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Greg Goyle ([info]a_reticent_git) wrote in [info]wished,
@ 2010-06-19 08:09:00

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Entry tags:!2003: 06, !complete, gregory goyle, theodore nott

Volunteer surprises
WHO: Gregory Goyle and Theodore Notts
WHAT: Greg volunteering and finds Theo; tearful reunion
WHERE: Janus Thickey Ward, 4th Floor, St. Mungo's
WHEN: Present, Saturday
WARNINGS/RATING/STATUS: Tearful, sentimental and could get hot;NC-17; complete

He had his wand, and while he could  have fixed his clothes, he decided not to.  He didn't want to pretend he was anything that he was: a released prisoner absolutely down on his luck with not a galleon to his name, wearing the used clothes of his brothers, here to volunteer.  He was clean, and had found the little book,The Tales of Beedle the Bard, under a pile of other papers and things and as a second thought, Greg had grabbed it.  The advertisement had stated, "...read to patients for a period of thirty minutes a piece for no less than four hours a day....,." and Greg had been assigned to the position, sight unseen.

He was greeted by the head medi-witch with a raised eye-brow and a bit of sneer to her face; it hadn't phased him in the least.  Hadn't he lived with snooty Slytherin princesses for years at school?  What kind of mad dog stare from some bitch was going to phase him?  But he kept his tone polite, even if he used few words and she could only continue her degrading look.  She complete his paperwork, officially registering him as a volunteer at St. Mungo's.  He was given a badge that would allow him access to the floors, and then he noted some perverse look cross her face, something mixed with mean pleasure and glee.

"We are going to start you on the 4th Floor I believe, Mr. Goyle.  The mental ward will be your assignment for the present."

Greg could only gulp and nod; what choice did he really have?  And he followed her into the Janus Thickey Ward, more nervous than he had been in Azkaban.   She pointed to the first room and said, "You may start here," and turned and left.  Greg looked about, and moved inside to pull up a chair next to a person lying prostrate on the bed.  He cleared his throat, and with a nervous air, introduced himself and began reading from the book.

That had been three hours ago, and it hadn't been so hard as all that.  He had read to three patients, sort of getting lost in the story he was reading aloud and not realizing the time.   And the patients didn't say very much...well except for the second one who kept mumbling, "Green wands...green dragons...green pudding.....green fingers....green wands...," over and over.  Greg had just read louder, ignoring the man and checking frequently that his wand was well tucked away should the insane patient try to make a grab for it.

He rose to leave the room, and stretched, and wandered out of the hall for a moment to get a quick drink of water.  Slightly refreshed, he moved back into the ward and decided to head to the other side.  Passing one door and then the next, Greg stopped at the third and opened it without knocking, and started with his introduction speech (one that he was required to give), "Hello, I'm here as a volunteer to read to you....," he began, not really thinking the person in here would be listening.  The last three had been lying in their bed, almost comatose; this one was sitting at a small desk and when he turned his head, Greg's chest seized up and he couldn't breath for a moment.   All he could do was let out a hoarse whisper.

"Theo?"


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[info]booksmart_devil
2010-06-19 05:16 pm UTC (link)
Theo held his breath as Greg's hand came closer, closer, then alighted on his face, but it didn't hurt the way he'd expected it to. He closed eyes and let his breath go as Greg pet fingers into his hair. It was like no touch he'd felt but like all the ones that had come before, stacking up like dominos in the back of his closed head and slolwy starting to fall forward.

He twitched a little feeling Greg's hand at his waist, but it didn't hurt either. He didn't really understand what Greg said - his mind had gone back to a time when Greg had been planning to get the Mark. Theo still felt guilt for that, even though he couldn't remember why he was feeling guilty.

He moved as Greg urged, into the other boy's lap and slowly, almost uncertainly but gently as a tired child, leant towards Greg's chest, his head on the other boy's shoulder. Greg was solid and reassuring under him and when Theo closed his eyes to feel, fingers curling gently against the back of Greg's neck, he felt almost content. "Burned, burned down to nothing. Nothing, nothing left, nothing left, empty, empty eyes, empty eyes, empty eyes..." he fell into murmuring, rocking a little against Greg's chest.

