Claire Elaine Bennet (some_kinda_hero) wrote in paragraffiti, @ 2008-06-17 19:25:00 |
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Entry tags: | angela petrelli, claire bennet, claire bennet (future), hiro nakamura, nathan petrelli, sam winchester |
I didn't mean to run away...it's just that I wanted everyone to know about my powers. I wanted to help others like me to not feel like they're alone. I was sick of pretending and hiding, I was sick of suppressing what makes me me. I was done pushing people away. I miss my family. And I wish they could miss everything too, that they didn't have their memories erased.
I want to call you Dad, but I don't know how. I want to say I love you, and I do, but I'm scared to voice it. I'm scared of rejection. When everyone else goes running to their person, I wanted it to be you or Peter. But now your other family is here. The kids who grew up calling you their father and weren't abandoned. Sometimes, I hate that Noah and Nathan both start with the letter "N."
I started to fall for someone that I never should have. It's taboo and gross and so, so, wrong, but we didn't know and things just...clicked. We never talked about it, but I'm pretty sure he knows. Maybe you even felt the same way at one point.
I think having a future self hanging around is weird. It's not fun and I don't think we're gonna be friends any time soon.
I don't want to be alone and I hate that I have to admit that.