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Tweak says, "What is this a missile launch?"

Jack Sloper (jackisnimble) wrote in wished,
@ 2010-09-21 09:50:00

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!2003: 09, !complete, andrew kirke, jack sloper

Who: Jack Sloper and Andrew Kirke.
When: September 21st. Morning.
Where: Their flat.
What: Jack comes back after his random kiss-and-run.
Rating: TBD.
Status: Complete/closed.

Jack felt like a right prat. Especially after his conversation with the girls the night before. Could it be that he actually fancied Andrew? His best friend in the world? Was that was he was so adament that Frank was a knobhead? Was he jealous?

Well, it certainly would explain a lot of things. He had always loved Andrew... but as a friend. Had it become more than that without his knowing? Jack knew he hated the idea of Andrew dating Frank - or Andrew dating anyone, for that matter. He knew that he always wanted him around, preferred his company to anyone else's.

Did he fancy him?

Jack couldn't figure it out. But after having spent the night away from the flat, he knew he had to return and actually talk to Andrew. And maybe that would make things make sense. He hoped so.

He returned to the flat all meek, because he felt bad for how he had left things. A veritable kiss-and-run it had been. He did not come empty handed. No, he had a box of Andrew's favourite pastery-type treats. Jack let himself into the apartment, closing the door quietly behind him.

"Andrew?"

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kirkevsgravity
2010-09-23 07:11 pm UTC (link)

Andy curled up a little more as Jack came closer feeling the bed move as Jack's knees pressed against it - Jack didn't climb on and Andrew wondered what was coming next when Jack was apologising again.

He looked confused as Jack said that he kissed well, and there was a healthy dose of hurt in there too because it was what Andrew wanted to hear apart from the fact that Jack didn't mean it the way he wanted to, the way he would have meant it if he'd told Jack how the kiss had felt to him.

He looked over as Jack got onto the bed and smiled at him in that awful way again, didn't reach out because he didn't know if he could keep his hands steady. "You don't have to apologise at all; it's okay Big Spoon." he said quietly.

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jackisnimble
2010-09-23 07:16 pm UTC (link)

Jack frowned because he knew Andrew. Nearly as well as he knew himself. And he could tell that Andrew was doing that thing where he curled in on himself, made himself as small as possible, as if he could disappear.

Which Jack was certainly not going to let happen.

"It's not okay, Little Spoon," he said, softly, crawling across the bed to him. If Andrew wouldn't come to him, he'd go to Andy. And he did, until he could reach out and touch him, touch his hair, hand sliding down his neck, nudging to to roll onto his back, to stretch out.

He got the feeling that Andrew didn't believe him, and so he said what words could not, by lowering his head, his hair falling around them both as he kissed Andrew again. Except this time there was no flaily running away afterwards.

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kirkevsgravity
2010-09-25 06:10 pm UTC (link)

Andrew should have known that Jack would see through what Andrew sincerely wanted to be true but which wasn't at all. He held his breath when Jack came closer, the proximity feeling different from anytime it had before, changed by the kiss that had happened between them.

He closed his eyes but breathed again as Jack touched him, familiar fingers burning parts of his body that they had always touched before but which felt so different now. He turned over as he was wordlessly urged but he made a slightly wounded sound, something that was just pure heartbreak as Jack bent down to him and took his mouth again. He breathed, kept his eyes closed, his hand came to push tentatively into Jack's hair but he felt that pain grow inside him until it leaked out as tears because this was never going to be what he wanted it to.

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jackisnimble
2010-09-25 09:46 pm UTC (link)

Jack kissed him softly, tentatively at first, as if learning every curve of Andrew's lips. He knew the other boy's body rather well - from playing together, lounging together, sleeping in the same bed curled up together. But kissing, that was new, and he wanted to learn it all.

And was quite happy to go on kissing - until he tasted the salty tears begin to slip into the kiss. That made him pull back, frowning when he saw the tear tracks on Andrew's face. He was crying?

"Andy, what's wrong?" he asked him, thumb catching up some of the tears as he wiped his cheek. "I'm not that bad, am I?" He'd never had anyone cry when he kissed them before! "Is it... Frank? Do you actually fancy him?" It hadn't occured to him that Andrew might actually like that guy. Really like him. "Is that it?"

