in game. I am not down with that. I just had to make sure that losing lines was worth it, and when Chelsea left it was.

Especially since my other lines are mostly with Ash and Sar and those will be covered elsewhere. As will the ones with Chelsea. I have nothing against anyone except the one I do, this just isn't the place for me anymore. I'd be fine playing with most of you again, and I hope we do.

I have loved this game, but everything must come to an end.

Julia

So, due to real life stuff smacking me down and down I can't get back up at the mo. I am taking a hiatus. Right now I'm thinking till after Christmas.

But I lost some of my lines when Chelsea left, and the game seems to not be as active as it once was. Which is fine, but I feel like I don't really get to play my characters. So I'll be considering staying in game.

I'm not opposed to psl things in Docs, if anyone wants to continue lines. I also have my own game I created. Carry On.

But just consider this your warning. I've got a lot of grief going on right now and only reading really helps.

So I'm taking a rp break for a couple of days. Shit is beyond rough right now, but I don't want to go into it because it will just make me more angry and I already have anger issues.

I'll be back, but the break will possibly be longer if I keep just being awake and not getting sleep. I never really get any but it's worse at the mo.

So does anyone watch Stranger Things? I am going to start playing Billy Hargrove, Dacre Montgomery's character, and just wondering if anyone else has muses.

Billy is a douche, just a head's up. He has a reason, but he probably will tick certain characters off. It of course is not personal, I'm never like that.

I may play Dustin Henderson as well, but there aren't as many icons for his pb so that's more of an I need to get screencaps and make some situation.

Anyway, if no one has muses it's cool, just thought I'd ask.

Okay. As my family has managed once again to make me wish murder wasn't illegal, I won't be around for email. I probably will still tag because I need the distraction to not go and go all Evil Xena, but I don’t really want to socialize and I don't want to talk about it.

I don’t know when I have been this angry. I know I have been but it's been awhile. Their gall just astounds me. And apparently that whole golden rule thing doesn't apply to them.

Also, Sabrina Spellman and Charlie Bradbury are my new characters and I'm down for plots. Charlie is a lesbian from SPN, and Sabrina is the comic version. It's my first time playing her and I have no preconceptions. Open to anything. Although I do like her and Harvey together.

As I am currently trying not to cut my parents into little pieces, after I have told my father that his ill father deserves to die, I won't be reachable by email for a day or two. I have never wanted to kill them more than I do today.

It is still so painfully obvious that I am not treated the same as my sister, who apparently is a saint. But oh no, everything is fair. That is the biggest piLe of bullshit I have ever heard outside of OJ didn't kill Nicole and Trump is a decent president.

My feelings don't matter at all. My sister's illnesses are worse than mine according to them and I go through hell every day but oh, I don't WANT to get better, according to my father. This is why I don't spend time with them.

Because they can't go a day without pissing me off.

So.... yeah. It's been the worst week of my life since November when I lost my grandfather. So I will be around, but not as often as I have been. The reason it's been so bad is that I am without medication that I need in order not to be violent and screaming with people.

That medication is also partly helps me from suicide. I would never do it, because I was raised to believe it is a sin. I have never once attempted it even when the desire has been strong and lately it has been.

I'm not trying to trigger anyone. I just need to let everyone know that until I get into see a shrink, who is supposed to be the one giving me my new meds (story I don't want to go into) that I will be for the most part unmedicated. Which means two things, one, I won't be super talkative, and two, my rp is either going to be a lot for the use of a distraction or cut back a little to curb stress. And to conserve energy as it is taking all of mine not to go postal.

I can promise nothing except this is not an hiatus and I am changing Harry Dresden's PB to Jeffrey Dean Morgan.

When I am done with my reread of the books I will do that, and I will poke the mod box to remind.

Anyway, it's just a tread lightly post.

So because I am getting blamed for something my sister did, something she does literally every day and lies about it, I will be scarce the next couple of days. I'll still be tagging but I'll be slow and big tags will be when I get calmed down.

