This Thea is the best that she could do (besticoulddo) wrote in valarnet, @ 2013-03-07 23:10:00 |
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Current mood: | blah |
Entry tags: | beth cassidy, cassandra cain (blackbat), robert frobisher, seiya kou (sailor star fighter), sister jude martin, thea queen, thor odinson |
So let's be honest, and we'll call that one a massive Thea fuck up. Not dismissing but just calling it like it is. I have hurt people and I'm sorry and I have no idea how you start apologizing for the fucked up shit like this. I knew what I was doing, and I did it anyway because...I don't even know why it happened.
I think it's really important that I figure out WHY it did so I don't wind up doing it again to somebody else, so that's what I'm mostly gonna be working on the next several weeks. I have no idea what you do to come back from this level of fuck up other than stay the hell away from the person you hurt, apologize, which sounds stupid and trite and nobody's gonna buy at this level, and...Yeah. The parts that follow are where I'm hitting walls.
So I'm that bitch who got caught mid pretty heavy makeout by her boyfriend, ex boyfriend, with another guy. I'd like to own it and repair it but some stuff you can't fix and I get that. Doesn't mean I don't want to TRY.