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kirkevsgravity
2010-09-26 12:30 am UTC (link)

Andy licked at his lips, tasting Jack as his best friend pulled back and as much as Jack tried his thumb couldn't brush away the new set of tears that came; fuck, Andrew was such a girl.

He shook his head first because no, Jack really wasn't bad at kissing, but the next thing Jack said had Andy hiccuping a sob or a laugh or both.

"Frank's awesome, really, and I like him." he said, sniffing a little, and then his eyes clouded over with want and hurt. "But I couldn't love anyone else the way I love you."

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jackisnimble
2010-09-26 12:33 am UTC (link)

Jack felt his heart plummet out of his chest when Andrew said that Frank was awesome. He was pretty sure if he looked down he would see his heart there, in his lap, a big bloody mess. Which was a gross mental image, really.

But then Andrew kept on speaking, and his heart soared. "You love me?" he echoed, sounding surprised (oh, dense Jack). A grin slowly, but surely, spreading across his face, getting bigger and bigger.

"You love me?" And then he was pouncing on Andrew again, the force of it rolling them off the bed and over the side. Jack thudded to the floor and his breath wooshed out as Andrew landed on top of him. Blinking his eyes open again, he grinned.

"Hi. So then don't date that knobhead. Date me."

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kirkevsgravity
2010-09-26 01:19 am UTC (link)

Andy took Jack's repetition and the questioning tone the wrong way at first, his brow furrowing in what was starting to be upset before Jack seemingly tackled him out of the bed to the floor; he was surprised he'd ended up on top but tried not to lean on Jack too much for fear of crushing him somehow.

He looked down at Jack as the other boy grinned up at him, but his replying smile dropped at what Jack said. "What?" he asked, sitting up (and astride Jack's hips but he wasn't thinking about that right then). "What, are you... are you just saying that to get back at Frank?" he asked, his voice wavering because he didn't think Jack would be that cruel but he couldn't believe that Jack felt anything like the same way back for him. "You, do you hate him that much that you'd..."

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jackisnimble
2010-09-26 01:24 am UTC (link)

"What? No!" Jack yelped in response and shook his head quickly. "Of course not!" He shook his head quite quickly and insistantly, to further prove his point. He didn't like Frank, that was true, but really, Frank didn't matter.

"I want you to date me, silly," he said, his fingers tickling up Andrew's sides. "I realized.. I was jealous. That's why I didn't like him. Because I wanted to be the one dating you. You're my Little Spoon, Andy." He reached up to touch his cheek, fingers sliding up so they could slip through his hair, brushing it back.

"Be my boyfriend too. My best mate and my boyfriend."

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kirkevsgravity
2010-09-26 01:32 am UTC (link)

Andrew knew he shouldn't have thought that of Jack but he couldn't help it - he was more prepared to believe an excuse for all this than the fact that Jack could actually feel the same way.

He squirmed a little at those feathering fingers but he didn't want to be distracted by them from what Jack was saying. All he could do was blink as Jack spoke to him in a way he'd always imagined as special to him before now but that he knew was especially with the touch that accompained it, one that almost hurt because Andy had been waiting for it for so long.

He looked down at Jack for a minute before lying down on top of him, putting his arms around Jack as much as he could and tucking his head in under Jack's chin. "I love you Jack." he said fiercely, still feeling a little thrill of far go through him as it came out into the open, everything he'd been feeling since that first year.

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jackisnimble
2010-09-26 01:35 am UTC (link)

Jack's arms closed around Andrew as well, hugging him in a slightly awkward way, since they were sprawled out on the floor and all, which wasn't entirely the most comfortable place in the world. Although really, Jack was quite content.

"You might have said something, you know," he said with a grin. "Apparently, I've been completely daft, so I've been told. Maisie says she's been waiting for this for years. Years! She could have said something as well." He tickled his fingers against Andrew's back.

"Someone could have clued me in at least." He kissed the top of Andrew's head. "Now how about we eat those pasteries I brought. I'm suddenly famihsed." He hadn't eaten since he'd run off the night before!

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kirkevsgravity
2010-09-27 12:45 am UTC (link)

Andrew could hve stayed there and died happy, perfectly content. He shivered a little as Jack hugged him back, the action one he'd felt many times before but never in this capacity.

"I'm sorry." he said to that, although he wished that he'd said something to. All that time wasted and all that needless heartache. "I just... I never thought you'd want me the way I've always wanted you."