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[info]a_reticent_git
2010-06-19 05:24 pm UTC (link)
And then, he was in his arms.

Greg encircled him, his strong arms wrapping about the frail man and he held him close. Greg's breath came in easy now, and with every breath he took in, he felt filled with Theo, over and over like a soothing, addictive drug. His nose was by Theo's head, and while Theo may not have been as clean as in the past, his aroma was one of familiarity and security and it made Greg tighten his arms about him.

"I'm okay, Theo, I'm fine. I made it. I'm not gone. Feel me. I'm here. I'm alive. I'm here, love. Salazar how I missed you," he said in an exhale, holding the now calming boy, rocking him slightly, not caring if an attendant came in or not. He moved a hand up, to find Theo's face, and he tipped back the other boy's chin. Greg's eyes feasted on Theo's face, the other boy's eyes closed even as his mouth opened and pursued, speaking over and over until Greg could stand it no more. He leaned down and crushed his lips to Theo's, to silence the madness and to kiss the man he loved.

And even as his lips locked to Theo's, Greg's arms were around the thin boy again, this time crushing him to him in his intense emotional outpouring. Something was welling up inside Greg and he found his eyes closing, squeezed tight to keep the tiny drops from spilling out.

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[info]booksmart_devil
2010-06-19 05:43 pm UTC (link)
Theo nuzzled in as Greg rocked him back, satisfying a need in him that was base and more instinctive than obeying a commanding tone. "I know you, don't I?" he said softly, looking back at Greg briefly before he was kissed. He almost struggled at first but he was calm, relaxed, kissing Greg back in a way that he remembered from before but there was a different kind of submission there now.

There was a submission there that came because there wasn't anything more of Theo anymore that could be anything but submissive; he wasn't well enough, yet anyway, to make decisions, to be independent, to be the person he once was.

He held back to Greg and let himself be drowned in the kiss, falling into it and forgetting that he hadn't been there for days and years. He thought he had homework to do.

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[info]a_reticent_git
2010-06-19 05:50 pm UTC (link)
Greg broke the kiss, almost grinning as tears slipped down the side of his face. He had both hands at the sides of Theo's face and he showered him with kisses across his cheeks and forehead, his eyes and nose and chin.

"You know me! Of course you know me! I'm your man," he said as he kissed him more, grinning at the foolishness of the question and the innocence of it. Greg stopped and pulled Theo to him again, rocking him, "Oh my poor love, what have they done to you? Have you been in here this whole time? Oh my poor Theo," he said, moving a hand to stroke his hair again, smoothing the soft long waves through his fingers.

Greg stayed like that, cuddling the skinny young man against him, soothing his hair as he breathed in and out. It was so deeply comforting to Greg; he hoped Theo liked it, and as the other did nothing to pull away, Greg could only assume that Theo did. He wanted to ask more questions but was just too overcome with relief that Theo was letting him hold him.

After a time, Greg roused himself to speak, "Shall I tell you how I've been? How I've come to be here? Do you want to know? I'm more than a bit curious about how you got into a place like this? Did your dad put you in here?"

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[info]booksmart_devil
2010-06-19 06:29 pm UTC (link)
Theo was bemused. Greg remembered him and had been thinking of him and wanting, but Theo didn't know. He'd been lost, was still lost, and things were happening fast, too fast, confusing his broken mind. He liked these touches though, far more than one doctors and nurses manhandled him for showers and examinations and those times where they had to force feed him because he didn't eat.

He didn't understand what Greg said about being there. "I live here..." he said, confused. "I'm from this, these walls-" he was going to continue but Greg cut him off with petting and cuddling and he melted into it, chewing on his finger because it soothed him.

He yawned a little and looked up at Greg as the boy-now-man spoke, tilting his head. He was about to answer and then Greg mentioned his dad... Theo went still, limp against Greg's chest, the lights on but no one in behind his eyes. It was the way he'd been found by the people who had then arrested him just after he'd killed his father, a puppet with the strings cut.

