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Lorna Dane loves rocks and math (compassrose) wrote in worldinherhands,
@ 2008-11-04 09:39:00

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lorna dane, mia jesbar, simon

So one minute I'm fine and bouncy.

And the next. . . it's like no time has passed.

Maybe not exactly the same. But. . . I think I need to deal with the whole mess.

It's silly that I've done so much, and can't deal with the fact that I used to be in a relationship with someone who I may or may not still love.

But I'm beginning to think that I'm in love with Simon. Which is. . . amazing.

But until I've actually dealt with the issues I have with Alex, I can't really honestly go into a new relationship. And neither Simon nor I deserve that.

At least I didn't hide in the closet again.

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	psimon 2008-11-04 11:47 am UTC (link)
	Whatever you need, whatever it takes. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	compassrose 2008-11-04 11:52 am UTC (link)
	I know, baby. I'm sorry. When you get home, I'll probably glomp on you and snuggle a lot. It. . . won't bother you if I hang out with Scott, will it? It'll be nice to talk to someone else who's been through some of the same stuff. And I want to tease him about his new girlfriend. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	psimon 2008-11-04 12:01 pm UTC (link)
	You have nothing to be sorry about. Not at all. He is your friend. If you want to bring him back here, you are more than welcome, to, or just go, and hit that coffee shop you like so much. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	compassrose 2008-11-04 12:03 pm UTC (link)
	That sounds good. It's been a while since I've gone there. We should have hot chocolate when you get home. Now I'm in a hot drink kind of mood. How's filming going? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	psimon 2008-11-04 12:06 pm UTC (link)
	Sounds good. Okay. Just helped film a gang bang. It was fun. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	compassrose 2008-11-04 12:07 pm UTC (link)
	Were you a bangee or a banger? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	psimon 2008-11-04 12:08 pm UTC (link)
	A banger, today. Tomorrow, I can be a bangee. I am growing stronger with mind illusions. Guys like redheads. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	compassrose 2008-11-04 12:10 pm UTC (link)
	Oh really? I have an image inducer that we can test that theory with. You know, I've never known anyone who can make me smile so easily. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	psimon 2008-11-04 12:13 pm UTC (link)
	Heh. I am glad. Should I show up tonight as a sweet innocent redhead to make you giggle? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	compassrose 2008-11-04 12:15 pm UTC (link)
	Well, one of us should be a cute, sweet redhead. I'm not picky about who, really. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	psimon 2008-11-04 12:28 pm UTC (link)
	Lol. Hm. You could be this time, if you like? I prefer green, but red is nice. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	compassrose 2008-11-04 12:29 pm UTC (link)
	Well, you can be the redhead, then. I like green hair better on me, anyway. 'Cause I'm seeeexy. And you look good no matter what. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	psimon 2008-11-04 12:37 pm UTC (link)
	Ooooo? hehe. Okay. One sexy little redhead girlie just for you, coming up. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	compassrose 2008-11-04 12:49 pm UTC (link)
	Hee! And then a dark haired man to take me once I've worn her out? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	psimon 2008-11-04 12:54 pm UTC (link)
	Hmmm, surely, darlin. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	compassrose 2008-11-04 01:27 pm UTC (link)
	God, you're so incredible. I can't wait until you get home. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	psimon 2008-11-04 01:30 pm UTC (link)
	Mmmm, see you this evening, love. (Reply to this) (Parent)

	Lorna miaj 2008-11-04 08:12 pm UTC (link)
	Whoa, wait. You sound way too much like me just with the names changed. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Mia compassrose 2008-11-05 12:00 am UTC (link)
	Then you definitely need to join me for ice cream sometime. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lorna miaj 2008-11-06 12:19 am UTC (link)
	So what happened? I mean, it sounds like I wrote it. So I should know. But what happened to this guy Alex? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Mia

compassrose
2008-11-06 08:08 am UTC (link)

He was my lover. At one point we were engaged, but that didn't work out.

We were just getting our shit together, and thinking about what we really and truly wanted out of life and each other when we were captured by his brother (who we'd been looking for. He was trying to conquer the galaxy, or some shit). Alex is put in a room where nothing is visible, and the only thing he can sense is the sound from the adjacent room.

Which is where everyone else in the crew went. We were tortured, because he's most affected by being powerless to help the people he loves.

His brother showed up today, and apologized for not coming to rescue us. It just brought up old memories. I wasn't dealing with the shit that had happened then, because there was never time. So when I got here, I had (and have) a lot of issues to sort out.

What's your story?

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Lorna

miaj
2008-11-06 11:44 pm UTC (link)

Not nearly as qualified as yours to give me an emo or whining pass. I should stop that, really.

Fell in love with someone in the last reality I was in, then I guess I disappeared there and found myself here. Having trouble moving on with a new guy I'm interested in, for a lot of reasons I guess.

No torture though, so that's been a plus. But I still have a lot of issues.

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	Mia compassrose 2008-11-07 12:08 am UTC (link)
	Losing someone you love is always hard. Torture is just an added emo bonus. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Lorna miaj 2008-11-07 04:28 pm UTC (link)
	So how are you dealing with moving on? Your post said you'd found someone new. I think I have too, and I try not to rebound, and people I know tell me I should move on and not worry about him, but I can't do that so easily. He was my best friend. I worry about him and there's no way to tell how he is. I don't want him to be alone. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Mia

compassrose
2008-11-07 08:58 pm UTC (link)

I have found someone else. But I also know that if I had the chance, I would still risk my life to save Alex. I love Simon, but there is so much history between Alex and I. . . I would save him for that alone.

But I don't think, at this point, I would resume our feeble gropings for a relationship.

I don't know, I don't think I'm the person to talk to this about. I don't know what the fuck is going on in my head. But there's no point in holding yourself back when you're stuck here.

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