Because of COURSE I'm not telling the truth. Let's believe the liar over the one who doesn't lie. UGH.

I need a hiatus for a couple of days. At least a couple of days. I can't really go into why or I'm going to have a panic attack, so I will check back in in a couple of days.

It's... a really really can't handle any more stress time.

So I hit my head really hard on a 50s fridge. I bled like a stuck pig. Might need stitches, I wouldn't let them take me to the ER. Our ER is ridiculous and my grandmother passed away at that hospital. I don't like to go there if I don't have to.

Point being I probably won't be doing tags for a couple of days. I am fairly certain I don't have a concussion, and depending on what the wound looks like tomorrow I might try and see my doctor. Just so I don't have to go to the ER. I might do things that I can do from my phone, like net posts, but that's it, until we know what's what.

I honestly think that I'm okay, it doesn't really hurt and the bleeding stopped. It only hurt when it first happened. My mom is just being very cautious. Which is fine. It doesn't bother me. For once. I just wish I had showered when I thought about it, I can't now.

So. I am sort of back. I will officially be back at my house on Friday. The travel plans for NC have changed, I am not going till April. So I'll be around to do things till I leave. XD.

I will do my best not to post too much and spam the comms.

So I am officially on hiatus. I leave very early tomorrow morning. I will be back at the end of March. I will miss everyone!

Just assume my charries are chill until I get back.

So update. The time that my bestie and I are spending in NC has stretched to more than a week. So pretty much the entire month of March I will be gone. I probably could manage to be on some when I am in Raleigh, but I don’t want to take my laptop with me. I'm taking my notebooks, to write, books, my Nook, my tablet, iPod, possibly my external hard drive, just in case the bestie's cousin has stuff I might want on it.

But I don’t want to take Jamie. (My laptop) I will miss rp a lot. I will. Absence makes the heart grow fonder. None of ya'll give me stress, but this is my first vacation in 5 years. YEARS. So I am doing my best to keep it as stress free as possible.

Plus my laptop has stopped holding a charge, it has to be plugged in constantly. That isn't really stress relieving. And with my diseases, I'm not supposed to have stress. It'll be hard but I can be away from Jamie for that long. Especially as I will be smoking pot regularly during that month.

So, just an update/reminder.

Okay. I literally haven't slept in 24 hours. I'm currently trying to keep the good mood it took me at least ten hours to get.

My stupid father pissed me off within seconds of seeing me this morning. I've been up 24 hours and I have barely slept 20 hours for the week. FOR THE WEEK.

And it's all been other people disturbing me on top of my pills not working. Point being, taking a rp break for a day or two, or until I finally get more than 6 hours of sleep, whichever comes first.

So kiddies, come March 1st I will be on hiatus for at least three weeks. Going on a vacation to Disneyworld and then Raleigh, NC. I am not taking my laptop, I will take my tablet but mostly because it plays DVDs.

It's my first vacation in 5 years, and the bestie's going, as is my whole family. Get to see my niece, who is almost 4, at Disneyworld.

Just wanted to give lots of notice.

Okay. I am taking an rp break for a couple of days. I am barely sleeping, I am having a period for literally no reason, and my mother keeps royally pissing me off. I'm starting to wonder if it's on purpose.

I may not be my saintly sister but my feelings and wants should matter. Apparently they don't. Very cruelly had something out of my control thrown in my face as well and if you do that to my mother it's the end of the world. And she will hang on to it literally forever. That is factual information.

It's women like her that I am not dating one. Idk how she's gotten this far without pissing someone off enough for them to try and murder her. I really don’t. It's an amazing feat.

But she’s my mother. And I love her. Sometimes it feels like it's just because I HAVE to.

Okay. Tis Julia, and since I am waiting for pills to work I will intro my new charries. Three are because of Ash, for her Teen Wolf verse, and two are just because I waned to.