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[info]a_reticent_git
2010-06-20 01:59 am UTC (link)
Greg felt Theo change; he didn't stiffen exactly but there was something, an absence of something. He looked down, and tilted Theo back, even as Theo seemed to flop slightly, his head lolling back and it alarmed Greg suddenly. He put his hand to Theo's neck, to keep his head from falling back, much like a small infants, even as Greg's alarm flashed through his eyes. His other hand tightened on Theo, and he gripped the boy a bit hard in his concern.

"Theo?! Theo?! What is it?! Theo! What's happened?! Was it your da?" he demanded, even with the note of desperation in his tone, "If your da did this to you, I'm going to kill him," Greg said harshly. But his words seemed to have little effect on Theo; the response was so mute and Greg found he was holding a limp boy with vacant eyes. It made Greg panic and he laid Theo back on the bed, and moved to bend over him, staring into those blank eyes.

"Theo," Greg whined, his tone so desperate and tinged with remorse, "Theo...," he said, bending closer, laying next to the still boy, his fingers touching Theo's face, brushing the hair from his brow, to run down Theo's arm and take his hand. Greg lifted the boy's hand to his own face and made Theo touch Greg's cheek, even as Greg's brow furrowed more.

"Theo," he said, and he bent down to kiss the pale cheeks, and the boy's lips, "Come back," he said, pleading, "I've just found you! Come back!"

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[info]booksmart_devil
2010-06-20 02:30 am UTC (link)
Theo didn't feel Greg's gentle grip at the back of his neck, or the way the other boy's fingers pressed a little too hard into his skin (which would bruise later just because there was nothing between it and his bone); he didn't hear Greg's words, lost somewhere other, somewhere else.

He didn't realise he was being laid back down but the touch to his face was gentle enough to be unusual enough to bring him out a little bit. He sighed as Greg kissed him, his fingers curled a little against the unfamiliar-familiar face and he blinked lazily like he was drugged, almost looking through Greg. "What are you doing here?" he asked, sounding like each word was more effort than he could manage. "Don't you have homework. I'll help you." he turned his head to look up at the ceiling like he was thinking. "Do not eat before me. Hold still and be a good boy or you will never learn. Do not talk unless I have asked you a question or given you permission to do so. Do not speak, do not say anything, silence and snares, snares and traps and lying tongues, lying tongues..." He lapsed into silence but it didn't seem comfortable, trembling almost imperceptibly again unless you had a hand on him and could feel the shaking underneath his skin.

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[info]a_reticent_git
2010-06-20 02:41 am UTC (link)
"That's it, that's it," Greg said with some relief as he felt Theo touch him and a bit of the old Theo came back. Greg watched as the other boy's came alive, awake and Greg smile down at him.

"Homework? I don't have any....," and even as he spoke, his words trailed off as he listened to the things spew forth from Theo's lips. It sounded like rules. It sounded like crap Theo would have heard from his father, at least most of it did. Greg frowned again, feeling the shake that ran through Theo, and he bent down to kiss Theo again, pulling at him tenderly, tracing those thin lips with his tongue as he tried to rouse Theo again. It did not seem to have any effect.

"Theo," Greg pleaded, "Theo! I do have homework! I need your help! Please," he said, even as he rolled Theo towards him, gathering him up in his strong arms. He tipped Theo's head back and kissed him again, kissing Theo's face as he rubbed at Theo's back, trying to bring him back, "Please baby," he said, as he laid more kisses across Theo's face, "Theo, wake up, please," he pleaded again.

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[info]booksmart_devil
2010-06-20 02:45 am UTC (link)
Theo snapped back into 'reality' almost as quickly as he'd slipped out of it, like a circle coming back on itself. He struggled a little in Greg's arms, more because it was instinctual than because he thought he could get away; even in this there was hopelessness.

He stopped when he caught sight of who it was, lifting his hand to cup Greg's cheek, studying him carefully. "I know you, don't I?" he asked, like he thought he might but wasn't sure, like a word on the tip of his tongue.

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[info]a_reticent_git
2010-06-20 02:50 am UTC (link)
Greg felt him struggle and loosened his hold but not completely. He searched Theo's face, so fearful now that Theo was going to go away again in a blink of an eye, "You know me. I'm Greg," he said and he leaned in close to Theo, "You are Theo. You love me," he said simply, "Like I love you."

