Trying not to think about cancer and radiation and vomiting and sickness. Feeling grateful that he's alive, solid in my arms.

and

I don't want to think about that now, just want to focus on this. The feel of Brian's hand on my cock, and my hand on his. The taste of his mouth. The smell of the sweat on his neck. I lean in and lick at it, wanting to absorb him.

it was hot but more than that it was intimate, passionate and just beautiful.

I'm glad i waited to read this until i had the time to focus and really appreciate it.