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Tweak says, "Slowly take off my... bandage!"

Remus John Lupin (chocoholic_wolf) wrote in wished,
@ 2009-08-02 00:40:00

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!1997: 08, !incomplete, nymphadora tonks, remus lupin

WHO: Remus and Tonks
WHAT: Remus wants to comfort Tonks about the loss of Moody
WHEN: Just after the 7 Potters Battle
WHERE: The Burrow (at least to start)
RATING: PG-13?

Remus still couldn't believe it... Moody, Hagrid, and even little Hedwig.. gone. He paced back and forth for a bit, trying to clear his head as everyone at the Burrow made their assessment of their injuries and losses. After all was said and done though, Remus found himself staying slightly distanced from the main group as they comforted each other.

He wandered into the kitchen, fixed two mugs of tea, then quietly went in search of the one person he desperately wanted to talk to. However, he figured he was probably the last person she wanted to see after everything that had happened over the past few months. Remus sighed and gathered his Gryffindor courage, then went in search of Tonks.

"Brought you some tea," he murmured softly, offering the mug to her. "I'm so sorry about Alastor... I know you two were very close."

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nymphadarling
2009-08-06 08:19 pm UTC (link)

Tonks remained silent as he spoke, her hands also clasped together tightly. What was she supposed to say? He had been careless and brazen to go into the pack as he had, and she'd spent the past year worrying herself to death over him. As far as she knew, his venture hadn't produced results, and who had truly expected it to? The werewolves and Greyback had been aligned with Voldemort since the first war.

But Remus had believed, and she wasn't the sort to dash his hopes. She had never used it against him, and she wasn't about to start calling him wrong now.

"You did what you thought was right." Tentatively she reached out to set one of her hands over his. "And at great risk to yourself. You did nothing wrong. I only wish--" She stopped and sighed. "I wish it hadn't been so dangerous is all."

She kept her eyes firmly on the empty fireplace, not having the faintest idea of how to take what he was telling her. "I don't - what are you saying, exactly?"

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chocoholic_wolf
2009-08-06 09:16 pm UTC (link)

"No, I did what Dumbledore wanted. He made it very clear that I was 'uniquely suited' for the mission and left very little room for debate. And it turned out to be a complete and utter waste of time," he said bitterly. "Not to mention being close to a suicide mission, had I been found out earlier."

Remus looked down at their hands, closed his eyes for a moment, then looked back at Tonks. "What I'm saying is that I'm sorry. I was a fool and if I could take it all back, I would. And if..."

He lightly brushed his thumb back and forth against her fingers and whispered, "And if you'll still have me, I want to make things right."

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nymphadarling
2009-08-06 11:44 pm UTC (link)

"Dumbledore is usually right. You had no way of knowing it would turn out to be a fruitless mission." Tonks had strangely mixed emotions hearing him talk about what he'd spent the past year of his life doing. On one hand, she was glad he realized just how dangerous it was. On the other, she felt a creeping sense of dread--what if he had been killed? Would he have thought it not to be worth it?

She cracked a tiny smile. "I've been telling you it was a suicide from day one. Shows how much you listen to me." It was as much of a sense of humor as she was able to show right then, but she was trying.

At his request, her breathing hitched and she didn't say anything for several seconds. Not because she was hesitant, but because she didn't know words strong enough to convey what she wanted to say. So instead, she said in an equally quiet voice, "Of course I will."

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chocoholic_wolf
2009-08-07 12:06 am UTC (link)

For a moment, he thought he'd heard her wrong. Remus' eyes widened in surprise and he was completely speechless. "Of course I will." Those four little words did wonders to erase the pain and frustration he'd felt for months.

Remus turned and wrapped his arms around Tonks, holding her close against him. He tenderly kissed the top of her head and grinned before replying, "I'll have to make it a point of listening to you more often."

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nymphadarling
2009-08-07 12:25 am UTC (link)

Having his arms around her helped take away some of the heaviness of loss that filled her, and she sighed silently against his chest. Maybe it was the stress of the day, or maybe it was her need to be as close to him as she could be, but Tonks wanted more, so she raised her head and gave him a soft kiss.

"You'd better." Her second small smile was testimony to her attempt at a joke. "I don't see how we'll work it out otherwise."

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	chocoholic_wolf 2009-08-07 12:49 am UTC (link)
	"I promise," he murmured, leaning down to kiss her again. Remus sighed quietly and gently rubbed his hand up and down her back. He smiled and closed his eyes, resting his head against hers. "I've missed you, Dora. I've missed us." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

nymphadarling
2009-08-08 08:16 pm UTC (link)

Tonks felt a rush of warmth run through her, trying to invade the numbness, and to some extent, it managed. This would never be a good day, but at least there was a small bit of happiness to shine a light in the dark.

"I've missed you too, you great big arse," she said heavily, but with affection as she found his free hand and squeezed it. "Don't ever do that to me again, okay?"

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	chocoholic_wolf 2009-08-09 12:44 am UTC (link)
	"I won't, love. No more trying to make decisions for the both of us, unless I actually talk to you about it. I solemnly swear it," he joked, squeezing her hand back and smiling at her. "I want to do things right this time." (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

nymphadarling
2009-08-09 08:21 pm UTC (link)

"There isn't any one right way to do things," she assured him, setting her head on his shoulder. "Just don't run off and get yourself killed, and I'll consider that enough."

She cast her gaze around the room. It felt strange allowing herself to have this moment of happiness when so much disaster had happened that day. "Are you hungry?" she said softly, not at all hungry herself, but it was only polite to ask.

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chocoholic_wolf
2009-08-10 05:53 am UTC (link)

Remus chuckled softly and kissed her temple. "Believe me, I have absolutely no intentions of getting killed. Especially now."

When she asked about something to eat, Remus shook his head. He didn't have much of an appetite after what had happened today during the battle. "Not really... I wouldn't mind some tea though, if you have any. Or I could make some for us?" he offered.

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