He paused there, and kissed Theo's cheek tenderly, and pulled back to lean his head against the mattress, his eyes full of concern, "Should I let you go? I don't wanna make you do something...," he said, loosening his hold even more, extremely reluctantly.

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[info]booksmart_devil
2010-06-20 02:55 am UTC (link)
Theo's eyes flickered confusion and he flinched when Greg kissed his cheek, the memories in his head of Greg not matching up to this person. "Greg? He looks different. You look changed."

He watched Greg with a solemn expression, not moving as Greg loosened his hold. "I will fall." he said, as though it were true. "Let me go and I'll fall, through your fingers, down to the floor and seep under the cracks, out into the outside, under the door." he started mouthing at his fingers again. "Under the door where light comes, voices spill out, smells of blood and scared. You know. Leaking under the door, dripping from hinges."

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[info]a_reticent_git
2010-06-20 03:01 am UTC (link)
It almost undid Greg, that flinch when moments ago, Theo had seemed pleased and willing. Greg shook his head, "It's me. Greg. I've..," and he faltered slightly, "I've gotten older. I'm still me, here," he said, taking one of Theo's hands and putting it on his chest, "It's still me. Theo, I love you," and he would have gone on, but the nonsense talk started again, and Greg struggled to keep up with it.

"Okay..I won't let you go. Theo, what are you saying?" he said, as he moved to pull the other hand away from Theo's mouth. Greg moved to sit up, frowning down at Theo in some confusion, "What are you talking about? Light? Voices? Theo, this is NOT the Nott Estate! Theo!" he said, his voice rising in his frustration, "Snap out of this!"

Greg's voice was stern and commanding. He didn't realize how insensitive he was being and he wouldn't care if he noticed. He just wanted Theo to stop the shit and act normally for a few minutes.

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[info]booksmart_devil
2010-06-20 03:06 am UTC (link)
Once again confusion and disbelief flitted over Theo's face and he looked down to where his hand was on Greg's chest, pushing in a little to feel. "Older? Where has the sand run to?"

He tried to curl his hand back up to his mouth but Greg raised his voice, the tone familiar enough to Theo although louder and more emotive than he remembered. He watched Greg with unknowing eyes and then put his hands over them, blocking everything out and huddling over, curling up. The most out of character thing of all, even more than the actions, was the keening noise Theo was making, tiny and quiet in his throat, distressed and upset in a way he couldn't control; he seemed afraid of Greg, part afraid and partly wanting to be away from the situation.

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[info]a_reticent_git
2010-06-20 03:14 am UTC (link)
Greg was horrified at the reaction he had caused. There was Theo, breaking down in front of him and Greg recognized it immediately. He'd seen it inside; sometimes, things just got to a fellow inmate and they would snap. It made Greg's shoulders drop and his face fell, all of his own anger and frustration evaporating as he watched the boy he loved curl in on himself.

He had let go of Theo at some point, and sitting beside him, Greg felt defeated and helpless. He moved a tentative hand out to the other and then, gently, he began to stroke Theo. Slow long luxurious strokes, like he used to use when he joked that Theo was his 'pussy' and he wanted to give his 'cat' attention. Down one arm, down Theo's waist, and down his legs Greg's hand traveled, to start the path over again.

And as he pet Theo, he murmured to him, his tone soothing and quiet, "Man, Theo. I'm so sorry baby. I didn't mean to set you off. Aw, honey, it will be okay. Gosh, Theo, I just want to help you. Tell me what I can do to help you honey. Should I keep doing this? Is this okay?" he asked as he felt tears prick at his eyes, this time for other reasons. He felt like a weak willed man, to get teared up again like this but Greg's emotions were up and down, feeling vulnerable as he found and then seemed to lose Theo before his eyes.

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[info]booksmart_devil
2010-06-20 03:19 am UTC (link)
Theo flinched hard when Greg's hand came down on him, but after the third stroke he'd started relaxing. After the fifth the keening and quietened to whimpering and eventually he grew silent altogether, an easy kind of relaxed silence, soothed out of his curl by that strong and firm hand.