First up, an AU Ben from Supernatural. He is AU in that he is actually Dean's, and he's been apped with someone of who he would be the correct age. Dean was with his mom Lisa for a year during season 6, and he'd been with her previously, when he was younger. Lisa has passed away, and as Ben is 17, he needs his dad, so he was on his way to find him. When the spell was put on Lisa to make her forget Dean, Ben wasn't actually there. So he remembers Dean. That's the other way he's AU.

Second, a Marvel OC that is Deadpool's daughter. Her mother is his girlfriend in the movie. Alex is a lesbian, she has her father's immortality, and mutant powers from both of them. She is a mutant, and spent time at Xavier's per her mother's request. I use Blake Lively for the irony. She's recently turned 20 years old, and Wade never knew that he was her father, her mother and he broke up and she never told him. She's open for any and all plot.

Third, Marc's dad, Greg Williford. He is here post death, and he was with Marc's mom since he was 19 or so. When he hit his 40s, he started to fall for this hunter, Ted. They had a secret relationship for a year or so. The other hunters found out and made Ted kill Greg. He was going to tell Kona, Marc's mom, that he was leaving her for Ted before he was killed. If someone brought him in, I would love it. I'm already attached. I see him as Joe Manangiello, otherwise, I'd just love a Teddy for him. Greg is pb Jeffrey Dean Morgan, so there's fun confusion there.

Fourth, another of Ash's requests. Nora Salpeter. She is Marc's first turn as an Alpha. She and he have a kind of father/daughter thing going on. She's feisty, and she loves to be a werewolf. She had a crappy home life, and she knew there were weres, so she made sure that she got turned when she was 13. She's been jealous of all of Marc's lovers, not because she wants to be with them, but because they take his attention away from her. She loves Theo and Jackson, and she is friendly despite her tendency to get angry.

Last, but not least, another OC for Ash's TW world. His name is Rhys Moore. He was turned when Marc was briefly in Beacon Hills. They had a sexual relationship for awhile. Rhys is very quiet, keeps to himself, and is also very jealous of Marc's lovers. Especially Cath. He's part of the pack, but he's more of a lone wolf. He keeps to himself a lot, and Marc is the one who reaches out when he's been quiet too long. His pb is Rupert Grint because YES.

Plotses are love.

I am using John to leave this because of Jeffrey Dean Morgan's facial expressions. This one fits me rn. Everyone knows about my grandfather. Right now I can't really feel it. I'm just kind of numb, other than being incredibly pissed at my mother.

I have six new characters to intro, Cath Avery, Fangirl, Drew Morgan, a OC succubus, Marley Rose, glee, Dawn R. Schafer, Babysitters Club, Gene Belcher, Bob's Burgers, and Minerva McGonagall. She's a teenage Minerva.

I've done most of the ic posts, but right now I am beyond pissed and I can't bring myself to do it. Not to mention I should be sleeping. Damn body issues.... however none of them have any specific plotses other than Gene being a bro for Louise.

There are still charries I'll bring, I am sure. Still gonna bring a female!Chuckie of Rugrats for instance.

Just, right now, it's taking everything in me to not slap the white off my mother. I still need rp distractions.

When I get some sleep, I needs all the things.... my mom is pissing me off so much and I have a hormone imbalance that makes it literally impossible to stop being angry. Keeps snapping at me for no reason....

I did SO much for her today by not screaming at or beating the fuck out of relatives that deserve it. It literally took everything in my power to not lay the smackdown. So this bitching and snapping is royally testing my will power. Especially since I'm not allowed to take my anger out on others. It happens to me literally every day.

I need the rp or I will snap and lose control. Literally.

Okay. It's official. Today starts the process of my grandfather passing. He signed a DNR, the drugs to put him asleep are going to be administered shortly.

Tags may not be done tonight, they may be. I haven't slept since yesterday so while I need major distraction I am not sure if I'll pass out or not. Right now I am drugged and numb. No sleep and may not get any.