The kiss to his head made him feel like a new page had been turned for them and he got up off Jack carefully getting back onto the bed and watching Jack get up.

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jackisnimble
2010-09-27 12:51 am UTC (link)

"Well I guess that makes us both a little bit daft," Jack said with a rueful little laugh. "But I think we can be forgiven." He sat up and then climbed himself onto the bed. Looping himself around Andrew, so his chest was against the other boy's back. He reached for the box and pulled it over, into Andrew's lap.

"I got your favourites," he said as he flipped the top open, revealing delicious looking baked goods inside. Really, a great sort of breakfast. It was like dessert, but in breakfast form!

Nuzzling the top of Andrew's head, he reached for one himself. "You look tired," he noted as he took a bite.

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kirkevsgravity
2010-09-28 09:46 pm UTC (link)

Andrew leant back into Jack's familiar, comforting form and wondered how things had changed between them so much that this felt like no other time they'd done this before; he felt settled and stable.

"You shouldn't have." he protested a little. "But thanks." He admitted with a smile, reaching in to pick something out and nibble on it, humming a happy little sound as Jack nuzzled into him. "Hmm." he said, agreeing softly. He wasn't about to tell Jack that he hadn't slept all night, although now that the misery was gone that was starting to catch up with him a little.

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jackisnimble
2010-09-28 09:59 pm UTC (link)

"Hmmm. So articulate," Jack teased him, nosing against the back of his head again. "Shall I take that as a 'Yes Jack, I am quite tired, you're so clever to notice'?" He grinned as he took a big bite of the pastery, and licked frosting from his fingertips.

"I'll just have to make sure you get your sleep," he murmured as he chewed and then leaned around to steal a bite of the pastery that Andrew held in his hand.

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kirkevsgravity
2010-09-29 01:16 am UTC (link)

Andrew grinned and then laughed a little through a mouthful of breakfast at Jack's teasing, shaking his head a little at the other boy's expansion on what he'd actually said, which hadn't been much to be fair.

He fought the desire to yawn as Jack spoke about sleep and then made an affronted noise as his pastry was deviously nommed on. "You know, you just have to ask." he said, leaning his head back and looking round enough that he could look back at Jack, smiling as he caught sight of some icing clinging to Jack's mouth - he still wasn't sure of where the lines of this new development of their relationship were, so he reached back to wipe the icing off the corner of Jack's mouth and suck it off his finger. "Mm, num."

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jackisnimble
2010-09-29 01:19 am UTC (link)

"I like my way better," Jack replied. "Much more ninja." His arm curled more snuggly around Andrew, holding him against his chest. Like he didn't want to let him go, which he really didn't. Something that could become awkward later when one of them needed to use the washroom, but oh well!

He nipped his teeth playfully in the direction of Andrew's swiping fingers and then finished off his pastery and licked his own fingers, because there was no sense wasting any delicious delicious frosting. He waited until Andrew was done eating, and set the box aside.

"Alright, you sir, Mr. Andy, are having a nap."

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kirkevsgravity
2010-09-29 06:26 pm UTC (link)

Andrew had to concede that point; ninja skills were far superior to just asking.

He sighed a happy little sigh as Jack snuggled him closer and yawned again, sore-eyed from needing sleep and staying awake all night. He licked at his lips to clean them and wondered if he was actually dozing off right there in Jack's arms.

He looked up a little, disturbed at the motion of Jack moving the box, and then yawned almost in reply to Jack's comment; he really couldn't protest and just tried to turn a little to lie up against Jack. "M, okay." he agreed, yawning yet again.

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jackisnimble
2010-09-29 06:29 pm UTC (link)

Jack laughed in a soft way when Andrew's lips parted in yawn after yawn. Oh yes, his boy was sleepy. Jack lowered him down so he was laying out on the bed, and sprawled himself next to him, keeping arms around him.

"Sleep, Little Spoon," he murmured, kissing his hair, which was soft and smelled like Andy, and whatever shampoo he used - they both used, really, since it was the one in the shower. He nuzzled and closed his eyes and found himself drifting as well. He hadn't really slept the night before either.

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	kirkevsgravity 2010-09-29 10:36 pm UTC (link)
	Andy reached to take Jack's hand and twined their fingers together so they'd be holding hands even in sleep. He gave a little sigh at Jack's soothing and then fell into a sorely needed sleep feeling happy in a way he'd never felt before. (Reply to this) (Parent)

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