He liked the murmuring, the low tone if not the words themselves, and nodded to the question. Touch was so hated in this place that he'd forgotten it could feel good like this, relaxing and soothing. He sighed and stretched a little bit before turning onto his tummy to get his back petted, turning his head on pillowed arms to look up at Greg, eyes half closed. "We have half an hour before class starts." he said, his smile turning suggestive, his mind clearly back in Hogwarts again.

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[info]a_reticent_git
2010-06-20 03:29 am UTC (link)
Greg let out a sigh himself, not realizing that he'd been holding his breath again, and he relaxed himself, leaning over slightly at Theo's side. His hand moved down Theo's back, not massaging but continuing his stroking even as he passed over Theo's butt and down the back of his thighs. Greg felt some relief flicker across his features and he gazed at the expression on Theo's face and felt that old flutter of want and grateful peace that he had got him back. But Greg didn't trust it, and had no intention of stopping his stroking.

"Only a half an hour?" he answered, playing along, and this time, as he stroked, he paused at the apex of Theo's legs, traveling down his buttocks to linger at that spot for a moment, "What did you have in mind, lover?" Greg answered and he couldn't help but feel himself react. He was not about to act on those feelings; he was terrified at the complications and ramifications that could arrive. Greg was a volunteer here; even getting caught doing this might be grounds for dismissal. Let alone if someone walked in and found his naked ass pumping as he rode Theo's; and even as that thought went through his mind, Greg thought he would risk a little tickle and suck. He found himself licking his lips and he gave a low chuckle.

"You're making me think of naughty things, Theo."

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[info]booksmart_devil
2010-06-20 03:33 am UTC (link)
Theo was gone in the past. Greg playing along only solidified the illusion and he purred, pushing back into Greg's hands the way he had done all those years ago between classes, in hallways, in alcoves, under trees, anywhere they could find. No time had passed in his mind. "I'm sure you can make good use of half an hour." he said, easing his legs open invitingly, smiling that devil's smile at Greg's confession. "You should share them with me." he encouraged.

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[info]a_reticent_git
2010-06-20 03:42 am UTC (link)
"Theo..,"

Greg's voice was doubtful, hesitant as his hand paused. But his fingers reflexively squeezed at the warm space there, his own mind going back to their countless times at school. And it had been a long, long time since Greg had been intimate with anyone; he'd never fallen victim to his own weaknesses like others had who were locked up in prison. He'd made use of his own hands and that was it, no matter the mild temptations he had felt at times.

His physical need was there, but he didn't like the idea of fucking him; it just felt wrong on so many levels. It was like he was going to use Theo; and what if in the middle, he came to? Or worse yet, went babbly mad again?

Greg looked at the door, and lifted his wand, flicking a locking spell on it securely before he bent his head down to Theo's and kissed that devilish smile with a deep wet pull, "Roll over and I could show you, lover," he purred, wondering how he would be satisfied with just sucking Theo off. Greg worried a bit that once he started, he'd have a difficult time stopping but a blow job.....and his mind snapped back to the moment at hand.

"You know my mind, love. Let's get them out and play?" he said quietly, almost shaking himself now as he touched Theo's back end.

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[info]booksmart_devil
2010-06-20 03:48 am UTC (link)
The hesitation in Greg's voice almost brought Theo out of the delusion and into the real light, but that touch against him had him humping briefly against the bed, shattering the clarity of thought and spiralling him back into the confusion of the past.

He heard the soft click of the lock but even that didn't tug him out of it, kissing Greg back playfully, teasingly, as though they hadn't not seen each other for five years because to Theo it had only been fifteen minutes.

He turned as told, lying on his back and looking up at Greg, bending one knee so that it exposed him in his hospital regulation pyjama pants. The material was caught under him from where he'd turn, wrapped over his hips and it just showed how pitifully thin he was, the sheet stretched above his concave tummy, his hipbones standing out sharp. "Play with me Greg, please. We have time before Potions." he said, urging Greg to hurry but not too much.

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