Andrew should have known that Jack would see through what Andrew sincerely wanted to be true but which wasn't at all. He held his breath when Jack came closer, the proximity feeling different from anytime it had before, changed by the kiss that had happened between them.
He closed his eyes but breathed again as Jack touched him, familiar fingers burning parts of his body that they had always touched before but which felt so different now. He turned over as he was wordlessly urged but he made a slightly wounded sound, something that was just pure heartbreak as Jack bent down to him and took his mouth again. He breathed, kept his eyes closed, his hand came to push tentatively into Jack's hair but he felt that pain grow inside him until it leaked out as tears because this was never going to be what he wanted it to.